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alexis james
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I want to be a writer someday.
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31, I love pitbulls and kittens. Rats are another favorite. Bukowski and Baldwin...good or bad, i love people's teeth. Always loved taxidermy, long as they weren't hunted. I want a thousand books, a house in Istanbul and half a dozen stuffed cats (once they finally leave). Tattooed nearly ten years, and now, maybe, I don't like it... Trying to get the crazies out of my head. I feel somewhere in between a wreckless hobo and a vunerable little girl...and I want to be a writer someday.

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DECEMBER 18, 2011 11:05AM

Julie Kiernan's Gone to Heaven

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Sadly, my mother passed away late afternoon yesterday.

December 17th, 2011.

I still have a hard time believing this.

She was my best friend.

And she was sick--yes.

But,  I have seen that stubborn old soul

recover from many, many things.

Why didn't she hint to me

that she was leaving?

 

I want to  thank everyone in the OS community for their support. Your words meant so much to her. I'm glad she let you in and others picked up on how profound she was. I don't know what else to say. Thank you.

 

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well said.
words will come, eventually,
cuz u were HER daughter. That is for damn sure.
Alexis, I'm so sorry. I don't have to know you or your Mother to imagine the pain you're going through. I'm a daughter and a Mother as well and so can empathize and sympathize. I dread the day my Mom leaves this earth.....
So sorry sweetie... I've "known" Julie here forever. She was always
sweet and kind, even towards me who wasn't always so much.
Alexis, so very very sorry. Your mom was profound, I enjoyed her poetry, and her support of mine. Condolences to you and your family.
echos my sentiments when my died died, late august be only well. (r.)
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a mother is a difficult experience to assimilate. Peace to your family.
I'm filled with sorrow, Alexis. Julie was one of the first people here to befriend me. Her poetry gave me new insights and appreciation of the art form. She seemed a gentle, warm and knowing woman. This is sad sad news.
Sorry to learn of your loss, Alexis. She will also be missed in the Open Salon community.
i stopped by to read
i need to catch my breath
through comments and entries
julie kiernan i knew
julie kiernan i'll miss
julie kiernan i'll remember
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you warm thoughts.
Words seem inadequate. Sending condolences.
Alexis, So sorry for your loss. I can only hope I'll be able to handle a day as sad as this with the grace, love and tenderness you display here.
Alexis, I am so saddened to learn today of your mom's passing. We talked about some Providence stories a while back and she had been hoping to attend the 2nd Annual OS Anniversary in April, 2010. My sympathies to you and your family. What a great loss for you, your family, and her friends.
I am so sorry. I spoke with Julie on the phone once, we had a great conversation and she was so kind to me always.
My heart goes out to you.
I am reading your past posts and so happy to see you are a poet as well.
rated with love
Oh honey I am so sorry, I know that loss, that feeling they will pull through again. I have looked back at death of family and found the message they sent, you will see it when you are ready. I wish you so much peace in your life and I am so so sorry for your loss. Your mom was much loved here and she will be missed by us as well.
I am so sorry. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your mom was one of the original, kind souls of OS. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and those who loved her. We did.
I am so so sorry Alexis. Your mom was a beautiful soul.
Too soon, too soon. I'm so very sorry.
Peace be with you my dear. :-)
Heartfelt condolences on your loss. May your mother rest in peace in her heaven as she remains to be your inspiration.

R♥
Oh lass, condolences to you and your family.
Strength, peace and love.
Heaven? Hardly.

I'm sorry for your loss, but your mother was reckless, ignorant and evil for her entire adult life. She will spend eternity in a much warmer clime.
Alexis,

I too am sorry to hear this news. I had many cyber-conversations with your mom and found her to be someone I liked. She struggled and loved as best she could and I admire her for that. She will be missed.

@Treesah - I have no idea who you are. Your comments are so mean-spirited and hostile that it says way more about how troubled you are than anything about Julie. I will say a prayer for you too.
I am so sorry. She always had a kind word and humor.
Alexis...so very sorry for your loss. My parents died within three weeks of each other and that is what initially brought me to OS. I cherish this African proverb... "a woman is never dead, until she is forgotten"

As for Treesah...there's no point in responding garbage comments.
So sorry to read this, and so sorry for your loss. I know mere words mean little now. She was a light to many here, and we thank you for letting us know.
here is the wit & wisdom of this treeah:

last post:
:"Why is it so damn hard to find an attractive gentleman with a job that has the same skin color that I do?

Society places bizarre expectations on men of color, and that self-destructive thug mentality really limits opportunities for our youth.

More on this later..."


she says in her bio she got no illusions.
she conquer the world, she says she gonna do.ha
hardly likely.
I am sorry I didn't know about your mom, am just now finding you, but I know about losing a Mom.
I am so sorry for your loss...and may a bit of peace find you each day.
I'm so so sorry, Alexis. I just don't have any other words for this. So sorry.
I'm so very sorry. We will miss her.
So very, terribly sad for your loss. Just reread some of Julie's comments and they were so endearing. She will be remembered here as a talented and gentle woman.
So sorry for your loss.
My condolences. I know this will be a difficult Christmas.
I am so sorry for your loss.
I had such a spot for Junk1 and then Julie Kiernan. we shared a few PM"s and just were cyber buds. Their was just something about your mother-- she was special. I am so sorry. And,then with some psycho comment like that. You mother will be very missed.
:-(

RATED!!!!

Parents sometimes never tell their children, grown or otherwise, the reality, then when it happens, we're like, why not?

~hug~
So very sorry to hear this sad news.
I lost my Dad in '97 yesterday. Am lately coming to see this as the season of loss.. so many here have :(. As for Treesah's comment, I was going to say go in and yank the thing, but perhaps not.. let it stand as her example.. 'nuff said.

Rated for sympathies to you and yours.
I am sorry, I would like to tell you that it's not to late to talk to her...even if you don't believe in the afterlife...it's therapeutic to talk you loved ones who have passed on, you can try writing letters to her too. I hope you and your family will have a merry Christmas and remember she loves you.
Every time I read the words 'my mother died today' my stomach still lurches with the same immediate sadness that I felt when my mom died. I am very sorry for your loss.
I did not know her well, but Mary told me what happened. I am so sorry for your loss.
HUGGGGGGGGGGG
I"m so sorry for your loss. She was very kind to me when I was not well and always supportive.

Love and comfort to you.
many here are there for you.. keeep us here..
Your mother was a special and kind friend to me. I always planned on a date at Point Judith or Galilee. I hope she is swimming hard to her wonderful horizon, bouyant and free.
I am so very sorry for your loss, Alexis. Your mom was one of my first friends here at Open Salon and was always a kind, warm lady. Good thoughts and prayers to you and your family in this difficult time. I will sincerely miss Julie.
My deepest condolences. Peace to your soul during this difficult time.
Alexis James. I remember the first time you came here to Open Salon as a member.
I know this.
Your Mother
She Loves
Thank You
I smile with a sense of loss whenever
I am reminded of my deceased Mother
I noticed Sparkling rated You just now
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I wonder how she is? She get tattoo too?
Sparkling always makes me smile a smile.
I built my Mother a bent-kerf coffin too.
One of these days - I may show a photo.
It was a perfect way to grieve. I tear too.
There were tear stains on the cheery top.
The sideboards were white stained poplar.
The Poplar wood bends. The top was wild.
It was local wild cheery with white streaks.
Cherry wood boards have off-white wood.
Bless you too
My thoughts
She always`
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closed letter`
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Love always,
your mom.
I miss her.
Bless you.
Present ay.
I am so very sorry. Ohhhhh, so sorry.
I am very sorry for your loss. Your mom did an open call once to which I responded and wrote some poetry. I was glad she inspired me to do that, it was about the terrible oil spill in the gulf. It is funny but when I re-read it, I hardly even thought I wrote it, that is how inspired I was at the time by her suggestion. Again, my sincere condolences.
ach, oye. thank u all.
I'm so sorry Alexis. Your mother was one of the first people to befriend me when I came to OS and I always liked her very much. So sad to hear of her passing.
So sorry for your loss. :(
May her memory forever be for a blessing.
I just learned of this over on Jame's post Alexis. You dear mother was one of my very first friends here.
I will never forget meeting her and the family(you too) down in Bradenton a couple of years ago.
I am so deeply sorry her voice is silenced here.
But her posts live on...tears...
Could you please post her obituary? I'd love to honor her memory with flowers and a donation in her name to her favored charity. She was something special. I'd love to publicly honor her.
Alexis, I am just today discovering this sad news. Please accept my sincere condolences.

Lezlie