Suffering comes in all shapes and sizes -
geometric lines sketched in chalk;
rainbow-hewn slicks of color,
muted cries beneath the dark.
The waiter eschewed my sincere musings,
offering instead a menu of thought,
my selection, now one of his choosing,
included tales of Abraham, Elohim, and God.
I listened while contemplating a diamond
he had constructed from militant cloth:
A kite, unable to travel, weighed down
by the ghosts of his relatives, lost.
He spoke of the heart, of love, and of temples
while collecting glasses and lettuce-crisp bills;
he spoke of time, loss, and redemption,
and of arteries, once blocked, now filled.
His words poured as if over crevices,
etching images within faces of rocks;
I swallowed the last bits of his wisdom,
bowed my head, turned away, and walked.


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If I chose to honor nobel?
I'd go to Vegas, NYC, OS,
Little Italy.
Ay To ask:`
Waitress?
does imitation powder ice
tea go:`Sir bison loin-pork,
or,
can we all spare the drama,
go rush-off to a fast-foodie,
or,
makes splashes in kennels,
vote for who wiggles a tail,
or,
spreads chocolate souffle,
imitation duck-egg yokes,
a great spongy egg-cakes,
a rues the latest bargains,
and boast of investments.
*
`By the way - today You!
`Great expressions. bow.
`You deserve free gorge.
*
`Consumes French fries.
`No sip from Styrofoam.
`Ingests pure Beautiful.
*
irony, parody, sarcasms,
whatever, and please no
go rushing off like a ox
stampede to nowhere
*
etching images within faces of rocks;"
Evocative and mesmerizing. Images of wisdom of the ages, since that is what it would take, to etch faces on the rocks. If no one speaks truth, She would incent the rocks themselves to speak.
peece,
dj
At least this is the sense I get from these lines:
His words poured as if over crevices,
etching images within faces of rocks;
I swallowed the last bits of his wisdom,
bowed my head, turned away, and walked.
DJ: You say so much in so few words...good thing you are already a (natural) poet!
Newton: I am applying your philosophy by posting this poem. It is likely the most coherent and "digestible" offering I have made thus far (but the process of writing it was quite different - more labor-intensive, and I am still not overly pleased with it).
I watched and waited to see if the masses would come to read and comment on my work, as it is work that should be reachable via any point on the mountain. But alas, it suffers the same fate as all the rest...But it was a fun and intriguing social/poetic "experiment," just the same...
This would be the sort of poem I would have to squeeze out of myself, like toothpaste lurking at the bottom of the tube. Kind of like a Thomas Kinkaid painting - it just doesn't feel like the truest core of the transpersonal well is being accessed...Much more linear, cognitive, intellectual process to write this...However, I thought this would be the one you might like best of all I have posted so far...Do you have a sense of why this one, for you, seemed most "mesmerizing"? Somehow it all ties into the thread on your post on the tension of the opposites...
I had such an intriguing dream early this morning - I will either post it or use it in a comment or turn it into a poem, but it was a direct result, I am sure, of our virtual conversations these past few days. I also notice that our dialogues directly threaded into my various clients' own process and work today - It was all (as Spock might say) "most fascinating"...!
O ho! I have come upon a most important
sincere utterance of yours
that interests me;
a new process, more labor intensive, you say mysteriously...
(i intuit that arthur's advice: "please no go stamping off to nowhere" is important in understanding the dyanamics oft his work>>)
yes, this is quite a different poem, but with your
characteristic meldingof the personal & transpersonal...
reading it, my head was opened to the broad vistas
once again...but now! ha!
i have likewise adopted a different method of interpretation...we speak so muchof the collective mind that i think i shall morph MY OWN (german(e) musings with those of my Big Head companions)
etching images in/from rocks..this is what people picked up on..
the stone cold poetess...
receive, eat..."swallow"..move on....
taoist poetess...nonbeing and being are identical,
fluctuating in her...i suspect her
alllegiance is squarely to nonbeing...
not the hard historical God of the West..who with his servant Abraham began a timestream of misery and redemption...
no historical God for this poetess...
indeed it is mesmerizing because you are no longer
simply being a passive medium for
the messages from the transpersonal well...
you are starting to create in the historical world..
the world of abraham & chosen peoples & messiahs & judgment..
AT THE END O F TIME...
but first unfortunately you must JUMP INTO time..
into BEING..
this means struggling with Time's Medium...the linear intellectual
cognitive thought you are blithely exquisitely
commanding with....
but a jump into time means ego...
and ego is gonna want an audience..
and ego is gonna be always secondguessing itself..
welcome to earth, angie..
jump into history...and make history.....this is the Western God's
injunction, alas...
ha! "i'll go along with this charade/ til i can THINK my way out/ i know../it was all a big joke / whatever it was all about/ someday maybe i'll remember
to forget.."...."tight connection to my heart", dylan...
history is there for the making...grow a lettuce garden of crip bills as you continue to tellus what we are all about..
by the way, you reached the transpersonal magnificently..even if you dont see it,
in your new linear box...
Ya may fall out of bed too bump!
No knock your head, toe, sacral!
And flop on a cat in a bail of hay!
I am not supposed to comments!
No be too dizzy if you climb tree!
Doze all day in a red clover patch!
Or,
If it rains remain in "Old House"...
Old House is a pleasant sentiment.
`
apology?
I followed Newton. Feed. Eat Figs!
from:`Isabell Fiske Conant. a poem.
`
He who loves an Old House
Never loves in vain,
How can a old house
Used to sun and rain,
To lilac and larkspur,
And an elm above,
Ever fail to answer
The heart that gives love?
that from Old House. by
Isabel Fiske Conant. wow.
to eschew your musings?
he's your Servant only....
(think transpersonal here)
...eschew yr musings
and dictate his images on you...
stone cold............
more synchronicity...My grandmother on my mother's side was a Conant...
I happen to be related to ROGER CONANT, who founded
Salem, where a good time was had by all...
till the little crybabies started making accusations
etc
arthur:
safe old house, surrounded by red clover...
trees calling to be climbed squat
in protection...the cat sleeps in the hay...
a hay loft...
what happens in the hay loft, eh?
falling out of a hay loft is more serious
than falling BUMP
outta bed...
I returned to the restaurant a couple of months later. The waiter told the same exact story, in just the same way. This is when I felt something in me turn more "hard" and observatory. What was truly going on beneath? I began thinking of what Charles Bukowski would always say (bitch about) in regard to his ex-wife ("The same 9 poems. She always goes out and reads the same damn 9 poems she wrote" - implying something was static, not fresh, a record being played over and over. This really pissed him off.) So this second time I became a bit more glinty and Clint Eastwood-like, and the final poem is likely a reflection of this.
It is interesting to note (as I only do now, from your mentioning it) that the word eschew contains the word CHEW in it.
To go even further: I began to sense that the waiter makes many assumptions about his "wisdom", and who needs to hear to hear it / benefit from it. It is, each time, a one-way, didactic monologue - We are his audience. He has no idea who we are, yet we get this again and again from him. There is a suggestion of Narcissism floating beneath the portrayed humility and gratitude that seems carefully honed and deliberately presented on the surface.
I see this often in the Transpersonal field as well and it bothers me. In a sense, the waiter is "performing," "preaching," and I wonder about this, his need to do this, again and again and again...
Arthur: You speak of Old Houses. I have posted a poem called "Bleak House." It is on my blog. Read it yet?
Newton: I think it is a wonderful challenge for me to attempt to be a bit more linear, for reasons James highlights well. I have been "digesting" and integrating many of your comments, James as well (of course,) and others - and am so pleased Arthur is visiting more regularly also - in regard to our own "dialectic" we have been engaging in. I am quite sure I can write in both styles at will - I am able to actually choose whether to dig deeply into the chaos of symbolism in non-linear ecstatical fashion, or stream-line my words out in some semblance of order. I wonder if eventually the two styles will meet in the "middle" somewhere, and I will be a far stronger poet because of it.
Therefore, I continue to find our collective engagement deeply enriching and rewarding.
So- I best shush and Listen:` We are only trying to aspire ...
Listen. Learn. (tease) If I was in a ICU unit, you'd care. a CEO?
no?
em?
cold?
CEO?
O lost!
control!
dumbstruck?
play a washboard?
use a few thumb guards,
and thumb a bumpy road.
If others observe? gofer holes?
Golfer holes? Pot holes? bump!
You teach the harp? The fiddle?
I barter ice cream cone and beet!
I pray Ya no become wacky! okay.
CandV - Damn, I did not even notice those slant rhymes until you said something - Some others stood out (I am not one who attempts to rhyme often - I am more rhythmic in my sensibilities regarding poetry and such) but not the ones you point to...Eeegads! Thanks for visiting and enlightening!
and the ennui we currently have
inour hearts and guts
is the nausea from being
fed something we never wanted...
I am currently listening to one of my personal muses,
Guess Wh..he has a hook nose and shaggy hair..
his latest:"beyond here lies nothing"..
and as i write i am transpersonally translating his song
into my subjective universe, which threatens occasionally
(when i am not being hurried or hassled)
to eat the current universe for lunch...or maybe as an
hors d'oever...
We struggling poetic abstractifiers extrodinaire
are the swallowers of the paradigms we are fed...
we munch em up and against our will digest them and
they really dont nourish us much, do they?
sometimes i feel we are all bringing something
new into the world...but it is so fragile...look at how our comrade rolling...
who has counselled & saved me multiple times...has
dropped out of sight, swallowed by the very world we have supposedly swallowed...
we have eaten of the beast,
and want some christ to chew on instead...
and it IS available, in isolated, hard to find locations...
we struggle & strive to findour nourishment, eat a bit, are nourished awhile..
until They come 7 shove some disgusting mush down our unwilling gullets....
we "bow our heads, turn away, and walk"...
throught the Mystic garden, where wounded flowers dangle from the vine
precariously eyeing us, pleading, in exquisite subjective agony...
we walk along the path...knowing that
"to exterminating learning is the way to no worries " (tao20)
but hungering for the next bit of intellectual
sustenance...we hold in our heads ALL THE ANSWERS
to allthe questions, but,...well,
noone is asking the questions but us, alas..and we walk alone...
helping here...advocating there..doing our bit..
and collapsing from ennui at day's end...
we self generate eacha nd every day, or try to...
and face the same old shadowy world
"my slef-hood! Satan!
is this thy soft family love
thy cruel patriarchal pride
planting thy family alone
destraoying all the world beside"...(blake, "jerusalem")
A man's worst enemy ar e those of his own house & family...
i.e. the human family...
es-chew-ing us...all our words land exactly nowhere...the ideas we generate for fucking FREE
floating uselessly away...and we have no confidence in them,
as a result..and they are shrunk down,
these explsive apocalyptic utterances,
to ..
theories.
propostitions, yet to be proved...
while they ahve already "proved"
themselves in the un/forgiving karmic Ether
that surrounds all human interaction...
we labor in noospheric tides of our own design,
and recieve no credit...
and our own damn tao and git a and mystics ofa ll stripes tell us
not to...
this seems to be the key..
and i sure aint THERE yet, are you?
ack
James
and the ennui we currently have
inour hearts and guts
is the nausea from being
fed something we never wanted...
I am currently listening to one of my personal muses,
Guess Wh..he has a hook nose and shaggy hair..
his latest:"beyond here lies nothing"..
and as i write i am transpersonally translating his song
into my subjective universe, which threatens occasionally
(when i am not being hurried or hassled)
to eat the current universe for lunch...or maybe as an
hors d'oever...
We struggling poetic abstractifiers extrodinaire
are the swallowers of the paradigms we are fed...
we munch em up and against our will digest them and
they really dont nourish us much, do they?
sometimes i feel we are all bringing something
new into the world...but it is so fragile...look at how our comrade rolling...
who has counselled & saved me multiple times...has
dropped out of sight, swallowed by the very world we have supposedly swallowed...
we have eaten of the beast,
and want some christ to chew on instead...
and it IS available, in isolated, hard to find locations...
we struggle & strive to findour nourishment, eat a bit, are nourished awhile..
until They come 7 shove some disgusting mush down our unwilling gullets....
we "bow our heads, turn away, and walk"...
throught the Mystic garden, where wounded flowers dangle from the vine
precariously eyeing us, pleading, in exquisite subjective agony...
we walk along the path...knowing that
"to exterminating learning is the way to no worries " (tao20)
but hungering for the next bit of intellectual
sustenance...we hold in our heads ALL THE ANSWERS
to allthe questions, but,...well,
noone is asking the questions but us, alas..and we walk alone...
helping here...advocating there..doing our bit..
and collapsing from ennui at day's end...
we self generate eacha nd every day, or try to...
and face the same old shadowy world
"my slef-hood! Satan!
is this thy soft family love
thy cruel patriarchal pride
planting thy family alone
destraoying all the world beside"...(blake, "jerusalem")
A man's worst enemy ar e those of his own house & family...
i.e. the human family...
es-chew-ing us...all our words land exactly nowhere...the ideas we generate for fucking FREE
floating uselessly away...and we have no confidence in them,
as a result..and they are shrunk down,
these explsive apocalyptic utterances,
to ..
theories.
propostitions, yet to be proved...
while they ahve already "proved"
themselves in the un/forgiving karmic Ether
that surrounds all human interaction...
we labor in noospheric tides of our own design,
and recieve no credit...
and our own damn tao and git a and mystics ofa ll stripes tell us
not to...
this seems to be the key..
and i sure aint THERE yet, are you?
ack
James
Affectionately, James E.,
(previously a public projection screen for all & sundry...
but..currently...closed for repair
and private use)