I realize it's been just shy of a year since I posted Part I.  I honestly don't know why it took me this long to post Part II.

PART II

Two weeks after that afternoon, I felt well enough to have sex with my boyfriend.  Feeling my uterus contract… Read full post »

Part I

So it came to be that in May of that year I found myself to be with child.  The boyfriend and I decided that alas, as much as we may want a child in the future, the future is decidedly not the present and as such… Read full post »

jackie is telling me about her love life.
i'm half-listening, nodding,
wiping an anus, checking for breakdown.
she's asking me if i believe "once a cheater, always a cheater"
i say no.
she asks why
I turn the hips further away to dry the perineum with a cloth and apply barrier cream.
i mention context
she a… Read full post »

Right now I’m delirious. Why? Because the magnitude of a decision I’ve made has finally hit me. I’m leaving a really good, stable man who loved me too pieces and treated me really well (at least materially) for a life I have to create for myself out of basically nothing. I’m… Read full post »

Something I have learned recently is that to be loved, you must love.  Simple, right? 

I say that as I am still living with my ex-husband and becoming more deeply involved with the man whom I believe to be the love of my life.  

How could I have been married without… Read full post »

So much brought back in the smoking of one cigarette.  A Marlboro Light, to be exact.  Reminds me of college, smoking in that desolate area between X Hall and the library.  Overlooking Claremont Street, where the traffic is sparse and you can see into the buildings across the way.

I bum… Read full post »