Caroline Marie

caroline marie

caroline marie
Location
northern city, United States
Birthday
July 24
Title
Temperamental Story Teller
Bio
posts will tell

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DECEMBER 30, 2011 2:45PM

2011 wasn't so bad

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Since the last post, things quickly improved at my house--big time. Penny wrote me a note (about 50% of our communication is through notes) that said "Let's have a Magnificent Return of the Christmas Spirit Day (MRCSD)!"

That night, we baked a batch of cookies (peanut butter w/ Dove dark chocolates) and watched Mr Magoo's Christmas Carol.

Christmas Eve was lovely - Penny singing at church, coming home to a Polish meal, watching more Christmas movies.  Christmas Day we spent with friends.

Now, I am in my usual End of  Year Coma, satisfied to be at home doing mostly nothing, my phone turned off, thinking about the past, planning for the future--the usual.

2011 started off with a steep decline in Penny's mental health--by February she was on medication, and in October we switched to a new prescription.  She continued with her usual therapist, but added a Psychiatrist, then a different Psychiatrist, and a Therapeutic Massage/Reiki Practitioner, and a Nurse who does Biofeedback.  All of this healing work led to some positive changes - the most noticeable being that she has not had any rage episodes since October.  

Penny began 2011 still doing well in school, but now is in danger of flunking out of the 7th grade. She has halted her sports activities -- mostly due to her grades-- and is having trouble with friends. She still often talks of wanting to be a doctor some day.  All in all, 2011 has been a mixed bag for Penny with plenty of questions about how 2012 will turn out.

My professional life took some unexpected positive turns this year.  After many years of working with adolescent girls, I now supervise 8 staff who do the work that I did for so long.  I feel more like a grown up with this change in authority - it really does make me feel different.  I hope to continue trying new roles, challenging myself to stretch and grow. It feels good to move out of a rut.

A spontaneous decision to go back to school, AGAIN, has had some unexpected consequences.  Most significantly, it was the connections that I made in my very first course that lead to my finding Penny's new therapists. My second course lead to some personal revelations about my life's journey, and now I am faced with the big decision of whether or not to continue.  I want to, but it's a very expensive University.  I want to, but I already have a Master's Degree.  I want to, but sometimes my home life is not conducive to studying and concentration.  Not sure what 2012 will bring in this area of my life.

I started a new writing project in 2011, and attended a phenomenal writer's conference that was inspiring, informative, etc.  But as usual, it was just when I was hitting my stride that Penny started demanding more attention from me. (Although I am probably just using that as an excuse.) I would love for 2012 to be the year that I complete one of my books.  I would have to make a schedule, stick to it, and possibly forgo continuing my graduate program.  Hmmmm.

This year I completed my third Life Review Video for a family that I know.  I wonder if I will find another client and keep that strand of my creative life going in 2012?

We made a 2nd Annual cross-country road trip this year to New England. Loved the time spent on the beach and Penny took a surfing lesson.  I am sure we did some other fun things this year too, but nothing really is coming to mind.  I want 2012 to be more FUN!

So those are the highlights of 2011.  Oh yeah, the geriatric dog is still alive - so that's another good thing that happened.

2012, what are your plans for us?  

 

 

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Sounds like a tough year, but you made it through. Who knows what 2012 will hold? My 2011 was not a delight either. rated.
I cannot speak for 2012, but I can certainly wish that its plans for you and Penny are great ones - in which you both find adjustments, more answers, and fulfilment in your lives as mother and daughter.
Best wishes to both.

R♥
Hope 2012 brings your wishes. Happy New Year!
Deep breath. I just know so little of your life that I wonder if you need a break from it. Just resprit (sp, sorry) for a weekend and then you can make the huge decision for graduate school. Me? I found this year hard and good at the same time. I, too, got new medicine. New doctors and am feeling much better, but the costs. Oh, my!

Mental illness, mine, bipolar 1 is a difficult illness to stop invading your whole life. I write now to let down and to breath. I'll write more. And, you should too. You have a lovely pen presence.
Sounds like life is on an upward course. I hope that continues and that 2012 is a happy and joyous for both of you. You deserve it.
I thought of you over the holidays, your sad post and hoped for such a turn around. Kids do that, just abruptly turn. So glad that was the case and you had a lovely holiday. A treasure. Thanks for letting us know.
So glad the Holidays got better for you both. Best Wishes for an even better 2012!
It wasn't so bad, Erica. Hope 2012 is great for both of us!

Such a lovely wish, Fusun! Thank you, and may you have a beautiful 2012!

Happy New Year to you Lea!

Thank you for the kind words, Mango. I'm glad to hear you're feeling better.
I think it is on an upward course, unbreakable. You deserve a wonderful 2012 too! Thank you.

unimagined magic - I love the sound of that Janie! Yes, for all of us!

Thank you so much for your kind thoughts and words Rita. Happy New Year to you!

Thank you Trilogy. Sending wishes for you to have a wonderful 2012!
You know I am wishing you and your daughter peace and happiness in the New Year. I've got a good feeling about it. ~r
I'm glad to hear that things got better. Kids seem to always know when we have something that we want to give our attention to: Bam! Mom mom mom... I say, if you want to, do it. Your being happier will last longer than her dissatisfaction that you aren't always available. Maybe study together? I hope 2012 is rich with delight.
Life is like a box of chocolates..,wait, that's Forrest Gump. Go to school, finish your book and keep an eye on Penny, she's going through those, "oh shit, I'm a teenager now", blues!
This was such a wise look back at your year. I hope that 2012 brings you all that you hope for and more!