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I, like millions of others, am a refugee from some fairly gruesome childhood happenings. I entered adulthood as a selectively mute, unwashed, suicidal, friendless, uneducated, delusional, and sick-fat (as opposed to healthy-fat) young woman. I have been homeless in the Tenderloin (I am prouder of that than I am of my master's degree), and I have spent years in self-imposed solitary confinement. No more. I have morphed over the years into an irritatingly chipper and hyper-friendly Trauma Queen. If you're having a bad day, don't even look at me; my happy little face will just piss you off. This blog is dedicated to all the other Trauma Queens and Kings out there - we of the shrunken hippocampus and the hair-trigger amygdala. We who, in D.H. Lawrence's words, have "passed through the waters of oblivion." But let's not just pass through. Let's make a TSUNAMI...

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JANUARY 31, 2010 11:07AM

Do Homeless Drug Addicts Deserve Shelter?

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I have a friend I'll call Jessie. I met her at a day program for homeless women.

I have never seen Jessie without a smile, and  I have never heard her speak an unkind word. To anyone.

Jessie  has only one leg. She's an amputee. She gets around in a rickety old wheel chair - the kind without a motor, whose wheels you  propel with your arms.

Jessie never lets me help her with her day program chores. She insists upon wrestling with the trash, mopping the floor, and washing the dishes on her own. 

 Jessie lost her leg to a huge festering abscess. Her infected leg threatened to take her life, so Jessie let the county hospital take her leg instead.

The abscess was caused when Jessie ran out of injectable veins, and began injecting heroin directly into her fat and muscle tissue. 

Jessie sleeps under a bridge at night. She urinates and defecates in bushes.

Jessie has been wearing the same pair of pants since I met her.

Jessie has been addicted to heroin for over twenty years. She will probably  use heroin on a daily basis for the rest of her life.

And I think she deserves a warm bed to sleep in.

Every shelter she's sought help from disagrees. They don't provide beds for drug addicts.

Jessie is a precious and valuable human being, even if she never takes a  drug-free piss.

I know, I know. We don't have enough homeless shelters for people who aren't drug addicts. Why should we provide shelter to people who can't or won't stop shooting up, taking pills,  or drinking?

One reason: because they desperately need it.

People like Jessie are not worthless. I know from experience that they can provide a warm hug, a funny joke, and a sweet story when you most need one. I know that they are often doing so much better and so much more than they appear to be.

I know  it is often far too painful and destructive for family members to let their drug-addicted children or siblings live with them. A shelter for homeless drug addicts would be a form of shelter for their families, too. It would relieve them of the crippling burdens of guilt and fear.

Let's stop thinking in terms of the "deserving" and the "undeserving" homeless.

None of us has the authority to make that kind of judgement.

It may be unobtainable, but let's at least make it a goal to provide safe, dignified shelter for all human beings - whether they are active in their addictions or not.

I know my friend Jessie would thank you for it. I'll bet she'd even take out your trash.

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"Deserves" is such a loaded word. Who gets to decide who deserves what? Is she human? Then she "deserves."
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In a word, yes. Yes. Times ten.
Our country is so filled with excess stuff, it doesn't make sense that our resources are so limited.
Great, thoughtful, heartfelt post. Thanks
Lovely post, written by someone who sees. Any of us could be Jessie. It is deluded to think otherwise.

I used to work at a supper for hungry folks. One night, someone I went to college with, now an addict, came in for a meal. He was embarrassed; I was embarrassed that he was embarrassed. Then we got to sitting around drinking coffee and shooting the sh*t, about people and times we both remembered from school, carefully avoiding his story and mine. I sensed that he enjoyed being treated like an old pal as much as he enjoyed the food. A little respect, eye contact, a little attention paid. If we can't find Jessie a bed, we can at least do that.
Every single human being who still breaths in the same air as I do deserves whatever we can offer. I used to be a drug addict and I was also homeless years ago. I slept in a park. I slept behind buildings.
This country seems to forget that we are all equal citizens of the supposedly free nation. We need to get our heads out of our asses and start caring more for our fellow man and woman.

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A decent shelter is every human being's right; a country that overlooks this or is judgmental in its criteria is not as civilized as it claims to be. Jessie should not have to take out one's garbage to have a home. R
Think of it this way. Get her the bed, the warm dry clothes or a blanket, and she has one less thing to worry about to be able to consider getting off the junk. It's the instability and insecurity that likely got here there, stability and security might get her back
Thank You all for your kind responses. You brighten my heart with hope.
They not only deserve one, they have a right to one. She has an addiction, and I know of no one who isn't addicted to something. Hers happen to be illegal. So was alcohol, and it seems like cigarettes are next. Then they're going after the obese. When they come for the rest of us with our coffee addictions, I guess people of means will take a stand. The girl needs help. A heroin addict, giving the drug daily can operate normally and even hold jobs in other countries. Deserve?
Jesse deserves a warm, dry place to sleep, 3 square meals, drug treatment, and friends like you.
I'm so amazed and awestricken that Jesse has managed to stay alive while on the streets and maintain a heroin habit. For God's sakes give the woman a bed!!
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Yes, it is only human. Heartbreaking and effective, well done.
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No doubt at all..drug addicts are people too.
Nicely done bftq!
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If we don't give loving kindness unconditionally to all then how will have hope for ourselves, let alone the down trodden.
Your topics never fail to pull me in and make me think, mostly of my own weaknesses and dark spots. Thank you for that!
we can do better than this for all our needy. we treat human beings like trash to be thrown away. it's a disgrace, a national disgrace.
To answer the title question. Absolutely!
England and Holland have the heroin problem under control through a prescription program. Drug related crimes are down. Addicts get clean needles, uncontaminated doses, and are weaned off drugs. It's humane, ethical treatment.
I spent time talking with nurses and participants in the program in Holland a few years ago. The nurses enjoyed the work and felt like they made progress with the patients as they saw them become more functional. A few of the participants credit the program with saving their lives. One young man tried heroin as a lark at a concert in another country. He made it back to Holland a wreck, sick with infections from dirty needles. He was taken care of and was on his way to coming off the drugs when I met him. Vondelpark went from "needlepark" back to a family park.
Amsterdam is a big city. Sure there is some crime, but it's not from heroin addicts looking for money. They just show an ID at the van. Pot is not a problem, you can buy it at the coffeeshops in several varieties, including baked into desserts.
Society is based on how it treats it's weakest members. Someone high may not be appropriate for a shelter with families and children.
But is it appropriate to leave them out in the cold? There has to be a middle ground, a workable alternative.

Excellent post trauma queen!
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Homeless drug addicts must need it the most! I don't think the word deserve belongs in the equation.
Ok, no "they" don't "deserve" anything!
"We" owe it to ourselves to "give" the undeserving what "we" obtained deservingly, but as you pointed out there aren't enough shelter spaces available for the homeless who have a better chance of becoming additional societal contributors, so triage naturally comes into play.
Or have you taken Julie into your own home?
i completely agree. addiction is not a choice many times, like a moral decision to be "bad" its a brain chemestry problem and you know what? addicts are so hard on themnselves no one else ever had to be. I do not believe in any holier than thou attitudes I think we are so hard on ourselves ad it is. She deserves.
I deserved safety once, and this was rudely kept from me. Only by the grace of the divine did I escape complete homelessness--but due to poor health, not an addiction.
Most addicts live rough lives among some pretty unsavory people. If we turn them away, who els will they run to for what comfort they may be able to find?
I've known some addicts to be mentally disturbed persons living on the fringes BEFORE they were tempted into addiction. They now live trapped in our denial over what their worth was to begin with.
We can thank Reaganomics in part for this. All our halfway houses and state hospitals shut down due to the negligence of the time.
Very noble, thoughtful, and important post.
~R++~