Big thought just hit me. I kinda have trouble writing for the blog. How come? dunno, dunno, dunno, then it hit: I had no idea who I was writing to. That's it! Also why advice column is such an excellent format for me: I know who I am writing to!

Try it. Writing letters! I was doing it this morning. There were things that had to be said to specific people and so the writing became focused and personal and clear.

So i thought: OK, for the blog, I'll write to somebody. what name? I like the name "Julie." I dunno why. I had the name "Julie" in my head. Like, "Dear Julie." Maybe the name will change. Maybe sometimes it will be "Betty" or "Fred." Any name. Just a name. nobody in my family. important somehow: no family: But for now it's julie. OK. So when I want to write I will just write to julie. I have lots of things I want to write to julie. what is going on with me and why, so forth, no worries. in a nutshell: a posited being that gets it.

oh, i had a couple of other realizations too. i'll just put them in there too.

oh, and this: Jesus holy mother of God the Tuesday night workshops begin tomorrow and I need to make some phone calls!