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February 09
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nonconfromist (on Twitter)
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Mind My Own Business
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Artist, former newspaper columnist and restaurant critic. Author of "In Pursuit of Excellence" (the first cookbook of Two Star Michelin Chef Josiah Citrin). In my spare minute I can be found blogging here, on Huffington Post and other places that don't pay. And writing for some that do. You are NOT in Kansas anymore, Toto. Neither am I.

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MAY 31, 2010 2:49PM

Words and Pictures

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I know I've been off the radar.  Obligations and a burst of creative energy and opportunities.  Also, a MacBook death.   Mine.  RIP.  No, I didn't back up the data.  Yes, I have learned that "backing up" is not limited to something you do in the driveway.  My bad.  Virtually (no pun intended) everything I have created or written or photographed over the past 15 years is gone, not to mention all the legal and personal documentation. And information.  And passwords.  Gone.  As in GONE.  I felt as if my entire (creative and personal) life had been foreclosed upon.

The hard drive has simply vanished or been corrupted or is looking for the real killer of OJ Simpson's wife.  Don't know.  I've moved on.  Had to.  I screamed, I cried,  begged, I pleaded and then I surrendered.  Your friends and your family are far more important and many of them are in my thoughts as they go through health related, life changing issues.  

And then, a funny thing happened on my way to getting a new MacBook a few days ago.  When I plugged in my iPhone, it seemed to retrieve and recognize a lot of data that I thought was missing forever.  I am slowly rebuilding my (computer) life.  Strangely enough, images of avatars of many people on OS are showing up on my new MacBook.  People like Placebostudman, Amanda G (is that the name you are going by now?  ;) ), Nick Leshi, Pretend Farmer, Fusun, Gwen Cooper and Dave Cullen to name a few.  How you got there, I don't know.

Photos that I thought were gone forever (including those from the OS Las Vegas meetup last summer and a number of other get togethers ) are back and have found a new home!  I swear I'm also finding images that seem to belong to somebody else.  A lot of cats.  I mean a lot of cats.

Your avatars are reminders that even  though I don't have the time right now to spend on OS, that you are still a part of my life.  I'm under a lot of stress with painting deadlines for various venues and upcoming projects and shows.  Some are fun and whimsical and others make me proud to be an artist, showing with others whose work I deeply admire.

I've been playing around with words and combining them into paintings for a cool show I have been asked to participate in next month in Los Angeles.  If I can swing it, I'll be out there for the opening reception, but I think I may have a timing issue/conflict with a gallery in Miami where I am slated to show as well.  Both shows open the exact same day.  

If only I could be in two places at once, I'd be painting and spending more time on OS or be in Miami and LA on the same day.  It could be worse.  It's not.  Life is good.  More or less.

In honor of Memorial Day, I had a little fun with the concept of Craigslist and the fact that posts often get flagged there.  So I pulled the reverse and call this "Craigslist Advisory."  It's Latex and Acrylic on Plexiglass (my new favorite surface to paint on):

                            Craigslist Advisory 

With summer on its way, I created something bright.  This is called "Ritualistic":

                            Ritualistic 

"The Big To Do"  pretty much says it all:

                             The Big To Do 

"Take a Walk on the Wild Side" is another piece on Plexiglass.  It (along with five other pieces that were recently commissioned) will make its debut in a pretty prestigious venue within the next two weeks.  I'm hoping  one of them it will catch Robert DeNiro's eye:

                            Take a Walk on the Wild Side 

 

And so will this piece which is titled "Always Rises to the Top" (Chantilly):

                            Always Rises to the Top 

"Three Square" will be keeping company with the other two above:

                            Three Square 

So, as you can see, I have a lot on my mind.  This is called "Grey Matter":

                            Grey Matter 

All of these pieces (as well as a few others), have been created in the past three weeks.  I told you I've been busy.  Which explains why I haven't been around to read or write.  Self portrait, (painted a few years ago) below:

                            Self Portrait 

For now, I guess I'll just have to let my art speak for myself.

Happy Memorial Day everyone! 

To see more of my work, visit my website by clicking here

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Beautiful work, Cartouche! Chantilly and Three square would look very nice in my bedroom! I'm happy your muse is speaking to you - it's always nice to see you here.
Sorry to hear about the losses. My little MacBook has become a constant companion. iPhones are beyond me but glad it has found some of your missing bits. Also glad to hear of your creative energy and opportunities. Glad just to know you are all right.
i've missed you. glad you're having such a good time. i particularly like the to-do list.
Ah, the artwork is wonderful. A painter and a writer. How blessed with talent you are..._r
Wonderful, you are truly an inspiration. I am going to freak myself out with an idea that just sputtered from your inspiration. If it comes to good fruition, I will show it to you! Sorry about the crash of the computer. Snarky unreliable technology that we are all currently wed to. yuk. R
Just fantastic work here.. perhaps the loss of your hard drive inspires creativity? You might consider losing one on regular basis... you can used ones cheap, just to lose them..
Good art can always replace lost grey matter. (Or something like that!)
very very very very nice. i love 'ritualistic.' i guess you can thank good karma for the data finding its way back home, at least some of it. grateful for any and all sounds like a good plan. 'busy' is not just a good excuse, it's a fabulous one. ;-D
Clooney is only number 3 on your to do list? Go figure!
Sorry to hear about the lost data, glad to hear about the new pieces. Hope you're able to piece it back together. (Sometimes what our lives need is a good house fire.)
Thank gawd. We'd just formed an ad hoc search party, complete with big dawgs and kegs of brandy, to...um, rescue you. Especially considering that you made off with our avatars and cat photos. Glad you made it back.

I like Chantilly and the self portrait.
love the oddball surprises in life...love that you are retrieving and rediscovering...love when acceptance comes they return to you
Cartouche, that Craigslist piece is so creative... I would buy it. Or put it on layaway, sigh. I don't like hearing about words or saved items being lost via computer crash. Been there... wound is still fresh. I've missed you. Both of you. I love your website. Let me know if you do any shows closer this way. It would be so much fun to meet you at one :)
oh, and love the to do list piece
I thought you were in Denmark with Blumenthal...


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I went through a crash with my first laptop and just saved all my creative work to a flash drive from the one I have now which has a burned out cord. So I'm looking at this virtual gallery of beautiful art on my iPhone. Absolutely beautiful! Rated
that lucky Geo Clooney!
I have a handful of your previous posts saved in cached version if you want them and were unable to recover them, including "She Knows," "One (More) Night Only," "The Correct Word is RESTAURATEUR," "The (Unofficial) OS User Manual," "Pay It Forward: Meet Two New Writers," "Dear Writing God," "Surviving My Life: A Guide," "This Place Has Changed," "This Is Just the Beginning," "Untitled" (December 29, 2009), and "Overlooked and Underrated - MY List." If you want any of those and were unable to recover them, let me know.
I was just about to start an Open Call as to your whereabouts. Glad you are back and semi sane.

and yes great piece and work..Love the self portrait
rated with hugs and relieved you are okay
I was wondering about your whereabouts as well! It seems a lot of us have been sidelined by forces outside OS. It's good to know that your outside forces have been creative and productive. Your art does speak for you and for itself.
So happy for you that all wasn't lost. Your paintings are amazing, I understand, looking at them, why you are gone for now. Enjoy the spotlight!!
Beautiful beautiful stuff. pm'd you about linking your website to my upcoming "OS Bookstore & Gallery". Let me know if you going to get to LA. i'm always looking for an excuse to go!
Oh...and like Sheepdog said...Clooney is only #3?
Ha! that's great work, cartouche; sorry about the hard drive. To see your post is always a pleasure. Happy Memorial Day to you. R
"Chocolate Art!!!!" That's modern art I can understand. Why Plexiglass?

The To Do list is in proper order. You need the oil change to drive to the airport where you'll present your renewed passport before flying to Italy where you'll do George at his villa.
Glad you checked in. You are one mighty talented Renaissance Woman. Your art is so lovely and expressive and speaks in so many ways. Looking forward to your written voice again, also. R.
We will miss you less on OS knowing that the time is spent on your painting. beautiful work.
Nice work, welcome back, sorry about your data, etc. Sometimes, losing everything is liberating. I guess. Usually, it just sucks.
So glad to see you back, Patricia. I hope you'll find the rest of your data soon. I know the pain of losing one's life's work. Could you tell that you were missed? Welcome back. ~R~
So glad to see you back, Patricia. I hope you'll find the rest of your data soon. I know the pain of losing one's life's work. Could you tell that you were missed? Welcome back. ~R~
Welcome back! And with so many beautiful new works. I think they are the karmic trade-off for the data you lost.
Nice work. And it's great to have Cartouche here, even if briefly!
I am glad that you are experiencing a creative burst of energy. Congrats on your successes!
You are giving bi-coastal a whole new meaning. The solution is to do George Clooney and have him fly you back and forth between Miami and LA on what must be one of several private planes ;0)
I love your artwork...the self portrait is especially lovely. so glad your creativity is alive even though your macbook is not...

computers....
Nice to hear from you. I was a bit worried. Sorry about the losses, but seems you are recovering in more ways than one!
Oh, wonderful. "Ritualistic" and "Chantilly" are my favorites, after your to-do list, of course.
sorry about your computer; the death of a hard drive is tough!! a piece of knowledge i wish i didnt own. neverthless, i'm happy that your fine art is doing quite fine. congrats and loads of success.

i love ritualistic.
Glad you're back Cartouche. OS was lacking a certain je ne sais quoi (man, credit to the French for elevating vacuity into profundity) in your absence. Good thing that the near-death experience with the hard drive was only near and not absolute. Sounds like it had a stroke and that every day memories return at random.

Interesting set of paintings too. Most of them look like there's a lot more than meets the eye.
I too have been vacant from this site, as explained in my blog, but not fir such interesting or beautiful reasons! Well done you.

PS. I am very sorry for your MacBook loss. I have USB's all over my house, all of which have my different works in various stages! Though I do need to back up my photographs...
Saw your portfolio. Very impressive. Great feel for color and whatever the hell else.
Very awesome! Glas to hear you've been busy. You know, I could be Cartouche-for-a-day for that gig in La-La if you need the help.
You paint with words and write with color. Either way, it works exceptionally.
You are one prolific and gifted artist. Love every single piece (though perhaps Gray Matter is my personal fave - shocker, right?) But really, your skills are so damn advanced. Just sophisticated, polished and evocative work.

As for your Mac, I feel your pain. Lost all of my photos at the beginning of the year and it took me months to get over it. Now I back up like a clogged sink! Every week, at the end. Do it religiously. It also helps to have all of your blog pieces on a sturdy platform like WordPress or Blogger (not just OS.) That way your writing is safe, for the most part.
Cart, I feel for you re. your Mac. My PC was stolen in 2007, and only by a stroke of fate did I have it backed up ... on a memory stick I had only just used a week before. Even so, I felt naked and exposed as I had to cancel every piece of plastic, re-issue, cjhange all passwords, etc ... all data on my hard-drive. It is shocking!

But your creative juices were obviously nor stolen or destroyed. As always, your paintings stand tall and strong, certainly worthy of anybody's praise and admiration. good luck with ALL your shows.
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the MACosphere is a wonderful thing. It backs me up in ways I never hope to imagine. A PC can't take that kind of beating and live to tell the tale, congrats ::deep breath:: on recovery of some of your memory. Sounds like your world is on high spin, a good thing if you're ready for it. And of course you are. nice to see ya.
i know how you feel. bummer. I lost four chapters of a new novel recently and still haven't recouperated. i may take the summer off. fuck it.
hi, cartouche, thanks for updating us and for the cool paintings
absolutely beautiful work! sorry to hear about your computer issues but glad some of the data seems to be magically reappearing. i've had it happen and was able to get a computer guy to save most of my data. which reminds me, i need to run a backup...

good luck with the shows!
I'm so sorry for your loss of word and stored images! I would be severely bummed if that happened to me today. I ought to have backed up my stuff before. Been putting it off. Time I got going and learned to use my backup system--the right way. I like your new work! "Always Rises' and "Three Square" I would gladly hang in my own home, were I blessed with wherewithal enough.
~R~ for relevancy
Just lovely, beautiful, comprehensive, intelligent - need I say more? I sometimes forget you are an Artist. I should not allow myself to do that.

Thanks for the beauty and the thought.
. . . oh, and sorry for the MacLoss. [I'm busy backing up as we speak....]
Thanks for the update and I'm so glad you are retrieving some of your data, especially those Vegas pics that I need to get a copy of at some point.

As someone who has been spending a LOT of time on Craigslist lately, I LOVE the first painting. Your self-portrait is pretty cool too.
I really like them. Glad you are back for a bit.
Wow! This is the first time I've seen your work, and I am really loving it. I've missed you wonderful posts, so it's great to hear from you. Good luck with everything.

Lezlie
Nice paintings! Just make sure you keep them out in the open, and not in a box under the sofa like I did. Two years ago, I did that and moved out leaving the sofa ( and the box ) behind! By the time I realized what I had done, it was too late.

Contents of hard drives, on the other hand. Often can be retrieved. If you know someone into computers who you can trust, take it to them. Often you can remove a hard drive and retrieve the information on it. There are companies that will do it also, for a hefty fee.
Now, let me remember to back up mine! I haven't for quite a few months now. Good luck!
So sorry for your loss. Really. That's horrible and I am living on the edge with no back up hard drive either. It's on my "list" of to dos, but a bit far down, I fear. "I'll think about that tomorrow."
Best thing about being an artist is, you can't loose that. You just create more and it just flows. Yours, anyway. Nice to see you around the hood again.
These make me smile. R.
You are one of a handful here on OS who convince me it is a Salon, old-school. This post is the personal aside from Woolf when she stays in Italy, Joyce's letter to his editor and bete noir/best friend, Cheever in a sane moment reporting on juicy eavesdropping at one of his close-enough-tables cafes. Few here can manage the illusion of presumption: that we are your real friend, love art, care about your abilities without peevishness, and bring us all up to date. I feel treasured, reading this.
I want one of your paintings. I commented on FB; there was a deep cobalty blue one. Love "three square" here.
But most of all I want to walk into your studio with a few choice OS friends be handed a wine glass from your paint splattered hands, inhale Syrah and varnish all at once and look at what's new (THEN buy one).
And if technology had but one neck, some days, I would thromble its beheissimus to the inch and beyond. And revert to walking sticks, the one true and lasting technology.
Just a question: Did you ever connect your iPhone into your MacBook? That would explain the backed up material. Also, have you consulted one of the companies that recovers data from crashed hard drives? If you have legal documents that you want to recover, they are worth their fees. For you documents I recommend the free Mozy.com backup service. For your graphics, I recommend Picassa.com
Well, you know how I love your words and your images are also a treat!
Oh Cartouche, I am so sorry. What a loss and a nightmare, yes people are most important but all your work is part of you. I am sending up good thoughts/prayers for you to have a good surprise to take it's place. Perhaps a few will catch Robert DeNiro's eye or someone else.

Your paintings are beautiful, Three Square makes me want to touch it. It's so velvety and lovely. Thank you.
Okay, I'm late but I have a good excuse. I just returned yesterday. Cartouche, I haven't been around very long, so unlike others I've not had the privilege of seeing your fantastic work. No joking...these are magnificent! I know just where I'd hang each one.
Going to your website now.