I was recently exchanging some emails with someone that I have never met in real life. They were talking about their love of music and said that a group that I liked played the first song on their "Everything will be OK" playlist.

I decided to make a playlist like that… Read full post »

My freshman year in college was a year of transformation. I started out as a math major, but  through a mixture of depression and flu had to drop 2nd semester calculus to avoid what would have been my only failed class in my lifetime--this after I had 103% on 1st semester… Read full post »

My wife called this morning to tell me that she put our dog to sleep yesterday. She told me on Sunday that she might do it this week. I encouraged her to check with the vet for other options, but we both knew that this would come sometime in the next… Read full post »

As you can tell from my recent posts, this week started out at a really low place for me. I am amazed at how the week turned out.

My friends--both old and squeaky new--rallied around me in a way that I don't think I have ever known before. I actually had… Read full post »

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?

Jamie Simpson. A senior that went to my church youth group. I was a sophomore. She asked me. I wasn't that into her and I didn't think that she liked me except as friends. I was wrong. I broke things off afterward because I… Read full post »

I likely said good bye to my father-in-law yesterday. It was staggering. He and I talked alone for about 30 minutes. It was all that he could endure before he was exhausted.

At the time of the last post, My To-Be-Ex didn't want me to come over to see them. She… Read full post »

My father in law is dying of cancer. he is in a ton of pain and is slipping into a coma. he isn't expected to last even 3 weeks. I don't even know if I can go visit him. He is one of the best men that I know of, and… Read full post »

A friend challenged me to use this lonely time of my life to discover the man that I want to be and to become that man.

At first I was dumbfounded at this suggestion. I have always been highly introspective, "self aware" and conformable with my strengths and weaknesses. But the… Read full post »

It is a strange, strange world when the thing I love doing the most is dancing. 

• dancing involves coordination. I have none
• dancing involves social contact. I have had little for years and am very shy.
• dancing involves eye-to-eye contact: something that makes me nervous--I have always been shy
… Read full post »

Today was my best yoga practice ever. I think I say that after every yoga practice though.

 I have only done a yoga class twice since I moved to Seattle in May. I have really missed it. It was obvious that I was out of practice. My shoulders and biceps were… Read full post »

UPDATE: I forgot a very important point. (new #3) 

This has been one of the hardest things to that I have every attempted to write. I wasn't at a place where I could write this before the last couple of weeks. I actually took today off of work to give me… Read full post »

Yesterday, I went to the gym to work out with my personal trainer, Lori. She and her husband own one of two gyms in my very small town. I picked her gym because the other one had too much stuff in too small of a space, and because her gym had… Read full post »

I spent the last weekend at Wintergrass. This is a bluegrass festival (indoors thankfully) in Tacoma Washington. This year, they had a lot of edge bands. Bands that have bluegrass influences, but could by no stretch of the imagine be called traditional bluegrass. The Paperboys, Scythian, Ho… Read full post »

I am not a good listener. Oh, I hear everything, and I even remember and process and analyze it for later, but often fail at really listening. At sitting back and letting the conversation go where it will go. At letting my friends be as vulnerable in the conversation as I… Read full post »