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I'd rather be judged on the basis of my posts than anything written in my bio. It's put down and gathered as a record of my experience and a response to what I see as the important issues in the world today. I don't pretend it's anything other than subjective. The purpose is to analyse, interpret, express opinions, challenge the status quo, open a few doors, and entertain when the muse permits. I heartily welcome ratings, comments and dialogue as that is what makes this media unique and valuable. It also keeps me honest and encouraged since I'm not getting paid. Take a risk and say something; it feels better. The "conversation" is essential for the growth of the individual and the collective. I have faith it extends beyond the confines of what is said here. "For it is necessary for awake people to be awake, or a breaking line may discourge us back to sleep, the signals we give--yes, no or maybe--should be clear: the darkness around us is deep." From A RITUAL TO READ TO EACH OTHER by William Stafford

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JANUARY 3, 2011 4:39PM

Visiting Old Detroit

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The old house is gone,  the city destroyed, can you see it, no?  Hey, it's ancient Mesopotamia, thieves digging in the ruins, what hasn't fallen ready to fall.

I wake up cold and dreaming about the fruit cellar and the girls who lived nearby, not necessarily in that order.

The girls lived on Burlingame, the  fruit cellar was on Gramps side of the  basement and ours.  In the time in the mind when there was no place else.  Built from furry thin planks of pink brittle wood.  The girls were flesh and blood.

                                                   The cellar nailed together with shelves  and empty apple crates, left from another era, when the family grew celery in the muck a hundred years ago.

The girls are beautiful as ever.

Old Detroit is gone.  The houses, churches, schools, stores, factories, four fifths of the population, trees, gymnasiums, neighborhoods, gone, burnt and bulldoozed--an archeological site now of a destroyed city, but destroyed by what?

When was the hurricane, did it run out of water, a meteor perhaps, a war, yes, a war, a disagreement between management and labor, the entrepreneurs and the refugees in their eternal struggle, that will do it, or

how about

a trade embargo, Volkswagons, them Japs, capitalism baby, poor leadership, nobody with the guts to call it like it is, the Spirit of Detroit, a golden statue once reaching out to everyone, now to no one, the Promethan myth abandoned, the Lions lost,

how about

a difference in race and expectations, the legacy of oppression will not be denied, the intractable vision of men hanging from moss laden trees for crimes they did not commit, the death of the last emperor, the fire next time, the invasion of a foreign tribe, they will ask: what led to the end?  And nobody will answer.  The truth is always the scariest thing to tell.

You think there is no repercussion from injustice even if you did not commit it yourself and nobody admits their guilt?  You think the group is any different from you or me?  Detroit does not say so.

The tribe survived but moved elsewhere.  The occupants fled, the pretty girls bred, can you see it,  can you see it?  History is never new except to those who experience it.

Every family has one such home that survived the decades, along the banks of the river, by the fields and ruts, the blending stopped, they formed a protective barrier, the incursions had to end when the girls were threatened, the residents burned the roofs over their own heads in a town without pity.  No, there was no logic to it.

The poppy fields of the Golden Triangle invaded and took over everything South of Eight Mile Road.  Those who remained ate each other.

We were safe for awhile.  The walls were made of brick, but brick can't hold back resentment, greed and ignorance.  Do you see it yet?  Do you see your old house leaning and exhausted before it fell?  Who lived there with you?  Where did they go?  Does anyone see the warning to tell the other cities and their naive occupants?

I saw the wind blow the snow over the frozen mound all along the side drive.  The bricks filling the fruit cellar where we built our rocket ship and went to the moon.  The planks crushed in the hole in the earth, the oil tank rusting, the work bench I made with Gramps beneath it all, a century it lasted, a mere speck of time, but the story goes on forever, no different than a thousand cities a million times over, see, see, see it now but only in the mind's eye.

It all jumbled together, it cost so little and then was worth nothing, time can't be stopped, pride can be squelched, that's the lesson, some faith has to go on, if not the one we knew, maybe something close, maybe something not like it at all, maybe the faith of our fathers, maybe not. 

An eye, an ear, a sight, a smoldering scent, an observation, an early encampment along the strait, an excursion, a pass into the future, a loss, a tear, an exuberant pledge not to have it happen again, a lost cause, a new vehicle, an appeal, an adaptation I ask,

The last  re-union of the old Detroiters before we all disappear like all the rest satisfied that it's all right.  No matter what.  It happened exactly the way it had to, the old city had to fall, they warned us, oh, they warned us of our mortality each and every day, we dispersed like the Anasazi to the wilds of Livonia, Farmington, Royal Oak, Warren, Troy (no less) Bloomfield Hills, Wattles Road, Grosse Pointe Farms as if another world has been born whose time will come, but where is New Detroit?   Where does it rest in our children's minds?

                                                       It was nobody's fault and everybodies, but none are innocent who come from Old Detroit.   It's gone but we are not.  But when we are, will they learn what we know?

We come from a city that lost itself.  We probably would have stayed.  Our message is simple: do not do what we did, but we don't know what we did and there is no one to tell us and no one to listen to so painful a cry.

 

 

                          

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old detroit beckons us all... we are not gone; we still see us within this lovely post.
I don't know much about Detroit. I've only been to the Mideast one time.
So sad that so many American cities are not permanent, but temporary, fungible, disposable phenomena. Boom and bust, then discarded, ghettoized and forgotten.

Just like America treats her citizens, I suppose.
I've never been to Detroit either, just a few of the suburbs when on business trips. That, in itself, is indicative of the city's demise, isn't it?
I have been going to Detroit since I was a child as I had an aunt who moved from Georgia to work for Ford after WW2. I continued driving as as adult going towards Toronto and back. I just looked at a slideshow posted somewhere and saw fallen buildings. So many cities falling into rubble.
No one to claim the grief of it all.
And the ones left live a horror show.
The city is still interesting, but one has to dig. It's mostly bones and no guts now. The labor organizations still play a strange background role in everything, but the working class culture of the city is gone. I last visited about two years ago--I have a friend who lives on the outskirts, everyone seems to live on the outskirts now--and I was impressed with the ability of people to go on in such an environment. It's a heroic city in some ways.
Rated.
This is horribly profound, T.S. Eliot in prose. Perhaps the greatest piece I've ever read by you. Can't rate it highly enough.
The state leadership should have fought harder to keep what it had. But the computer boom was deceptive and all the "experts" told us that that would replace everything.
THE MIDWEST DID NOT RUST OUT. IT WAS HANDED TO OUR COMPETITION ON A SILVER PLATTER BY FOOLS.
The beauty and distance of your slender prose pulled me in. I am sharing this post with a friend who has described "old detroit" to me. Lovely writing.
The same could be said of Cleveland. I feel your pain.
Beautifully written, rated
Note:

At its peak in the 1950's, Detroit was the fifth largest American city (tied with Brooklyn) with a population of 2.5 million. Today that population is estimated at 600,000. It ain't Kansas Toto, and ain't Cleveland either.
This was America - built on stolen land, slavery and sweat. A dream sold to the huddled masses so well that some never wake up - and maybe they are happier than I am. Sleep well Motor City!
what gorgeously rendered truth and melancholy. questions, answers, and things that never can be known. (r)
I was saddened to read your post. I used to drive up from Chicago and have a lot of fun in old Detroit.