DECEMBER 20, 2011 9:58AM

In the Wind

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 "... 124, 126, 128 ... The dotted white lines are almost a solid streak a few inches below my left foot. ... A great surge of sheer joy electrifies me, adrenaline a wire in my blood, a 560-pound flesh-and-blood, steel-and-alloy, fire-spitting arrow shafting through the afternoon, heading due west and straight on into the sun...."

-- The Ride


     It's sometimes dangerous, frequently anti-social and always polarising, so when people ask me why I ride, I'd really like to have answer. The synapses fire all right, and my thoughts swirl faster and faster, but I don't -- can't -- respond. Pretty soon, the questioner leaves me alone, undoubtedly thinking I'm even crazier than first imagined.
     Oh, I could wax philsophical and lyrical about how I learned to ride a motorbike before I learned to drive a car, how it was the first chance to get beyond pedal power to fly myself away somewhere, how that small bike took me daily to my first "real" job at 16.
     And I could talk about the years when riding paradoxically saved me, while at the same time coming close to killing me, and about the rush of twisting the throttle to the stop on some difficult stretch of road.
     But that's not it either, although there are elements of truth in all of it.
     And it's not really about "freedom" -- whatever that means: I'm about as free as a body can be in these turbulent times. Nor is it about feeling old age creeping up on me, or the need to somehow "prove my manhood".
     At bottom, it's about moments. I really can't share those with anyone, because any attempt to describe the synthesis of sound, wind, exhiliration, of being in the landscape instead of looking at it, is futile.
     Some feel it, as I did, in the pit of the stomach the first time they swing a leg over a saddle, understanding instinctively how those controls -- front and rear brake, clutch, throttle -- mesh and co-ordinate. I knew when I was 16 that I'd always and forever be a rider, even during the years when I didn't own a bike, or didn't ride much if I did.
     Most will never have that feeling about motorcycles, finding it in other pursuits instead. And it's likely they'd have just as much trouble describing their attachment to whatever it is they love to do.
     Though I think we'd all agree on one thing: For each of us, it's something we can't breathe properly without.

"In my memory, it's always around 2 a.m. on a hot summer night, the smell of still-warm asphalt mingling with exhaust fumes. We leave work and dial it on, heading for the all-night truck stop a couple of miles outside town.... The broad curve is taken at speed as we try to outrace each other, and my face hovers near the instrument binnacle, watching the speedometer creep its way to the mystic 100 and beyond for the first time ever.... It's a moment of pure magic, and I know nothing will ever be the same again.
-- Ton-Up Boys

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Thanks for the elucidation of your passion. When my younger son used to ride his motorcycle in Manhattan I just couldn't understand why. I guess it's something I can't ever really get. You feel it or not. (And glad to see the helmet. Some riders down here don't wear them because of the heat, maybe.)
Wow. I was talking to a serious Biker.
Sunday we spoke about Bikes. Serious.
He had one black shoe and one tan shoe.
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I ask`
It's a style?
No. It's soot!
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He has many Bikes.
A British Bike Spits.
His shoe had Soots.
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He speaks with Jay Leno.
That's not his real name.
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Share. Email the Biker?
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Jim Baltusnik. He nice.
He gets 1,000 of emails.
No tell him I sent you.
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OLD MOTORCYCLES WANTED
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Triumph, BSA, Norton, AJS,
Velocette, VINCENT, ~
His name is Vincent.
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Parts, literature, complete or
Basketcase.
He has a cell phone. Seriously.
I may hold back his cell # tho.
If you are serious you PM me.

My Bike days are past. Careful.
I really enjoyed this wild-Post.
Bikers no get a nail Pedicure.
Ah, my friend, you have described perfectly how I feel about riding a horse. Funny, isn't it, how similar our obsessions are. Maybe one day I will make it up that way and we can go for a ride. Of course you would have to find a motorcycle with training wheels on it for me.
My son is like you and rides like the wind and sometimes gets hurt when he dirt bikes. Yes he does it all from the hog to the brief frame and slight wheels..
It scares me but it is his passion just like you.
I rode a bike once and all I could see was the low ground and the centre white strip. It was the only ride of my life.

But your wrote this so I can understand what it is all about. My son has never told me this.:)
HUGGGGGGGGGGGG
I'm sending a link to Paul...to let him know you helped me to understand his passion!

Excellent writing!
I've never seen the need to ride a bike, but then again, I've done some of the dumbest things a man can do, and still be breathing. Ride my friend, do what you love, you only live once!
I get the same feeling when I ride my tricycle.
I'm with Torman on the training wheels requirement, but something in me started resonating as I read this. In a different - yet similar - way I enter a private place that's hard to describe to others when I'm shooting. It's been that way from the very first time I pointed a rifle downrange and squeezed the trigger back until...magic time.
Boanerges,
One of my students just wrote a 30-page essay about his love for motorcycle riding. Glad to see you are brothers with him under the skin.
I know the same feeling my butt 4" away from the pavement with 712horses of heat warming my legs as the scenery blurs to your left and right and the dotted lines in the road are now a fine ribbon of white. I think I just had an orgasm. Great post Bo and into the wind we ride....................o/e r*****
Perhaps just as simple as being a part of a power beyond our own..

Rated for if we could ride dragons we would fly.
Thanks, Lea. I wore a helmet from the first day, long before they were mandatory: My father, a sometime dispatch rider in the war, told me it was the only way he'd let me have a bike. Seeing what happens when you don't convinced me.

Ah, yes, Art. Brit bikes were all I rode for a long time. Cranky, high-maintenance and all, I still love 'em. My best to your friend.

David, anyone who can stay upright on a horse can manage a two-wheel gyroscope. Trust me -- I've done both. One pretty well, the other thoroughly badly.

Hi there, Linda. Yeah ... it's complicated, and I doubt your son can explain it either (if he can, get him to tell me). But I know how scary it can be for those who watch, especially family.

Thanks, Buffy, I'm glad if it helps. Please give Paul my regards. I believe I remember you mentioning he had a bike, and I hope he likes this.

Hey, ScanMan, I appreciate that. It's going to be a while before I can get into the wind again, the weather being what it is ... but we all live in hope, right?

JB, I simply cannot imagine you on something as sedate as a trike ... unless it was a Morgan.

Matt, I spent a lot of time on rifle ranges many years ago, and the parallel is indeed there. When you're in the zone, it's almost Zen-like: You just can't miss.

Wow, FLW -- 30 pages? Incroyable. Any chance he'd post it here? I'd love to read it. In any case, tell him hi.

OE, I know you know what it's like. It is orgasmic, in a cosmic sort of way.

Good point, Seer. There is something about unleashing those horses....
I always rode because I felt like I was flying. Just above the ground but free as anything that could slip those bonds of gravity and the limitations of the human body to glide along at speed and without any other distractions.
Seldom have I read a short essay that embraced me the way this does - the sheer delight of the ride, the inability to find words to match the experience so that a nonrider can really, really REALLY "get it," the sense of transcendence- for us riding a motorcycle is nothing about transportation, but it is everything about transportation. All these years after I had to put mine aside I still have it in my blood - riding isn't something you do. It is something you ARE. Thanks for an extraordinary read!!!!
I am lucky to have experienced your passion as a back-rider, throughout Holland - with the love of my life.

I understand. I love your writing.

Cheers!
R♥
It is a definite soul-deep passion, one which I don't understand, but I can appreciate. Like Lea, when I see a rider I see vulnerability...I know you see and feel something entirely different, and that's kind of awesome.
" It's a moment of pure magic, and I know nothing will ever be the same again." This is as good as any other reason. R
What kid doesn't like sticking their head out the window of a moving car?
As a lover of words and language, I can more than understand your desire to be able to verbally or textually convey what you feel, but the reality is that some experiences are simply ineffable. Having noted that, "Though I think we'd all agree on one thing: For each of us, it's something we can't breathe properly without" expresses the importance of passions succinctly.
I was a passenger on many a motorbike ride but never got hooked. It seemed too dangerous to me, especially as three of my motorbike pals got in crashes and were banged up pretty good. I swore off after one especially harrowing trip back from a Pink Floyd concert. 45 minutes of steeling myself for the inevitable high-speed contact with the pavement. It didn't come to pass but it was enough that I'd played it out in my imagination several dozen times.
This might be the only time I've read an explanation of the love for motorcycle riding that comes close to something I can understand. A few men I know, one my brother and another a dear friend, share your feelings. I used to think they were a little nuts. Maybe they are, but that's not why. Beautiful piece, B.
" At bottom, it's about moments. I really can't share those with anyone, because any attempt to describe the synthesis of sound, wind, exhiliration, of being in the landscape instead of looking at it, is futile."

I think you did a pretty good job. Enjoyed this immensely.
B1: Had the passenger experience on the back of my then boyfriend's bike going from Peterborough to Ottawa along Highway 7 through the beginning of the Shield in those parts, riding past trees, and more trees and silver lakes. Never told me Mum (she forbade it) so I was a bit mixed about the freedom and (simultaneously) the deceit. You describe this just so ... I wondered if I had read it before here? Or maybe the description was so spot on, I only felt I had re-lived it.

Nice to read you here, you brought me out of conflicted holiday hurriedness and hiding...
I've never wanted to ride on a motorbike, but your description is lovely and I can well understand your passion.

I'm not sure I feel as strongly about anything, which is sad when I come to think about it.
Passionate and loving the last stanza. I love my convertible, I know very safe and suburban, I have had one for thirteen years or more. Heat on my feet and air in my hair, fall trees going by in a yellow blur, turbo rising. Yes.
Love this mediation on your passion.
Your obvious love shines in your words here Boan.
Excellent all round and a great read..
I wish I could rate this a zillion times friend..
I get these feelings when I ride my road bike. Lovely. Thanks for putting it down.
I thought I would feel that way when I learned to fly an airplane. Once I got past the elementary part I found it a total bore. When you are a couple of thousand feet up you have no feeling of speed and the ground crawls by very slowly. The best I could do for excitement was a couple of turns in a tailspin. But I never got beyond a four cylinder Piper Cub. Perhaps a military jet is different.
Yes, indeed, it is about experiencing indescribable moments.
Hey, Bobbot, I didn't know you were a rider, too. It is similar to flying, or so I'm told.

Kit, I knew you rode -- I think you said somewhere else for 20 years. It really is difficult to explain, but saying it's what you ARE, pretty much nails the feeling.

Thanks, Fusun. Riding pillion isn't something I ever liked much (I'm a control freak, I guess), but what a great way to see Holland.

BV, it's possible that the inherent vulnerability/danger is part of the attraction. I can tell you, though, that it makes me far more aware of my surroundings -- especially cars.

I vividly recall that night, Trudge. I knew something had changed for good.

Yeah, Larry -- kids and dogs. That sounds right.

VA, I rather suspect good music is that for you. Although you do a whale of a job conveying your feelings in your reviews.

Abrawang, one thing you can't have is a too vivid imagination. But you do have to be aware at all times.

Thanks, FF. Well, yeah, you do have to be a *little* nuts if you're hooked, but....

And thank you, too, Grif -- it's so good to see you here.

I know that highway, SS, and I love it. Never ridden it, though I can wish. Maybe some day. You may have read the first italicised segment -- it's from a longer post I wrote quite awhile back.

Gasp! Linda and you coming from the very heartland of motorcycling.

Rita, what a poetic (no surprise) way to describe the feeling. When do we get another instalment from you?

Thanks, Mission, for the comment -- and your support over the years here.

And thank you, too, Deborah.

Jan, I don't like flying much -- again, I suspect it's a control issue -- so I don't have any reference point. A military jet though ... that could be interesting.

Thanks, John. I know you understand all about that.
Well said, old boy.

For me, pièce de résistance is when I Zen out through the twisties. I am totally in the moment and have no room in my brain for anything other than what's happening at the moment. As I synch with the road, leaning this way and then that, I have a near out of body sense of oneness with everything around me.

My good friend who recently passed away was a great skier. He didn't ride but we've had many conversations about "zenning out" as we each do our thing and it's the same rush, the same indescribable feeling that you've made such a valiant attempt to describe here.
PS. You do know that helmet won't be worth squat if you should actually need it, right?
Knew you'd get this, Cappy. That's why you're in the tags. That night I first broke the ton was one of those times that transcended everything else. Just ... at one with the machine and completely in the moment.

As for the helmet, I might get a full-facer next spring, if only because I'm tired of picking mosquito and lady bug corpses out of my beard. Seriously though, I had one for years that I ditched because it was so old. I know they're safer, but I feel disconnected from the bike, almost like I was in a car.
Sorry to double up here but I wanted to weigh in on the helmet issue. I rode without a helmet for years and was not and still am not in favor of helmet laws. The worst motorcycle accident I had was having someone pull out in front of me and stop. I was tossed over the handlebars and my head went through the drivers window, I rolled over the op of the car and landed head first on the pavement. I had recently started wearing contacts and had lost two pair of them riding with glasses alone. I had an opportunity to get a helmet, full face and neck roll, for a reasonable price and was wearing it to see if that would keep my contacts from blowing out. I hit that car at thirty mph and if I had not been wearing a helmet I would be dead, blind or paralyzed right now. So it is the riders choice but the damned thing saved me.
No problem, Bobbot: Thanks for chiming in on this. I come down soundly on the side of mandatory helmet laws, just as I did decades ago for seatbelt laws. I saw far too many instances in both cases of death and injury caused by not using them. My first was little more than a polo helmet -- there simply wasn't anything else available. I think anyone who rides without head protection of some kind is playing against a stacked deck. My only problem with a full-facer is as I outlined to Major Mojo.
When I rode the machine almost seemed to disappear yet the throbbing feel of its power seemed to own the center of my being, and I felt the same way a flying dream would make you feel if the whole middle of you was a powerful throbbing engine. Right on the edge of an orgasm......
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Sky! Didn't know you were a rider too. I'd have included you in the tags. And, yeah, it is kind of weird how the machine sort of disappears.
Bo,

I only actually "rode" for about 2 years - an old wartime snortin' Norton - English bike - with bicycle handlebars. I had to wear - don't laugh - rubber boots because that sucker spewed oil like you wouldn't believe!

The problem is that old saying - "Once a rider, always a rider." It never gets out of your blood once you have ridden. I spend about 8 months of the year living in RV Parks. I get to meet a lot of folks - especially seniors - who spend 6 months, or more, of the year biking around the whole continent. What great people to spend a lovely summer evening chatting with!!

Joyous Humanlight to ya!!
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Yep, it's true, Sky. As for the Norton ... if you complained to a Brit bike dealer about something like an oil leak, all you'd get in reply is "They all do that, Sir" -- which goes a long way to explaining the demise of the old industry.