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Nikki Stern
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Author of "Because I Say So: The Dangerous Appeal of Moral Authority" (www.nikkistern.com) and "Hope in Small Doses" to be released June 1, 2010 by Humanist Press.

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OCTOBER 18, 2011 5:05PM

Death and Life: a Tale of Two Parks

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The 9/11 Memorial and OWS occupy two parks adjacent to each other in Lower Manhattan. Otherwise, they couldn't be more different.

 

 October 17, 2011 seemed like a fine day to head downtown and see the memorial I’d avoided up to and just after the 10th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks. It was another stunning autumn morning, with another cerulean sky visible through towers, half built with aspirations to touch the clouds that floated by. Hundreds of people going about their business were amplified by thousands more whose presence makes this, if not a world trade center, than the world’s visiting center.

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I also planned to stop by another, much smaller site I remembered well: a 3300 square foot slip of green my husband would eat in on pleasant days when he wished to escape the long shadows of the World Trade Center. Then, it was called Liberty Plaza Park; now it is Zuccotti Park, renamed after the chairman of the reality company that provided for its restoration after the September 11th attacks devastated it. For several years, Zuccotti Park hosted the annual 9/11 anniversary commemorations. Currently, it’s hosting Occupy Wall Street.

Symbolism is important in making a statement, whether it involves words, notes, or physical space. So is context. The 16 acres known as ground zero was and is sacred ground to some; to others, a historically significant site. For me, ground zero is about the lives that were lost but also the resilience that was found, however temporarily, to go on, to make something better, to be better. Although I was part of a group that lobbied (unsuccessfully) for the addition of a cultural/educational component at the site--living monuments to a possible future and to the important freedoms the attacks didn’t take away—we lost. It helps to have a Visitors’ Center to supply some context, more of which the museum will also provide. Unfortunately, right now it’s possible to bypass the Center and most people do.

 As a family member, I was directed around the absurdly long lines to enter the space, which consists of two massive waterfalls conforming to the footprints of the original towers and ringed with low granite walls bearing the names of the nearly 3,000 people.

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Using the guide I'd been handed, I made my way to the far side of the north pool and located my  husband’s name. I touched the engraved stone and whispered “Well, here you are.” And waited. But the rush of emotions I anticipated-- grief perhaps; but also reverence, awe, inspiration, a telescoping of past, present and future—never came. It was all very lovely but somehow…static. 

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As I walked over to Zuccotti Park, I was struck by the number of tourists; it seemed as if there were more of them than there were protestors. The park initially gave the appearance of being a mess but it really wasn’t; bedding was neatly stacked, except when someone was still sleeping. An older gent did a pretty good rendition of “God Bless America” on the bagpipes. I made my way tentatively into the trees, where people were talking or texting or reading. I saw several meetings taking place, conducted in relatively quiet tones, since neither megaphones nor sound equipment is allowed.

Zuccotti2I couldn’t hear what was being said; I’ve read elsewhere that a dedicated corps of occupiers is meeting to try and devise a set of demands. Sure there are some goof-offs, but the few protesters I encountered in my all-too-brief sojourn both wanted a change to a skewed system and felt frustrated that they were characterized as slackers or whiners, or insufficiently prepared to take on the entire system by which banks and businesses that don’t create jobs and CEOs who don’t produce dividends are nevertheless rewarded.

On the way home, I thought about how alive that little slip of green had felt and how…not so much dead as not alive the memorial had felt to me. Of course, that’s not the function of memorials; they are erected to remember the past and to honor the dead. The best of them, it must be said, can also deliver the message: never again. 

As for the park formerly known as Liberty, it is teeming with good intentions and honest efforts and a target that its location should not obscure: not so much Wall Street as an economic system that accrues wealth for a disproportionate few; yet fights to keep at arms’ length any regulation that accrues to the common good. It’s the job of the protestors in a free democracy to draw attention to the system’s failings; it’s not their job to fix it. If we and our representatives allow the novelty of a group of people camping out overnight to distract from agreeing on and implementing solutions, then we will have robbed OWS of its important symbolic message: no more.

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Interesting juxtaposition of ideas, well presented, Nikki. RRRR
"It’s the job of the protestors in a free democracy to draw attention to the system’s failings; it’s not their job to fix it."

A subtle buildup to the emotional; serene, wise, and beautifully thought out piece, Nikki. R
I was thinking precisely what Amy wrote.

Brava, Nikki. r.
The poignancy stands out in the contrast of ideas encompassed. Very moving.
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Nikki, very nice to see your thoughts on the two parks. Last Wednesday I spent two hours at the 9|11 Memorial and about three hours at OWS. It was an interesting juxtaposition to see both the same afternoon and very much the unforgettable day.
i'll chime in as the next in line and say: what amy/bea said. nice piece, nikki. i wish i were in the city this fall to walk there myself.
Great piece. I could feel you pulled toward the life, the memory of lunches, the feeling of a kind of continuity.
Nikki, the problem as I see it is that the OWSers, the 99ers, the We the People, who are feeding the flames of this extended and spreading anti-establishment event are propelled in part by a growing suspicion that maybe we really are not a free democracy, that maybe we've been trusting in an illusion of such all along. I think, too, that with no chance to fix a system that is merely an illusion the best we can hope for is for the manipulators of our economy to cede just enuf to enable the Movement to feel its passion and sacrifice – for there are and will be personal sacrifices before this ends – have not been totally in vain. And that is no small thing, just as the New Deal was no small thing. The New Deal fixed some things but did not alter the system fundamentally, and nothing short of utter catastrophe can do that – and even then I'd have my doubts. Maybe the most important thing we can expect to come out of this besides raising the consciousness of what used to be our middle class is to give the trade unions more clout, return them to a position of adversarial influence. As I see it the blue-collar class has to gain a foothold once more to provide a bedrock for the middle class to resurrect itself.
Well done, an introspection in how places that should have feeling don't and why and the other way around also. You have a gift for conveying a lot in a small space.
This was so well done and it came from a place that very few of us had been. I was there with you walking and I too cried when I saw the picture of your hands and the words.
HUGGGGGGGGG
I'm with Bernadine -- a nice juxtaposition of ideas that really don't conflict but support each other...really excellent stuff.
The photo of you with your hand on the name was a gut punch. I love the way you contrast life with death. I'm not sure what memorials are intended to do. Catharsis? Remembrance? Jingoism? I can no longer tell. But, I think people bring whatever meaning, or find whatever meaning at a memorial that they need to. In a way, I'm happy that you found more that was resonant at Zuccotti Park. Life is for the living. Cold granite cannot replace what we have lost.
Lower Manhattan has become the landscape of dreams and nightmares. A turbulent roil of a very troubled nation seeking some way out of this frightful territory back to some sort of sanity. It seems a long way off.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings on your day in the city, Nikki. I agree w/Bea and the others, not much else to add. For memorials to "work" for an individual, a pitch perfect balance of mood has to play in as well. Carved names and lovely inverted waterfalls can't work their "magic" without a human connection where all systems are "go." And human connections have a mind, and heart, of their own.
It's the lot in life for protesters to be castigated by those against whom they're protesting. Look at the vilification of the civil rights marchers and, to a slightly lesser extent, the anti-war protesters. Thoth singles out the passage I wanted to highlight. So far the OWSers have done a commendable job of consciousness raising.
The photo with your hand paints a thousand words and mostly leaves me speechless. I'm glad you felt the pulse "on that little slip of green" and thank you for showing the solidarity of our flag.
I hope to visit both places this weekend. Thank you for a poignant introduction.
Excellent conclusion. Well written. I am a bit pessimistic about the outcome. The changes need to be made in DC. Wonder how many there, are listening.
Nothing to add to what's already been said.
Blown away, as I so often am by your reflections. Yes, yes, and yes again.
Ah Nikki. The photo on the front page is so poignant.
Powerful writing, Nikki.

Thanks for sharing something so personal.
Hello Nikki

More than a contrast or juxtaposition of antipodes, the relationship and connection between the two "parks" seems clear, to me,

the desperate doings and undoings of men and women here, and everywhere.

(with respect for your loss)
Thanks for taking us along on this journey, Nikki.
Such a smooth piece. Just rang through, delivered.

"It’s the job of the protestors in a free democracy to draw attention to the system’s failings; it’s not their job to fix it." Hell to the yeah.

The shot of your hand on the memorial speaks volumes.
Brilliantly done, and so moving. Thank you for sharing your thoughts about this day.
Nikki, This is a fine piece that strives to understand the numbness we feel sometimes...when we confront the real spaces (or remnants) that hold emotional significance. There is already a generosity about your writing that I have always admired, and it is amplified with this piece.
Your private place, only you can know. Am pleased that you were there, could go there. This growing is magnificently endless. That you can, are, still, that's the point.

Rated for complexity.
"It is difficult to get a man to understand something, when his salary depends upon his not understanding it!"
--sinclair louis

"One withstands the invasion of armies; one does not withstand the invasion of ideas."
--victor hugo

occupy wall street, my speech to the masses
Beautifully done, Nikki. Your writing is crisp and powerful. You're able to communicate complex, emotion-laden ideas in a pure and unsentimental way. The juxtaposition of places and the static/lively image makes sense to me. Life is for the living, maybe? Thank you for letting us in to your experience.
Not only "does this make sense" (see, plugged you!), it does so in such a way that it gets to the heart of what matters.
Such a moving and intelligent look at the memorial and OWS. I got choked up when I read your words about visiting a much smaller site that you remember well. I can understand the lack of feeling at the actual etching of your husband's name--I feel the same way when I visit my father's grave. It's the place that marks only his death, not his life.
P.S. I just bought your book and look forward to reading it!
So well said. I'm not surprised, but you took me to a place in my mind that was totally unexpected, and fed me much to think about.
It’s the job of the protestors in a free democracy to draw attention to the system’s failings;

There are a couple things wrong with this. First we don't live in a democracy. Second the people there are in the wrong place.

They need to be at the White House. The people on Wall Street are very regulated people. Yes, some people try to get away with things, that's always true, but there are those who watch over them and try to prevent or catch the wrong doers. For the most part the people on Wall Street are doing only what the government allows them to do. If you don't like what they are legally doing, go to DC.

President Obama had 2 years where he didn't need a single, not one, GOP vote to fix anything. Why didn't he fix this if you think it's such a problem?
Nikki, this is the best kind of context.
so you avoided the memorial

why did you avoid the memorial?

not much there
That must have been hard, to go to the memorial, to decide to go at least, even if it left you kind of blank. I love graveyards with their peace and the sense of deaths safely tucked way in the past where they can't hurt anyone and just become history. The 9/11 memorial, or as you say, any memorial, would be the opposite, meant to be disturbing forever. The cultural and economic landscape is so dreary in the U.S. these days. I took my first trip since my artificial hip, a necessary trip that I could not take by car, and I thought of how impossible it would have seemed 10 years ago to submit to being placed in a body-scanning machine at the airport every single time you board a plane. But we forgot that we cared about our freedoms, and apparently, it's not even worth the trouble to put up an educational exhibit explaining what we lost. Thanks for trying, anyway. I find the protesters the one bright spot on the horizon.
I was humbled at the 9/11 memorial. I was inspired at Zuccotti Park.
thanks all.

@ume: I DIDN'T avoid the memorial; all you need to do is look at the pictures, my friend. That's my hand you see over my husband's name.

@catnlion: *sigh* I admit to being disappointed in Obama's actions, (benefiting from 20-20 hindsight). but chiefly because he wasn't tougher on the financial industry. Where you and I might differ is in what we think is the appropriate amount of regulation--or at least the appropriate amount of payback for reward.

Making money legitimately is fine. Asking for government money and then failing to offer loans to small businesses or mortgage-seekers is not. Paying dividends for inspired stewardship is fine. Pretending bonus income is capital gains is not. Asking for incentives to create jobs in this country in the form of tax relief may be okay but NOT if the "relief" money is used NOT to create jobs, but to hire accountants and lawyers to find further ways to avoid paying money to the government you expect to keep the peace, maintain the infrastructure and then lend YOU money when you slip up after selling phony bundles to unsuspecting (albeit very foolish ) small investors.

When I see the financial industry grow a conscience to match the set of cajones it seems to collectively sport, I'll be first in line to ask the Zuccotti Park denizens to move along.
Nikki,

In a lot of way we don't disagree. If people are doing stupid, BS, things then maybe a new regulation is needed. The OWS people need to be hammering those who make the regulations, not those who are going to work and playing by the rules.

You have never heard me say we don't need regulations. Crooks have always been with us and always will be. Regulations need to make sense and do what they are needed to do. Really, is there a need for me to tell the government every time I stop and go pee? Really, I have to tell them.

We also need people to oversee the regulators. They can create unlimited power for themselves and do what they want. The FCC is going to do net neutrality. SCOTUS and Congress have told them they don't have the authority to do it but their new regulations take effect next month.
Nikki, I like your impressions, thoughts of these two very important events. You have a sense of where we are and, quite possibly, where we are headed. These wake up calls, for each one of us, are likely going to determine how well we live, how fairly we develop out democratic experience; and, what this generation will leave in its legacy of values . How we respond to these central ideas is heightened by what you have drawn out for us. I hope, down deep, that we work through these challenges and grow as a people. We really have work through this -- and soon.