My father in law is dying of cancer. he is in a ton of pain and is slipping into a coma. he isn't expected to last even 3 weeks. I don't even know if I can go visit him. He is one of the best men that I know of, and has been such an inspiration to me. I love him so much. I am so sorry that I have been such a disappointment to him. I stayed with Kristin for as long as I could, but I am sorry that our rift has hurt him so badly.
I can't stop crying and I don't have anyone to cry with. I am so sorry that all of this is happening to her at the same time. I did my best (what hollow words).


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I am so sorry for you. I don't know what you're going through. I pray that your ex has a strong, supportive community. You need community too.
I know you've let go of religion and I'm not advocating it. But sometimes it helps to pray or meditate or go for a long bike ride and listen to nature.
Sending strong hugs.
you are in so much pain
i am sorry