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Artist, former newspaper columnist and restaurant critic. Author of "In Pursuit of Excellence" (the first cookbook of Two Star Michelin Chef Josiah Citrin). In my spare minute I can be found blogging here, on Huffington Post and other places that don't pay. And writing for some that do. You are NOT in Kansas anymore, Toto. Neither am I.

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DECEMBER 5, 2010 2:03PM

Words We'll Live and Die By

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Intellectually, we understand that we are all destined to die.  Oddly, there is no greater surprise in life than the fact that death is part of the collective bargain. We want to believe that things will get better, nobody will die on our watch or that our happiness, insurance policies or relationships won’t get canceled. 

But there are no guarantees.

Whether it is after a long illness or by virtue of a crime or freak accident, death knocks on everybody’s door eventually.  It takes the wind out of our sails and causes us to divert, re-evaluate and reflect. 

And then, amazingly, we move on.

There’s a whole lot of speculation about the future of Open Salon or its impending funeral.  If your writing is important to you and you haven’t started yet, you might want to start the embalming process.  Save your work before it becomes part of history.  You know, that whole sooner rather than later philosophy.

I have no crystal ball, but I suspect that all those beautiful sentences, coffee-spewing-I-wish-I had-thought-of-this funny posts, intelligent observations, gorgeous stanzas of poetry and heartbreaking paragraphs are at high risk of foreclosure.

Even if OS is not your primary residence, we are all suddenly facing potential homelessness. 

As the possibility of our demise continues to be discussed, I can’t help but notice how so many are suddenly scrambling for life preservers, exchanging emails and wondering if we will ever see each other again when and if we find ourselves in a new world.

Suddenly, death calls from the wings.  The race is on to prove that not only we will continue to exist, but that we somehow existed. 

Some people have already found their way across the ocean and set up house elsewhere.  It’s called survival of the fittest.

Until now, many have taken for granted that OS would be a vacation home that would be there night and day, whenever we wanted or needed it.  It was like a promising lover, eager to accept all the words we carried with us like luggage each time we came back for a visit.  Log in, write, hit “publish” and show the world you’ve arrived.  Again.

Chances are the big old cyber plug will get pulled on Open Salon while we’re eating dinner, working at the office or (yikes) living life.  There are no guarantees.

This is where life gets interesting.

Go read your last post and then look at your most recent set of comments on the left hand side of your page.  Are these the footprints you want to leave behind?  Do the comments and your last post reflect who you are?

OS is a lot like life.  It’s a parallel universe and an experiment in temporary happiness.  It’s laced with challenges, injustice, humor, sorrow, and insanity.  Tomorrow, it could all change or disappear. 

As with life, your last words are the ones that people will try to remember.

There’s a cautionary tale or a lesson in here, I’m sure.  I don’t profess to know what it is, but I’d like to make an observation. 

Many have said that OS is like high school.  In many ways, they’re right.  We have documented it on a daily basis and watched it play out in writing.  It is filled with countless pages of our collective history.

We may be forced to graduate from this environment and move on.  People here will be remembered for what they were and how they behaved, long after high school and the funeral are over.  The images and actions of our classmates will be frozen in memory and time.  Rarely will we have the opportunity to really get to know people, learn what became of them or who they really are.  

We are in many ways, figments of our own imagination.

You may see yourself or others one way now and with time, see this whole movie from a different perspective.  Much can be learned from a past we created together. We all played a part.

Nobody knows for sure how long OS might stay alive.  For now, I’m going to keep an eye on the yearbook.  On any given day, our words may be the very last, regardless of whether they are spoken or put in writing.  

They are what will be remembered long after OS is dead and buried.

We are all on life-support.

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No this just scared me, but your words are the truth.
Thank you for writing them and rated with hugs
Wonderful and wise words. We need to think of keeping ourselves together ourselves. Some very hardworking individuals have set up havens for us, in case we become OS orphinks.

A lot of us have been advising people to have plan B for their writings.

In the end, the strength of our commitment to this wonderful group of gifted and smart writers will lie in our resolve to stay together in one of the hosted sites that provides a place to write, link, feed, subscribe and read.

Salon has been one of the gems of journalism...the last of the original content news organs. Perhaps becoming a news aggregator, like Huffington post, would be the saving grace for the original content. Why that was not done, I have no clue.

At any rate, there has been a massive amount of incredible writing here, and there has been a massive amount of friendship, support, condolence during hard times and fun that helps to blow off steam.

The heart may need to be transplanted, but it can still be a beating heart.
I've only ever been ashamed of a handful of comments I've made over the past two years; none recently (I hope), so they won't show up on the left-hand feed.

As for my posts ... well, they are what they are. Some were really good; others not so much. I can live with that. If I could bat a thousand, I'd be in the bigs, right?

But I would surely miss the eccentric, strange and wonderful people who inhabit this forum if the plug gets pulled.
It seems people are forgetting that there is no need to jump off and abandon ship, we aren't going to drown. Save your work, and still come and keep this place alive. I think the rumors could do enough damage to make the site less viable for keeping, seems the place has gotten much more quiet and not as diverse as before.
Wisdom for those who are panicking...

What will be, will be... It's great place... but it's not life... life.. is so much more meaningful...
I feel grateful for the incredible support for my poems, (just a small sideline for me) and the generous spirit of everyone here. It's started as a writing thing and grew into more for me anyway. Hope we are wrong.
Crap, I better get my jockstrap out of my gym locker.


{[R]}
"We are in many ways, figments of our own imagination."
Well said, Patricia.
I haven't been paying attention, I was not aware that OS was facing doom. But I always weigh my words carefully, so I'm not worried about that. Guess I need a plan B.
I need to save my photos. Thanks for the reminder.
Another good reason for posting under a pseudonym.
It would not be a surprise to come to the Open Salon page and find the site closed. Just look at the history of internet sites disappearing...
I have one question about all of this. If OS is such a money loser (and does anybody know?), then why didn't Big Salon shut it down ages ago?
Thoughtful post. My last reflection was light-heartened, so I'm good with that. I plan to put up a poem, if it's the last thing with my stamp on it, I can hopefully live with that too.

Welcome to the new world we're we are vaporized instantly with no trace behind. We all just gotta keep truckin' on. Here or someplace else. My wishes for every single soul here, are only the best.
Wise words and sadly all true. People, places and things, nothing lasts forever. I've adapted to losing people, places and things so I've learned to adapt very quickly. I'm lucky because of that because I'm not attached to most of what I've written so I'm puttering and saving some here and there. Beautiful words on the inevitability of life.
I think what happens here has more to do with life than many single encounters in real time and space. No, it's not one's entire life, but we probably know more about one another here than we do about some of our far flung relatives. A friend of mine said yesterday "I am really shocked by how much you reveal on your blog." Her tone was mildly disapproving. "I don't think I could do that." But she is riveted by my posts. She knows she has a window into my very soul; one she'd never have if left to the sporadic in-person encounters we share. We meet for coffe, we talk small talk. We go to a movie, we talk movies. Not much depth there.

Whatever it is OS does for each of us, I humbly submit it means more to many than they would like to admit.

Lezlie
I worry some that if it goes away with all the wonderful people I have met that I may crawl back in my hole. I have as my tag at work on my signature
Always changing
Always growing
Nothing ever stays the same
I have been using it for 10 years now. I guess I should have realized this may not last forever but I am not accepting defeat yet!
You say the thoughts others are thinking so very well.
A terrific post at at the right time. I want to write a post and link back to you. I don't know if OS eulogies are yet appropriate but it would make for some interesting writing.
I hate to say I told you so, but I predicted this on the day the introduced the Googlebots as a way to "pay" us for our contributions. Uh-huh. I predicted that if the most popular writers here wouldn't make enough to cover the cost of the postage to mail them a check. So since you are one of the more popular here, how much have you made so far? I thought so.
It is like a yearbook. I hope my words have been mostly kind. I hope my stories have been interesting. I know that I gained so much from the writing here and the people behind it. I've been encouraged and I hope, encouraging. ~r
It is productive to think of it as a "graduation" -- that makes it seem less like a death and more like a right of passage. I'm still hoping things will continue on. I'll be here until it's no more.
It's Good News Sunday, dammit.

Hope there's a movie on tonight, as background for going thru my posts and saving those I want to keep. And what about all those by other people I'd like to keep? Oh-oh...
I'm glad I met you here. Yes, "you," "you," and "you."
I am never disappointed when I come in here to read: I can always count on you to write with wisdom and sensitivity. As usual, I find myself nodding in agreement as I read....thank you.
I think the out come of it all is in shades of grey, for the world contains little that is completely black and white Cartouche'.
If it was not here one bright sunny day we would all just have to move on in the cyber world. Where to next seems to be on everyone's minds from all the posts and comments I have read here.
it's certainly been a long strange trip here full of surprises and not so surprises as far as I am concerned.

I always back up what I care about here. That is something we should all do regularly anyway.
But the community that has formed is amazing here. The support for so many. I will be here till the lights go out forever....
Very nicely done. hugs.r
This is impossible.

I have been trying to collect email addresses from people I would like to maintain contact with.

The problem, of course, is that I know many of you by your Open Salon screen names only, so it becomes difficult to correlate your "real" email addresses with your Open Salon persona.

Some people have responded to me, others haven't, but it is difficult to keep track.; Has Torman? What about Cartouche herself?

If you all send me an email FROM your "real" email addresses with your OS screen names in the subject line of the email, I will be able to compile a list of email addresses.

Once that list is compiled, I will put up a web page that will enable anyone who is ON the list to send email to anyone else on the list simply by clicking on their OS screen names, thus keeping the email addresses private.

I will not distribute this web page UNTIL such time that Open Salon actually goes out of business.

Anyone who is interested in this project can contact me here at open salon or reach me at alanmilner@aol.com.

I have already proposed this once, and got some small response, all of which I appreciate....but I really want to pull together a comprehensive list of the active posters n this site.

What do you thin, Patricia?
So pertinent and elegiac. I feel as though I'm at the bedside, holding the impossibly dear hand of someone who is leaving, fading fast. How will I find you all again?
Your post reminds me of a poem I used to know - the lines which remained in my mind translate roughly as:
"At the end all that remains
Is but a pleasant echo - "
We should all try to live by that - thank you, Patricia.
~R
Has anyone told you lately what an amazing lady you are? Beautifull written.
~r
Will you publish "The Best of cartouche & O'Really?"
That *beautifully and I agree with Stim. I'd buy that in a hummingbird's heartbeat.
Well, sure, but there's a possible upside: the death of OS would make me stop blogging and get back to more productive pursuits.

And I would hope my last words recorded here would be representative of my purported ethos. Something stupid and mildy rude, couched in arch language. ;)
I like to think that when one door closes, another opens. Even if OS "dies" I'm sure something else will spring into life. Such is the force of life that as long as there are people who want to create, there will be a collective force of energy to sustain that creativity. As you so elegantly put it, we are "figments of our own imagination" and imagination is sustained by other imaginations. I'm a little sad only because I've just come to join this great community of creative, thinking people. But, keep writing and creating, everyone and in doing so, we will keep creating the space for ourselves.
I still think of myself as somewhat of a newcomer, and I was so shocked to be accepted so readily by many. I feel very blessed to be a part of OS. As Lezlie said, you all know me better than people I've known for 40 yrs. Thank you for a really good piece...sad but good. -R-
If anyone wants to find me, I blog at wordpress and posted that address on my OS site from day one.

I appreciate this post. It was a shock and an ugly one to have my former 275 member blogging community -- True/Slant -- shut down quickly after it was sold to Forbes in May 2010. We had all been paid, some of us quite well, for our work but the "value" we built worked well to get three of its managers FT jobs and about five bloggers were kept. The rest of us? Tossed away, just like that.

Highly instructive.

The very day I learned they were shutting T/S (we all blogged under our real names) I friended about 30 of them on Facebook and, even six months later, those friendships are still thriving...
This is a terrific and thoughtful take on things, cartouche. The death and legacy analogies are spot on.
Wise words. A tonic, even, perhaps.Is this Hospice Care for the time being? Or is it a new lease on life, a reprieve before dark?
Guess I'd like to hope we were elegant the last few weeks of our journey together here.
Rated
"... And in the end, the love you take
is equal to the love you make..."
Last Words And Testament
I, mhold, being of sound mind and busy body hereby leave my wish that certain OS writers will publish in the real world, meet with success and be read with admiration for the next 72 generations. May their books be taken off of shelves, read, recommended, passed on and cherished by the human beings who will inherit the earth.
I'm so zen about this. Not saving one blog. If it disappears tomorrow, oh well.

Om.
All good things must come to an end
"Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold."-Yeats

To dust we all shall return, though I will miss everyone.
profound, very profound. r
Very wise words--it's easy to get so comfortable here that we forget we can't "un-say" anything unwise we write. Thanks for the gentle reminder!
Thank you for the reminder that all things are transitory, and must be appreciated when they are available. That is such a hard lesson to learn - I don't know that anyone ever learns it entirely, but it is good to try.
Not much to add to your estute observations. I would surely hate to see it happen, but OS may go the way of the wooden nickel and the Titanic. I say, "Move the deck chairs and let the band play on!"
Although I know this is about OS, it can certainly be extrapolated to life at large. Today, Elizabeth Edwards' "people" released a statement about her tragically imminent death. She wrote on her FB page about all of our days being numbered, and so they are.

I haven't been here very long (does one month count?) but I have waded into the writing here enough to know two things: 1) there are folks here with a real gift for language and meaning, and 2) there is no other place like it.

Thank you, Cartouche, for this, because we never know if our last words are the ones we will be remembered by, and, if so, let them be the best ones.

Sniffle. Sob.
So profound, so well-written. Hope it's fiction but of course it may very well be truth. Either way, it deserves an "R.", a million times over.
Does anyone have a kleenex? And Larry, your jockstrap is still on your head...silly goose:)

This was a beautiful and well said piece. Thank you for your words and your perspective.
Wow! This is deep. Never really thought of it that way. Maybe I thought that once I'm famous and rich my millions of fans would care what I wrote on OS, but I never considered it my time capsule or legacy. I like the way you think. It's deep and confusing! Rated!