Waning hormones put me on edge

Up past 3, anxious, lists and more lists spin me into the clouds

Outside my window, the trees remind me to pray:

I'm here!  I'm alive!

Summer, Fall, Winter, Spring

Summer, Fall, Winter, Spring

My spinning lists don't matter to the trees.

One bad day is unnoticed, one week a blip, one year a murmur

The trees have faith in stillness, silent reaching, steady growing

After all, another day will come.  (or it won't)

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My dream self tours cathedrals and catecombs in Italy

Gathering ancient images, inspiration for a film project

Writing, writing every day

Healthy, active

Pleasant to be around, pleasantly parenting

Bursting with love

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Today I must clean the house

Do something fun for the child

(Bite my tongue, try not to criticize) 

Take the dog swimming

Buy food 

The trees shake their leaves at my worry 

Some are already turning yellow 

I'm here!  I'm alive! for another season

This monotonous day will pass and another better one will come 

(or it won't)