The holidays can find us in a struggle, a struggle to meet the expectations of other, a struggle to find the perfect gift.  Gifts are tokens of our love to those we give them to.  We look for those gifts that we know will warm the heart of that person we give it to.  We tend to work insanely at times to find the gift that will make our love known to that person we feel deserves it.

I've known my wife since we were kids, a long time ago.  I have made a point of trying every year, good and bad, to find something that would light up her eyes and warm her heart.  For the first time in thirty years I have failed.  Poor planning and being broke finally got the best of me, this year I have nothing to surprise her with.

I know, it isn't all about material things.  I just wish that this year in particular I had something special to give.  Only a month ago she literally saved my life, and I have not even a token gift to give her.  

So many people never find the love of their lives and I was lucky enough to find mine so long ago.  I would walk through fire for her, suffer any indignity for her, and take on all comers to make her smile.

So, Cathy, for all you've done for me I want to to thank you,  thanks is a meager gift since it is only a feeling and not even a pittance of what I feel I would like to give you.  You deserve so much more and still it wouldn't be enough.

Thank you, and I love you.