Sometimes life is amazing. You think you go through your day to day and the weeks are uneventful at times. But so much can happen in a week. This last week has been a whirlwind for me. I was offered a permanent position at my job and an hour before I was to go up to HR to accept the offer another studio called with my dream job in reality development. I love the job that I do now and the company and work with amazing hilarious people.. but the creativity is pretty limited.

I did an over the phone interview they told me they would get back at me for a second interview but wanted to fill the position quickly. I went to my meeting with HR and tried to stall saying I needed time to think about the offer. It was lower pay than my contracting position so they understood. My goal was to buy time.

I am lucky. I have an amazing boss. Not only is she really nice, but she supports your ambitions and has a hilarious personality. I told her about the interview and she was really supportive. I almost wanted to cry. She is so amazing. How many bosses out there would say "Go for it! And if not we want you here" She has been so amazing through all of these interviews.

I received a call the next day for a second interview at the studio for the development job. I went the next day, nervous as hell. This was my DREAM job. To help brainstorm and develop reality tv! So many people look down on reality but I have always loved it. I can also appreciate scripted shows like Modern Family though. If you haven't seen it, it's amazing.

I went to the interview and was sweating a lot. I can't remember wanting something so badly. The network that it was for was one that I not only watched but Tivo'd religiously. At first the interview started bad. She asked how I was and my reply sounded really lackluster. I was so nervous. But then while talking before I knew it we were laughing and even talked about shows that should be done. Once she heard that I did 90210 trivia for my job she told me that Joe E Tata (Nat on Beverly Hills 90210) was drunk at a Bevmo recently at 10am buy Jack Daniels and we laughed and felt bad for him I knew we had bonded. She told me that I was a lot more mature than most of the people she had interviewed and discussed there were administrative functions. Being that development is probably the one area that I am not the most knowledgeable at, I would scrub floors if it meant getting the job. I assured her that answering phones and disturbing call sheets was not beneath me. And seriously, I did mean that. Taking calls from producers and talent? OK!

I told her I had another job offer at the end of the interview and that I didn't want to rush her but I needed to know sooner than later. She wrote something on my resume and thanked me for telling her that. And now I wait...

I am pretty sure that my current company is going to want a response by tues or wed. I do not want to be overly annoying by sending another "thank you" follow up email.

Tonight I went out to dinner with a friend and we talked about it. I have never wanted a job so badly in my life. It would launch me into exactly where I need to be. Creating shows. Sometimes wanting so badly is awful. My friend is amazing and a comedian and after talking (no alcohol was involved) we realized that it was so obvious we had to do a public access show together. Giving crappy advise with "In Living Color" skits and guests. Suddenly the future seemed amazing.

Yes, I want this development job more than anything in this world. BUT if I do not get it, I can channel my creativity through this show we are producing and wait until my day comes and sign with my current company.

We left the restaurant and there was one of those fortune teller quarter machines. You have to put your hand on a ball and it measures your "fate." I decided to do it and got amazing results in love, friendship and happiness. Not so much in the success and career. I cursed at it not realizing children were present. That bitch doesn't know what she is talking about. One of my friends called me recently and told me she had a dream where I was accepting an Oscar. I will mention how dumb the fortune teller woman machine is in my speech :)