JULY 5, 2009 5:44AM

Why and How I Write

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In answer to Marcela K's open call on writing...

I tell stories as much as I write them. My kids would rather hear one of my true stories than read a book at bedtime. When I had only one child we would spend hours before bed just telling stories.


What to write about and how to go about it?
Life, of course! Is there any more real experience? Is there any better way to reach someone that with similar experiences, thought and emotions? And what's more, often with a sense of humor.

I will have a memory - from maybe a book, someone else's blog, a movie or from talking to a friend. Or something strikes me as funny in an unconventional way and my mind is off to the races. If I am not at home I have to be careful to not think about it much or else I will think the power or the humor or both right out of the story.

When I sit down at the computer to write, I prefer it to be as quiet as possible or at least no one needing me at that moment. Usually a humorous opening line or a powerful opening line comes to me and I write it. Then.......... I disappear.

A voice in my head is telling a story and my hands are taking dictation but *I* am not here. I am in a sort of a trance. There is so much going on in my head - the words of the story, music in the background and sometimes the foreground, other people talking (dialogue), sounds like rain, car travel, birds chirping, laughter, applause, crying, dogs barking, etc. - whatever's in the story is actually being played out like a movie in my mind as I write it.

Should someone enter my den, and speak to me or tap me, the sounds are suddenly silenced. It is then and only then that I become aware of the trace-like state of mind I have been in and am surprised to see that the clock tells me it has been hours since I began.

Why I write...
I have lost a billion little pieces of myself along my journey in life.  I lost who I was, forgot how to dance to life's tune, forgot how to play, forgot how to be me, forgot how to live. Though I have always been a 'sit right down and write yourself a letter,' kind of person, I began to hear the people (300+ emails from strangers) who were telling me I should be a writer. I had saved them all and finally decided I would try a blog to see if there was any interest in my stories.

As I began to tell the stories of my life, I started to live again. Disappearing into the words, I found myself, and so I write......

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Oh yes and whenever possible I try to write in the heat of the moment - when the passion is in full bloom - whether it be humor, anger, inspirational or despair - strike while iron is hot and write it as if no one is ever going to read it but you. Then re- read it, hit "publish," and don't look down.
I do identify with you on writing Apache.
I feel like I disappear, too.
If I don't write something everyday I feel like it has really been a bad day......
I love sometimes just writing for me.
"As I began to tell the stories of my life, I started to live again."
Your "why I write" is so familiar to me.
Your writing is always so full of life and fun. Yes, there is definitely interest in your stories. You are an inspiration.
Sharon
Thanks for sharing your story. I'm really loving reading all the responses to this open call! I could relate to much of it, like:

"...be careful to not think about it much or else I will think the power or the humor or both right out of the story. " Never thought about this, but it's true.

"I have lost a billion little pieces of myself along my journey in life"
Maybe we are all writing to keep hold of the pieces.
I look forward to reading more of your writings.
Thanks for sharing your ideas with us. Very informative!
you have indeed found yourself-- a talented writer with a distinctive voice.
I have just read two of the best lines I have ever read on the writing process.

This:
"If I am not at home I have to be careful to not think about it much or else I will think the power or the humor or both right out of the story."

I know that EXACT feeling and recognized it in myself.

And this:
"I have lost a billion little pieces of myself along my journey in life."

Again, I relate to this very closely.

I have always found your writing to be fascinating. I once got an email from you that I told you was as good or better than most posts I read on OS. You are instinctual and as you said yourself, humorous. I have seen you be erotic and sensual. I have also known you to be a deep thinker.

This little window into your process was very interesting. Thank you.
Sheesh I read this line ---

"What to write about and how to go about it?
Life, of course! "

As

"What to write about and how to go about it?
Lie, of course! "

And thought, damn, she's inside my brain!! EEK!! ;)
"I have lost a billion little pieces of myself along my journey in life. I lost who I was, forgot how to dance to life's tune, forgot how to play, forgot how to be me, forgot how to live."

Yes. That is the why for me as well. And thankfully, it's starting to re-emerge.

Apache - glad you're back on the horse, so to speak. You're finding your voice. Rock on!
The psychologist Mihaly Csikzentmihalyi calls that trance you describe "flow." (He goes by Mike, by the way.)
Apache: as always, a pleasure to read you. I love the clarity with which you explain something that happens deep inside (like that trance-like state), the instinct and passion in your writing.
"Disappearing into the words, I found myself, and so I write....."That alone is a gem. Thanks!!
Kisses,
Marcela
Love that passion. Love the pieces lost along the way. Love watching humpty dumpty try to put 'em back together.
That is some fine advice. Half of the stories in my head are not fit for little ears (or bigger ones for that matter) but I think I could round a corner or two and not get myself in too much trouble while I'm still breathing.
Funny as a reader i find myself in a flashback style stare. Reliving billions of pieces of life long since forgotten, amongst the music and dance partners that should never have been misplaced in my beacon. The one that fades with the cruelties age. Reminiscence is a thing of beauty that captures the attention of the soul. Recollection can be as painful as the pace of the clock. Seldom allowing enough time to absorb the fruits, or knowledge gained with labor taken to find your place here.
"I think therefore I am" would be better if replaced with" I read therefore I think". Many of us need that jolt to bring back the part that seems lost, maybe it was! Reading your post is the dopamine shot that does the trick. Keep it up you have an audience here and an open stage so.... Thanks for the share.