Churchgoing Agnostic

Churchgoing Agnostic
Location
USA
Birthday
July 15
Bio
Curious African-American male seeking truth, rethinking Jesus and questioning "God" while living in the Bible Belt.

MY RECENT POSTS

OCTOBER 21, 2009 2:33PM

How I understand "faith"

I consider myself to be a fairly open-minded individual who is willing to offer a listening ear to anyone on matters of faith and philosophy. But with that said, I am primarily focused on taking thoughtful action in the “here-and-now” to nurture and protect life in the “here-and-nowRead full post »

JUNE 13, 2009 12:05PM

We had to separate

Right now, we are temporarily separated. I needed some space. I still spend a lot of time thinking about the things she’s taught me and I might occasionally check on her from time to time, but we don’t spend time together like we used to. And lately I haven't felt the… Read full post »

JUNE 11, 2009 6:22PM

Some "Folk" Music that Moved Me

joni 

I was restlessly searching through the iTunes music database when I stumbled across one of the most moving and majestic songs I’ve heard in quite a while. It is a song written and performed by Joni Mitchell called “Woodstock” from her 1970 album, Ladies of the CanyRead full post »
JUNE 5, 2009 3:19PM

Born that way?

Chromosomes 

 

Part 1:

A few weeks ago, after coordinating a news conference in the lobby of a local hospital, I had a peculiar interaction with a grandmother whose daughter gave birth on Mother’s Day. This grandmother was a friendly and soft-spoken middle-aged African-American woman with/… Read full post »
MAY 27, 2009 10:52AM

Who have you encountered?

Right now, out here in the world we consider “real,” two thoughtful and concerned individuals from polar views about the nature of reality are transcending the merely transactional exchanges of our commercial culture and are participating in a mutually transformative and paradigm-shifting… Read full post »

rosary 

All the recent news surrounding Catholicism and President Obama’s visit to Notre Dame brought to mind some of my own fond memories of Catholicism. I’m more of a humanist now, but at one point in my early childhood, I wanted to be a Catholic. Badly.
 

Looking back now, it s
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MARCH 27, 2009 6:02PM

Testimonies

 testify

As you may know, I don’t believe in the popular, biblical portrayals of a personal God who communicates with human beings and intervenes on their behalf, but I still attend weekly worship services at a primarily African-American Missionary Baptist church with my loving wife- who iRead full post »

A brief departure from my regular subject matter... 

Yesterday, I was at a restaurant and saw a young person that looked just like I did when I was a teenager. It was eerie. I mean he could have been my twin. Nearly identical.

My friends who were with me also noted… Read full post »

From an undisclosed location in cyberspace...


 

Churchgoing Agnostic: Well James, let me start by saying that- based upon your posts, comments and ideas- I truly consider yours to be a fascinating mind, and I feel inadequate when it comes to asking such questions- knowing that they can… Read full post »

Will Durant

 Will Durant (1885-1981)

 

Around this time last year, I had a private e-mail correspondence with Mary Jean Irion, a now eighty-something poet and author of the 1968 book, From the Ashes of Christianity (a little-known text that I just so happened to come across while I was in semin/… Read full post »

Zora Neale Hurston 

Zora Neale Hurston (1891-1960)


A few months ago, I picked up a copy of African-American Humanism: An Anthology (1991) edited by Norm R. Allen Jr. It is a fascinating collection of essays and works written by some famous (and some lesser-known) Black humanists, rationalists and free/…

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FEBRUARY 17, 2009 5:24PM

Poem: Dare I Ask?

Dare I ask…
…when I don’t expect an answer?

But sometimes...sometimes...
asking and knocking leads to unlocking
So I dare.

Here I am, Lord.
A heretical human engaged in honest prayer

Are you a divine creative essence
or are you a created being?
Are you the ageless mystery born of myth?
Or… Read full post »

FEBRUARY 11, 2009 3:39PM

Using Jesus as a Guiding Model

jesus washing feet 

In contemplating the most accurate way to describe my own religious affiliation (should I be asked by fellow churchgoers), I have given long thought to one my good friend's approaches of responding according to the primary religious model and/or framework that has shaped one's outlook oRead full post »

Editor’s Pick
JANUARY 29, 2009 3:53PM

How did you "come out?"

I’m "stepping out on faith" here, but is there anyone out there who could offer some helpful advice and suggestions for “coming out?”

I am a “Jesus-admiring, agnostic humanist” who has long agonized over the idea of announcing my philosophical position to my Ch… Read full post »

ACT 1

Scene 3

[The phone conversation continues between the devoted Christian wife and the secretly agnostic husband...]

WIFE:
“I’m so glad to hear you opening up more.” 

HUSBAND:
“Well…you know…it’s just…I take the idea of God seriously and I realRead full post »

ACT I 

Scene 2:
In the car, on the way to work on a chilly morning, 9:07 a.m.
A discussion from the previous night is revisited during an in-depth telephone conversation between a devout Christian wife and her secretly agnostic husband. The husband calls the wife on her phone after droppingRead full post »
ACT I 

SCENE 1:

The master bedroom, 11:53 p.m. on a sub-zero, Midwestern night.

A devout Christian wife and her secretly agnostic husband engage in the type of late-night pillow talk in which one spouse can easily implicate themselves or inadvertently insult their partner because only one of themRead full post »

JANUARY 16, 2009 10:23AM

Letter to God # 3: Founders & Followers

founders    

Dear God, 

It seems that, throughout human history, certain individuals have experienced what they consider to be special epiphanies about the nature of reality and- in their enthusiasm- have felt compelled to share their insights with other people. These individua… Read full post »

Dear God, 

Call it blasphemous, but I am unable and unwilling to cast aside my growing suspicions that those lofty claims that so many pious believers, prophets, shamans, ministers, preachers and evangelists declare about You and Your will actually reveal more about their minds than Yours. 

C… Read full post »

JANUARY 14, 2009 4:18PM

Demons...Really?

demons 

Have you ever heard bizarre, nonhuman screams coming from the other room? Have you ever had that eerie feeling in the waking hours where your mind is alert but a heavy pressure on your body prevents you from moving? Have you ever felt a haunting presence closing in on youRead full post »

JANUARY 14, 2009 11:03AM

Letter to God # 1: Prayer

prayer  

Dear God, 

Pardon me for the ramblings, but I thought it best to reach out to You through the form of a letter since I seem to think best when I am writing. As You may know, It’s been nearly two years since we last talked; and when I say talk,… Read full post »

Chances are I probably won’t make it to Heaven with you. You see, I’m not sure I believe in it anymore, but I sure as hell hope it exists.

While I like the thought of Heaven, I’ve personally never been too attached to the idea. I mean that to say, the/… Read full post »
JANUARY 9, 2009 10:46AM

Regret and Resolution

As many of us celebrate the New Year, we mark a transition from one period to another. This is the time of year when countless individuals declare their commitment to keep resolutions that they hope will improve the quality of their lives.

This is a time of reflection when we ask… Read full post »

The idea of a personal, loving, intervening, responsive, and self-revealing God has never seemed farther for me than it is right now. It is becoming less and less-convincing for me.

Over the past few years, Christianity (as is often preached) has become almost impossible for me to believe. I can unde… Read full post »