Caroline Marie

caroline marie

caroline marie
Location
northern city, United States
Birthday
July 24
Title
Temperamental Story Teller
Bio
posts will tell

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JUNE 5, 2010 10:41PM

Surrounding Ourselves With Magnificence

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When I first moved to this city where I now live, it was to move in to my girlfriend's studio apartment in a drab part of town.  I soon worked a miserable, rotten temp job which took 2 dreary bus rides to get to because we had no car.

The girlfriend was a newly recovering alcoholic (in other words, not very fun) and I had no local friends.  My life was mired in drudgery and I could see no way out.

Three long, sad months later, I learned of a quicker route home from work so I hopped on a bus headed in the opposite direction of where I usually went.  Only one mile later, the bus rounded a curve and there to my complete shock was a beautiful lake.

It was filled with colorful sail boats.  There were trees and bike paths and a sandy beach with happy sunbathers enjoying the afternoon.  Just past the lake were outdoor cafes and bookstores and surf shops.  There were bike rentals and ice cream and as my mouth still hung open taking it all in, it was time to get off, grab another bus and ten minutes later I was home.

I raced in to tell my girlfriend my incredible discovery, but she of course was well aware of Fox Lake because after all she's lived in or near this city her whole life.

"But, but it's beautiful and there's so much to do and..."

She grimaced.  "It's crowded.  We don't have a boat."

She could not stomp my buzz.  

A whole new world had opened up to me, a world of bright colors, happy, active people and natural beauty.  I felt hopeful, renewed & alive.

I was firm.  We were moving there.  (and yes, we were already incredibly close, but not close enough.)  And so we did.  

My whole outlook improved.  For the next 15 years, I have always lived a short walk away from a lake (turns out this city is chock full of them, it's incredible.)  I have something gorgeous to look at every day. 

Half the year, I take my dog swimming at "our" spot on the lake every saturday morning.  I've done this hundreds of times now, and yet every time I still look around me, breathe in deep and feel so damn grateful to live in a place that makes my heart sing.

Last year, I found this incredible (rental) home in a secluded spot right on a wooded creek with cute walking bridges and bike paths.  It's in the city, 10 minutes from downtown, and yet you would swear we lived in the woods.

Every single morning, I come downstairs, open up the blinds and smile at what I see.

I grew up on the south side of Chicago and my girlhood bedroom overlooked a giant, neon Arby's hat. (remember those?)  Downtown Chicago may be breathtaking with the stunning architecture, lakeshore, gardens, river, etc. but if anyone reading this can name one beautiful thing within a 25 mile radius of the spot where I grew up, I'd be shocked to hear of it.  

We made trips downtown maybe 3 or 4 times a year, but otherwise my childhood scenery was fast food, strip malls, factories, identical houses and the occasional patch of grass with a sign in front saying "PARK & REC"

I have friends who are currently living in the south suburbs of Chicago.  Any reader who has had to drive through the midwest knows those 'burbs go on FOREVER and for all you know you're stuck in some kind of time loop looking at the exact same stretch of monotony over and over again.  Taco Bell, Target, Home Depot.  Repeat.

Last summer we were visiting one of those friends and went to an REI type of store.  They were having some kind of sale and outside they were selling hot dogs and there were a few games for the kids.  It was a beautiful day and she and I were sitting  on a bench looking out at the ginormous parking lot filled with SUVs.  Beyond that were more strip malls and fast food chains.  "Isn't this nice, " she said smiling.

I looked out and all I could think of were the sunny weekends where I live now, when we sit and look out at huge trees and sparkling waters.

It's great that all the pavement doesn't bother her.  And it's wonderful that there are people who receive all the beauty they need just looking into the faces of their loved ones. 

But why?  Why choose to live in such a place?  Or anywhere drab or unremarkable.  Why live where there is nothing to ever make you stop, smile and thank the creator for giving us so much gorgeous detail?  Or for the city lovers, a place where there is not one original shop or magnificently designed building?

Yes, I know there are plenty of people who don't have the money or freedom to decide where to live.  Some aren't even aware of the beauty that is so close to them.  I work with kids who live in my curent city and who have no idea it is filled with lakes, rivers, creeks and waterfalls.  They have never been to any of the lakes which are all just a short bus ride away for them. 

With my family it was more a matter of habit.  They got off the boat from Poland, went straight to chicago's south side and didn't move for three generations.

Now my mom lives in a beautiful town in southern Maine.  Walking distance to the ocean.  She has no money.  I'm serious, sometimes she goes without groceries or heat in the wintertime.  But she found a dirt cheap little house and loves to take long walks on the shore.

She and I are both new to having beauty available in our daily lives.  New enough to appreciate it every single day.  

My daughter's current bedroom overlooks the creek and she gets excited every time she sees ducks floating by while she sits in her bed.  Every day we point out beautiful things to each other.  For perspective, I've told her all about the Arby's hat.  

Even though she lived in Florida the first (nearly) 8 years of her life, she has never seen the ocean.  In a few weeks we're going to visit my mom though, and she'll get to go on a whale watching cruise.

There's just so much to be thankful for in this world. 

 

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What is beautiful near you?
How wise you are, the beauty of nature washes clean the soul. I'd rather be in a lovely location than eat or have trinkets, not sure I could give up heat though. I love that you take your dog swimming every Saturday, what a fun date to look forward to. Thank you.
Fox Lake sounds like paradise. Trust is..I live close to the Missouri River..and near my home it is beautiful as it moves through Kansas City....but I never see it.
I'll remember to look this time.
r---
So true Caroline; without the beauty of earth and the appreciation of the birds, my chickens, the dog, and the neighbor's cat, my life would somehow feel less reverent. I stare out of my office window at a 'creek' (more like a bog, but it is a haven for birds), across a beautiful lush valley, hemmed in by ginormous mountains. I feel like one of the luckiest people alive...I can tell you do, too.
I live close to a neon Arby's sign.
For me beauty is every where. I will blog about as you have inspired me!
You sounds like a proud and thoughtful mother. I enjoyed this warm and smart post very much.
I seek beauty in everything around me wherever I am. Right now it is raining out and my ginger cat is crawled beside me, sleeping like a baby - fed, warm and happy. Purring in his sleep. A June breeze brings in the smell of rain. The night is silent except for my key strokes. That is beauty for me. Tomorrow, I'll find beauty in something else. ~R~
An enjoyable post that is also a reminder to look around me. I noticed our old, tired cactus is busting a bloom! Now, that is pretty cool since we've not seen this in the 8 years we've lived here.
Everything I see around me is beautiful. The river with the bridge I cross to get to a real town. The birds that fly over, just everything. I could not live in a city. But I like knowing the city has beauty too.
Beauty is sustaining, and to live without it is a serious deprivation.
There is much..its' true.
St Charles is within a 25 mile radius of Chicago...also Lake Geneva.
It's there, just difficult to find.
Living near a lake must provide you with the most magical days...
you found the beauty around you in a dark time and let its light continue to shine rated. peace
i love to hear the peaceful happiness in this, caroline marie. you are living and enriched life, bountiful and whole. sometimes you can take a photo of the happy dog or the sunning turtles or dunes on the ocean's skirt. or, you can just write about them too. apparently you describe them rather well.
Lovely.
I am always grateful for the folks who love living in their cities so that my Oregon riverbanks are populated mostly by birds and no houses or factories.
What fun comments to read!

L'Heure Bleue, it is fun! (I exaggerated a little though, it's only warm enough to do about 4 mos/yr.)

JD, am I imagining things, or did I just see your real face for a minute? And yes, see the river, she's waiting for you to notice her!

Sparking, your place sounds stunning! I'm so glad to know you have that magnificence around you.

Amanda, thank you for the kind words. I'll look forward to reading your post. (But is the neon sign a giant hat? We don't have those around here anymore.)

FusunA, I love how you describe what is around you. And oh how I love the smell of rain.

mypsyche, I have never been to the desert, but I hear that it is gorgeous. I can't even imagine living near a cactus!

LL2, I am so, so happy to hear you are surrounded by beauty. I think many cities can be beautiful, and I love thoughtful design. It's cookie cutter places that suck the soul right out of me.

How true, Hawley!
Gary, small world, I have a cousin who lives in St. Charles! But, it & Lake Geneva are almost 50 miles from my childhood home in Chgo (I just mapquested it.) I'm telling ya, there isn't anything close to that spot worth looking at...

Yes, bernadine, thank you.

Thank you so much dianaani.

Stephanie, the riverbanks must be wonderful.
Face? Me?

Hummm...well...maybe... : )
Caroline, this post really spoke to me and spoke so much about you. One bus ride and the world opened to you. Your current home sounds amazing and I'm curious about where you actually live, though i also respect your privacy.

The most beautiful place I've ever lived was Jerusalem. I think that natural beauty sourounded by meaning no less, was veritable heaven.

I just moved today. We are out of an apt which others found lovely and would rave about but it was from day one till today, just all wrong for me. Having made that giant mistake, I feared seeing the rental we had looked at for all of one hour. It's in Manhattan which is not beautiful in the way you describe. But the minute I walked into this new rental, I felt a weight lift, because the apartment, not fancy, has purely great feng shui & is in a lively 'hood. I felt at home for the first time in years. That's why this post spoke to me so deeply. For me, home is the primary other. Men come and go, at least in my cosmos. A great home makes life so different. Beautiful post esp for we who are so place-sensitive. R
"home is the primary other" So true, Wendy. I haven't thought of it that way before. And I have to add that so far I have only made it to Manhattan once, but I saw plenty of magnificence there. Loved it. Brooklyn too (I spent a whole afternoon in that huge cemetery there.)
wendy, I should add: congratulations on your new home!
Ooooooh, I've been to Vancouver--you have A LOT to be thankful for!
I like living in the country. Yesterday morning while having breakfast, there were 14 deer in my backyard.

(I'd like to know ... how does Arby's stay in business?)

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I would love to see 14 deer outside my window.

(I think it's their special sauce.)

(Really, I have no idea. But I kid you not, we used to watch dog food trucks pull up in our alley at night & unload. I'm serious, my mom was very troubled by this.)
Your home description is lovely. I live in the inner city, but my back yard (all 40 square feet) is a garden where I grow herbs, flowers and veggies. Many of my neighbors have flower boxes on their window sills. I'm not far from several museums, and a Chinatown. It's not a long ride to a major park.
I have written about the beauty of my community garden plot in the middle of the city. But I have to say, I live in one beautiful city ..._r
Right now squirrels are eating and chasing each other around the Big Maple that's a few feet from my office window, and birds are chirping and flitting from the tree's branches to the feeders and back. And I can't see any other houses. That's mine. I envy you the water, though: it refreshes so.
I was always fond of the Indiana Dunes when I lived in Chicago. Okay, okay you had to ignore the nuclear cooling towers.

I liked going in the fall when the trees were changing colors. If you picked the right day the colors would be blazing overhead, the sunlight golden, and the lake a deep deep blue. Once I went in the early spring and the swirl of sand, left-over snow and chilly puddles on top of ice reaching out from the land into the lake with no clear transition from sand to water was an unworldly sort of beauty.

Also, I never got tired of looking at Lake Michigan. Just watching a sunrise on the lake could make me forget there was a whole city behind me.
caroline marie, what an optimistic and happy post. What a great goal, of seeking out beauty every day. Everyone would be better off if they did this. I have always found beauty in any environment, and my kids help me continue to do so- picking up fallen blossoms from the sidewalk, admiring funny images in graffiti, being overjoyed by finding "treasures" wherever we go.
Now I know where to go on my summer vacation! Your world sounds so lovely, and the effort you put into getting there is inspiring and brave. Thank you for the visit!
A beautiful post, caroline marie. Good for you, finding beauty in your own back yard.
I'm guilty of overlooking the beauty in our area. I forget that other places are without it. I never get tired, however, of driving into our neighborhood and seeing the magnificent, moss-draped old oak tree that sits on a bend in the road.
I should add that the lakes here are humble. We have no great lakes, or ocean or mountains or Golden Gate Bridge where I am in fly over land, so don't be too envious!

geezerchick, I love city life and you can't beat fresh herbs & veggies.

Joan, I've never been to DC but its definitely on my to-go-to list!

Pilgrim, I do love water, but where you are sounds delightful too

Linda, what a great attitude! And thank you for not bragging here about that breathtaking city of yours...

(just kidding, brag away everybody)

Thank you Susan & Froggy
I love this. Such a positive vibe here, Caroline. I live right near a lake and a beautiful view from our backyard. And my daughter's room has two windows from which you can see the harbour from. This house was built in 1875 and is in constant need of fix-up but it's all worth it

And I agree don't ever let anyone "Stomp on your buzz!"
I've written you a little "tribute" today in my blog, but I wanted to answer this, too. What's beautiful near me is the mountain so close that we can walk right up to it, right up on the side of it, and look out over this magnificent desert world we live in, my daughter and I. When I bought this land, I was a little scared--it was very remote and wild. But one day, we drove over for a final look see...and there was a double rainbow over our little plot. Later, we also discovered that here had been a settlement of ancient Indians just behind us, and our Hopi relations came down to pray and leave offerings for them. So we had set ourselves down right where we belonged. It is beyond beautiful.
It sounds wonderful, Scarlett

Keka, I'm headed over to your blog now, but first, I love this comment about how you found the place where you belong. I think its so important to feel connected to the ground that we live on.
This was one of the most beautiful pieces written on OS to me for a number of reasons. Well done. I understand your mother and her love of the ocean. I am a person who comes alive near water and have a penchant for sailboats. I am attracted to them in art mostly, but the thing is it is more about what I think they mean to me. Freedom. The air, sea air is a tonic for me. Thanks for sharing this. R
When I first spotted that lake with all the sailboats, freedom is exactly what I smelled. I'm glad you enjoyed this post, Sheila.
I am so glad I came here.
Your post's title is the right attitude towards life. We are so blind to beauty that is in front of us.
Thank you.
ixxidust, I'm sorry, I missed you before.

Ah yes the indiana dunes, we drove there often as teens. I think we even made our way there on prom night, a bunch of us at 4:00 am or so and built a big bonfire.

Lake Michigan has a very, very special place in my heart.

Bell, those moss draped oak trees feel magical to me, I couldn't get over them either of the 2x I've been to louisiana. Can't explain it well but found them to be so haunting...ancient...almost whispering to me in some way. Maybe you could post a pic of your tree sometime.

Thank you for visiting Vanessa,I'm so glad you enjoyed.
Wonderful Caroline. I live in a suburb east of Seattle. Out my back door (of my apt!) there are the snow covered (most of the year) Cascade Mountains. When I drive to the city over Lake Washington, I am starring at the Olympic mountains (snow covered most of the year) and when I turn to my left, some days, in its magnificence, is Mount Rainier! Thing is those mountains are not all visible everyday, so I never take them for granted. I believe I AM surrounded by magnificence.
Trilogy-

I lived in Seattle for a year before I moved to where I am now.

It was my first time living among hills, let alone mountains! When I first got there I stayed in a house on Queen Anne hill and I just could not get over how different a residential area looks when its not all stretched out flat as a pancake.

I remember the first time I saw Mt. Rainier--I was on a city bus headed to yet another shitty job, then I looked out and thought I was looking at clouds. When I realized it was a mountain I was awestruck. Everywhere I turned that year I saw amazing beauty, mountains, lakes, hills and flowers--made the bus rides down right enjoyable.
I've lived in so many places and found the beauty in each of them. It is an absolute requirement that I live near a body of water. So glad you found your paradise.
My favorite spot in the whole entire world is on a small lake sitting at the end of a 72 foot dock watching the sunset. On rare occasions I can go there alone , just mysalf and the sound of the water, it is the most soul healing thing I can do. Enjoyed the post.
Fay, I agree about the water...and I have friends who feel that way about the desert. It's so important to know what feeds your soul.

hugs, that sounds wonderful
You know...when visiting China for business 5 years ago, we stopped in a delapidated hotel along the southern border near Hong Kong, and walked the market place.
In the marketplace was a place that birds were sold...and beyond that,...a bit of a valley spread out.
It was covered with plowed fields that were in water....rice I assumed but perhaps not..and the hills in the background just took my breath away!

You just never know when and where beauty will strike next, do ya?
What wisdom . . . part of it is seeing the magnificence, part of it is drawing closer to it, intentionally. Well done, well written, well lived . . .
I love that story JD, I would love to go to china
and thank you owl