Churchgoing Agnostic
- Location
- USA
- Birthday
- July 15
- Bio
- Curious African-American male seeking truth, rethinking Jesus and questioning "God" while living in the Bible Belt.
MY RECENT POSTS
- How I understand "faith"
October 21, 2009 02:30PM - We had to separate
June 13, 2009 12:04PM - Some "Folk" Music that Moved
Me
June 11, 2009 06:20PM - Born that way?
June 05, 2009 02:23PM - Who have you encountered?
May 27, 2009 10:52AM
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “Lamar,
Thank you for
your message. If by
"universalism" you
are
referri…”
December 10, 2010 12:39AM - “Hey Dave.
Very
insightful post! I enjoyed
this and it really resonated
with
me. T…”
August 28, 2010 05:57PM - “Wow,
Well put
Hawley! You capture the
essence of it right
there.”
November 30, 2009 05:05PM - “Great post, Joe! Very
informative and helpful. I
totally
resonated with your
word…”
November 25, 2009 01:24PM - “Ben Sen,
As with
most of my posts, I am
thinking out loud and talking
to
myself.…”
November 24, 2009 09:07AM
Churchgoing Agnostic's Links
- Contact Me
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- My Poems
- Dare I Ask?
- My Interviews
- Churchgoing Agnostic meets James Emmerling
- JME and Churchg Agnost take on God Himself
- My Writings
- How Catholicism shaped my Humanism
- Testimonies
- What would you say to your younger self?
- Will Durant on Religion and Human Longing
- The Free Thoughts of Zora Neale Hurston
- Using Jesus as a Guiding Model
- How did you "come out"? / Heretic in the Pews
- Coming Out as an Agnostic (pt. 3): The Disappointment
- Coming Out as an Agnostic (pt. 2): Opening Up Slowly
- Coming Out as an Agnostic (pt. 1): Awkward Pillow Talk
- Letter to God # 3: Founders & Followers
- Letter to God # 2: Studying God, Studying Humankind
- Demons...Really?
- Letter to God # 1: Prayer
- Heaven? I sure as Hell hope it exists
- Regret and Resolution
- I'm a weak evangelist trying to be a better human
How I understand "faith"
I consider myself to be a fairly open-minded individual who is willing to offer a listening ear to anyone on matters of faith and philosophy. But with that said, I am primarily focused on taking thoughtful action in the “here-and-now” to nurture and protect life in the “here-and-now… Read full post »
We had to separate
Right now, we are temporarily separated. I needed some space. I still spend a lot of time thinking about the things she’s taught me and I might occasionally check on her from time to time, but we don’t spend time together like we used to. And lately I haven't felt the… Read full post »
Some "Folk" Music that Moved Me
I was restlessly searching through the iTunes music database when I stumbled across one of the most moving and majestic songs I’ve heard in quite a while. It is a song written and performed by Joni Mitchell called “Woodstock” from her 1970 album, Ladies of the Cany… Read full post »
Born that way?
Part 1:
A few weeks ago, after coordinating a news conference in the lobby of a local hospital, I had a peculiar interaction with a grandmother whose daughter gave birth on Mother’s Day. This grandmother was a friendly and soft-spoken middle-aged African-American woman with/… Read full post »
Who have you encountered?
How Catholicism shaped my humanism
All the recent news surrounding Catholicism and President
Obama’s visit to Notre Dame brought to mind some of my own
fond memories of Catholicism. I’m more of a humanist now, but
at one point in my early childhood, I wanted to be a Catholic.
Badly.
Looking back now, it
s… Read full post »
Testimonies

As you may know, I don’t believe in the popular, biblical portrayals of a personal God who communicates with human beings and intervenes on their behalf, but I still attend weekly worship services at a primarily African-American Missionary Baptist church with my loving wife- who i… Read full post »
What would you say to your younger self?
A brief departure from my regular subject matter...
Yesterday, I was at a restaurant and saw a young person that looked just like I did when I was a teenager. It was eerie. I mean he could have been my twin. Nearly identical.
My friends who were with me also noted… Read full post »
INTERVIEW: Churchgoing Agnostic meets James Emmerling
From an undisclosed location in
cyberspace...
Churchgoing Agnostic: Well James, let me start by saying that- based upon your posts, comments and ideas- I truly consider yours to be a fascinating mind, and I feel inadequate when it comes to asking such questions- knowing that they can… Read full post »
Will Durant on Religion and Human Longing

Will Durant (1885-1981)
Around this time last year, I had a private e-mail correspondence with Mary Jean Irion, a now eighty-something poet and author of the 1968 book, From the Ashes of Christianity (a little-known text that I just so happened to come across while I was in semin/… Read full post »
The Free Thoughts of Zora Neale Hurston
Zora Neale Hurston
(1891-1960)
A few months ago, I picked up a copy of African-American Humanism: An Anthology (1991) edited by Norm R. Allen Jr. It is a fascinating collection of essays and works written by some famous (and some lesser-known) Black humanists, rationalists and free/…
Poem: Dare I Ask?
Dare I ask…
…when I don’t expect an answer?
But sometimes...sometimes...
asking and knocking leads to unlocking
So I dare.
Here I am, Lord.
A heretical human engaged in honest prayer
Are you a divine creative essence
or are you a created being?
Are you the ageless mystery born of myth?
Or… Read full post »
Using Jesus as a Guiding Model
In contemplating the most accurate way to describe my own religious affiliation (should I be asked by fellow churchgoers), I have given long thought to one my good friend's approaches of responding according to the primary religious model and/or framework that has shaped one's outlook o… Read full post »
I am a “Jesus-admiring, agnostic humanist” who has long agonized over the idea of announcing my philosophical position to my Ch… Read full post »
Coming Out as an Agnostic (pt. 3): The disappointment
ACT 1
Scene 3
[The
phone conversation continues between the devoted Christian wife and
the secretly agnostic husband...]
WIFE:
“I’m so glad to
hear you opening up more.”
HUSBAND:
“Well…you
know…it’s just…I take the idea of God seriously
and I real… Read full post »
Coming Out as an Agnostic (Pt. 2): Opening Up Slowly
Scene 2:
In the car, on the way to work on a chilly morning, 9:07 a.m.
A discussion from the previous night is revisited during an in-depth telephone conversation between a devout Christian wife and her secretly agnostic husband. The husband calls the wife on her phone after dropping… Read full post »
Coming Out as an Agnostic (pt. 1): Awkward Pillow Talk
SCENE 1:
The master bedroom, 11:53 p.m. on a sub-zero, Midwestern night.
A devout Christian wife and her secretly agnostic husband engage in the type of late-night pillow talk in which one spouse can easily implicate themselves or inadvertently insult their partner because only one of them… Read full post »
Letter to God # 3: Founders & Followers
Dear God,
It seems that, throughout human history, certain individuals have
experienced what they consider to be special epiphanies about the
nature of reality and- in their enthusiasm- have felt compelled to
share their insights with other people. These individua… Read full post »
Letter to God # 2: Studying God, Studying Humankind
Dear God,
Call it blasphemous, but I am unable and unwilling to cast aside my
growing suspicions that those lofty claims that so many pious
believers, prophets, shamans, ministers, preachers and evangelists
declare about You and Your will actually reveal more about their
minds than Yours.
C… Read full post »
Demons...Really?
Have you ever heard bizarre, nonhuman screams coming from the other room? Have you ever had that eerie feeling in the waking hours where your mind is alert but a heavy pressure on your body prevents you from moving? Have you ever felt a haunting presence closing in on you… Read full post »
Letter to God # 1: Prayer
Dear God,
Pardon me for the ramblings, but I thought it best to reach out to
You through the form of a letter since I seem to think best when I
am writing. As You may know, It’s been nearly two years since
we last talked; and when I say talk,… Read full post »
Heaven? I sure as hell hope it exists.
While I like the thought of Heaven, I’ve personally never been too attached to the idea. I mean that to say, the/… Read full post »
Regret and Resolution
As many of us celebrate the New Year, we mark a transition from
one period to another. This is the time of year when countless
individuals declare their commitment to keep resolutions that they
hope will improve the quality of their lives.
This is a time of reflection when we ask… Read full post »
I'm a weak evangelist trying to be a better human
The idea of a personal, loving, intervening, responsive, and self-revealing God has never seemed farther for me than it is right now. It is becoming less and less-convincing for me.
Over the past few years, Christianity (as is often preached) has become almost impossible for me to believe. I can unde… Read full post »
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