consonantsandvowels

JULY 13, 2009 11:59AM

The Language for Loss

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What is inarticulable remains so.

Now I am told things differently
and everything speaks of you.
I have learned a new tongue
and tell you grief.

Yes, everything speaks of you,
but not for you -
sanctimonious Sunday gossip,
it is not to be trusted.

But under my own breath, hidden
and bereft of formal insult,
a mean colloquial pain
hisses at me.

 

 

 

 

 

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The language is different. The cadence demands a changed tempo. Words that fall lightly under different circumstances have a hollow sound if allowed to simply fall from your lips. It is not a language that I have learned, although I have stumbled over it clumsily on occasion. Your post suggests things left unsaid... but it touches me.
Trauma is trauma precisely because it is inarticulable; I hope you continue to search out new ways to frame this loss, eroding its power to cause you pain.
"a mean colloquial pain
hisses at me. "

It takes time sometimes to parse out the when where why who and how.
As always, your work reminds me of my favorite poets, and I can’t help but think of Boland’s “What We Lost” once again. This piece also makes me think of Marilyn (the photography diatribe one :-) whose work in medicine and humanities has led her to use poetry—both writing and reading—as an avenue of healing those struggling with pain, grief, and illness, as well as a tool for teaching doctors and medical professionals empathy toward their patients.

Finally, I’m again compelled to cite T.S. Eliot, as this piece is evocative of his reflections on language throughout “Four Quartets,” so I’ll paste in some excerpts below.

—Melissa

Words strain,
Crack and sometimes break, under the burden,
Under the tension, slip, slide, perish,
Decay with imprecision, will not stay in place,
Will not stay still.

. . .

Leaving one still with the intolerable wrestle
With words and meanings.

. . .

Trying to use words, and every attempt
Is a wholly new start, and a different kind of failure
Because one has only learnt to get the better of words
For the thing one no longer has to say, or the way in which
One is no longer disposed to say it. And so each venture
Is a new beginning, a raid on the inarticulate
With shabby equipment always deteriorating
In the general mess of imprecision of feeling,
Undisciplined squads of emotion.

. . .

For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
Read and appreciated...
oh, this language is...perfect. xox

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