the sneaking was the best and the worst part
waking and leaving before light, already jonesing
the family safe and warm, sleeping still, not knowing
me outside in the driveway
next to the neighbors house, fumbling
to scrape together a hit, shaking
and sick to the stomach, then better
as soon as I lit and drew it in
but paranoid that someone saw me, suddenly
too wired to back out calmly
headlights garish bright, pounding glare filled my eyes
gritting and clenching, I pulled it together
to force my truck to back out slowly
as I headed out
towards a day like all the others
the sneaking was the best and the worst part
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"As I headed out towards a day like all the others"
Scary to think about.
Rated.
trilogy - on and off again for 20 years. two runs went everyday for two years plus each. scary? you've no idea. it's actually what I came to OS to write about, but haven't even managed a start yet. this is the first toe dip in the deep end of that pool. Thanks for all your support. :)
MP - keep it a long time ago, eh? Me too!
Scylla - true writing is your forte, I have been over to your place. That means a lot coming from you. Thanks, man.
I came to OS to write about my addiction to sugar. I learned so much about myself as I inspected the details and bounced my stories off others with similar problems. I hope you continue to explore this. It may help another person who you don't even know yet.
Bill E. - Me too. Not having to try to remember is one of the best parts of the serenity.
Jerry - You are one of the BEST commenters on this site. Always detailed, thoughtful analysis in each comment. Honored to have you here, sir.