Dang, I was all in kinds of a peachy keen kind of mood after reading my Northern friend Brian's Monday list this morning. You know, the whole back-to-work-with-a-whole-new-year-ahead-of-me, my yummy coffee (Spicy Mayan Chocolate) while typing away at emails and doing some workity work kind of stuff.
I guess the title's a bit of a spoiler, eh?
Yup, I just came back from my doctor's appointment which was really just supposed to be a tune-up of sorts. And of course I opened my mouth to say, "by the way, I kind of have been getting a bit of a burning sensation in my left breast recently". Before you know it, I was lying face up on the exam table with a red checked tablecloth over my bare boobies. Swear to gawd, all that was missing was the chianti candleholder and some spaghetti & meatballs.
Yes, it's a lump and yes, I have both a mammogram & ultrasound scheduled for Wednesday and no, I have no history of breast cancer and yes, I lost my MIL to it 7 years ago and yes, I'm sure everything will be fine and yes, I'm scared as shit.
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Thinking, thinking, thinking of you.
Hang in there.
You WILL be fine. Being scared is normal. Feel it and try not to let it rule you.
In the meantime, we're here for you. Sending you the best thoughts and healing.
ds.
one piece of advice ... don't spend the next four days reading about in online ... you will only scare the total shit out of yourself more, perhaps unnecessarily ... just don't do it ... though you will be tempted ... but don't. Sending you lots of very positive thoughts & prayers.
I know that scary feeling. I had to get an ultrasound for the very same thing. I, unfortunately have a history of female cancers in my family. Its good that you are aware of your body enough to know when something isn't exactly right. Be strong, stay positive. The power of the mind is an incredible thing! :)
ds, you're so smart (as always) and I think some yummy thai food is definitely in order. I'm just going to ride the scary wave and remind myself women all over the world go through this all the time. Was just my turn today, right? Right.
1-I-M, I'm making the promise to you right now that there will be no googleing, no WebMD'ing or anything of the sort. Pinkie swear.
Stars, thank you. I'm going to be the poster child of positive thinking for the next little bit. I hope all was okay with you?
Women go through this and triumph, just as you will.
Good for you for saying something, and a big thumbs up for your doc for not brushing you off.
sending best wishes to you, honestly, Caroline. one of the downsides of having boobs - you always gotta wonder if they're going to turn against you!