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Black Boots
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Lover of bellies
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I have lost my lover who loved my boots. The psychic crossing guard, who spits and bangs on cars, warned me that he was selfish. I came to suspect that he was secretly funneling anonymous money to the Tea Party. He also hated museums. For now, I seem to attract adventures as a suburban housewife.Only you can determine which is fiction.

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OCTOBER 25, 2010 12:17AM

Enjoy the Silence

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My High School classmate gave me passes to see his band, Nada Surf’s performance at the Bowery Ballroom last spring. This tour introduced their new Album if i had a hi-fi. They covered Depeche Mode’s Enjoy the Silence.  I didn’t even recognize this version at the time. Over the months, I have listened to both versions. My meditation of the lyrics has made me realize that they have significant resonance for the world of virtual relationships

 My words have been known to wound…I can be ruthless in my ability to cut through foibles. Yet isn’t silence just as damaging?  What is not said is just as sharp a sword. The song implies that the energy felt between two hearts is what really matters. I believe the mind feels what it feels regardless of the reality. The body reacts to the mere thought of love or sex. Is a virtual love any less real to the mind? The body can produce all of the neurotransmitters from the thought alone. Is a virtual slight any less real if the mind perceives the intent to hurt?

 Sometimes I think can feel your energy from your soul travel through the computer. On the screen, all I see are words but I feel your soul. On the phone I can hear a lie. Face to face I can see the slight roll of the eye, the look of disrespect or disgust accompanied by sweetened words. I can see the look for a split second of cold eyes-eyes that view me as if I am a bug under a microscope- because you can’t stop the cost benefit analysis that pulses through your brain with every interaction that causes your anxiety riddled self to wonder if you were mad to venture out of your sanctuary. I can smell a year of fear and stale sweat from a jacket that has been dry cleaned too infrequently. Over lunch I can see the slight choking movement when I tell you of my lovers. You know that you will never measure up to them yet you disparage them. I can see your fear. Fear that you are not enough.  Yet you remain silent- it is your perceived strength…and your Achilles heel.

 

 Nada Surf

 

 
Depeche Mode.

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Well said and so true.
Rated.
sweet,little ms BB ... i must agree (after 2 listenings) their does appear to be an element of virtual connection with this music ...
i must get the lyrics to study ... i like alternative music - ( group -
Arcade Fire or Dave Matthews Band (they be local boyz)) ...
(singer-songwriters - Tori Amos, Jewel, Colbie Cailatt, and Tift Merritt) ... i listen on Pandora and WNRN FM Radio 101.1 from Charlottesville, Va. ... great to see black boots ... lew
Scylla- You always make me smile...I am not so sure that it makes sense in the light of day but it did when I wrote it.

Beta- I'll try to give you an alternative play list...I have never been main stream...but I like my hip hop and rap for the gym. I like to dance too. One of the guys on OS does this Karaoke on You Tube and posts it...I just found a microphone...I used to send my lover songs that I wrote asking him to go to the museum with me...but I think they might have scared him....maybe I'll write one for you.....Beta Beta in the fish bowl how I wonder....
ms BB ... my wandering wonderer ... love alternative music ... yes, i
showed you mine, now show me yours ... i'm a writer/entertainer but
i lack computer savvy (posting pictures, videos, etc.) ... my only inate skill set i have is pleasing a woman "short-term" - an interesting but
inwardly lonely life ... lew
Beta- Yes is must be lonely for your altruistic self pleasing all of those women...and who is there to please you Beta?

As for music, I am going to look into a singer call Lew Dewitt...I have very eclectic tastes. My mother used to sing a song from the 40s to me " A Bushel and a Peck" She just sang it to me in a restaurant to sooth me over losing my true love Snarky. The waitress was very impressed.