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OCTOBER 20, 2014 4:55PM

our day in nyc.

so we went to the city yesterday.  somehow, i read the train table wrong, and the train i thought we were headed to, did not exist.  so we had to rush, no breakfast on the way.  got there 20 minutes early, so we COULD have had breakfast.  the son did not… Read full post »

OCTOBER 17, 2014 7:17PM

riding in cars with boys

my son first went out with a group of friends, in a car, about three years ago or so.  it was noted on here, at the time, as a momentous occasion.

since The Crisis he has been with me virtually every minute.  very little with his friends, partly bc of his… Read full post »

OCTOBER 16, 2014 10:18PM

can you stand more good news?

i woke up this morning at 5:50, and checked my email before anything else, as is my wont.  there was a response to a note i sent a few days ago.

i had written to a woman who is planning a festival devoted to an author i love with all my… Read full post »

OCTOBER 15, 2014 11:29PM

taking my son to the city on saturday

we have to go to a t-mobile store to get him a new phone.

i was thinking we could use it as a chance for him to learn how to navigate nyc.

an important skill.  i have more than one friend who wont go to the city, bc they dont know… Read full post »

ok, so you know they are trying to terrorize us with the ebola.

saying now the death rate from it has increased to 70%.

 

well holy shit.  just looked up the CDC numbers on the Swine, to compare what they claimed that percentage to be, because man they terrorized us… Read full post »

do you know the fappening?  the hackers who have released hundreds of photos of starlets in their altogether, after hacking The Cloud?

now listen, i dont care who has a naked picture.  i dont care who has 1000 naked pictures.

i dont care who "slept with" someone to get a job… Read full post »

i had up a hideous post.  a terrible and very angry rant.  then teddy reminded me that EVERYone feels exactly as i feel right now, SOMETIMES, which i already knew but had forgotten.

so that allowed to me to feel less alone, and less like things are final, and to put… Read full post »

OCTOBER 10, 2014 3:42PM

is it something in the water?

child stars who performed on kid's shows in the past decade or so....

amanda bynes.  poor girl is totes losing it.

miley - off the rails, i dont care who wants to defend it.  if i had a daughter who acted that way, i'd get her help.

the beautiful selena gomez,… Read full post »

cause really, i am mainly interested in myself, my family which i write about when writing about myself,

and then the bigger pictures.

private security company 

another black kid dead.

off duty cop, "sitting in a car working security for a private company"

whats wrong with that sentence?

what pr… Read full post »

oh god its been such such such a good week.

today i got the job that i interviewed for on monday.  pays a living wage, and its from home, so i can have some time around my son, instead of being gone every second.  wont have to drive anywhere three days… Read full post »

ok, today after work, i went into the office and said to my boss to give me a hug, cause i wont see him again anytime soon.  he said i will see you next week.  i said umm.  he said i didnt accept your resignation.  then he said, and this isnt… Read full post »

OCTOBER 6, 2014 8:59PM

thank you jesus, thank you lord.

lord help me jesus, ive wasted it so help me jesus, i know what i am
 
i picked this version because i wanted to hear the story.
 
maybe lord, i can show someone else what ive been through myself, on my way back to you.
 

and adorable hands and hands with oh, that spot by the thumb that men have, it drives me crazy.  his drove me crazy since the first time i ever met him, and he used his hands, so much.  i wrote a poem about watching him talk, and people thought it was… Read full post »

OCTOBER 5, 2014 10:01AM

ennui

he called her hands adorable and i cant stop thinking about all that is held in that simple statement.

how long could i survive without a grocery store to gather my food for me?

how is it that i hate the winter, but if you show me two pictures of the… Read full post »

he aint really my beloved, except in the sense that i lurv him ever so.  he said he is going to shave his beard.  i said please do not do that to me.  i havent seen your jaw, but i bet its a fine one.  he denied it, and said he… Read full post »

OCTOBER 3, 2014 7:36AM

getting my hair colored

today at 3.  a year or so ago, when i started this new phase in my life, i got it dyed the exact same color as it is in real life, as it is right this second on the parts you can see that are grown out - its essentially black.… Read full post »

OCTOBER 1, 2014 9:13PM

your love is gruel

it's thin and watery, giving little nourishment

likely to run out at any moment

never satisfying the hunger

meant only to keep one alive in the most basic sense 

my love is a fucking feast

its obscene, my love

its lasagna and manicotti rolled into one

hearty oatmeal with butter, maple… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 30, 2014 10:53PM

sometimes a great notion

talked to my friend tonight, my dear caustic poet friend.  he talks in poetry more than anyone else i have ever known, AND makes me laugh a lot, AND can be caustic as hell.  those are not common poet traits.

we got to talking about Ken Kesey's Sometimes a Great Notion.… Read full post »

kit did an open call.

to write about five things we've learned in the past month.

hmm.  i have had quite a month.

i have learned that you can meet bright young men in the probation office waiting room.  met a young man planning a spoken word event, with the theme… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 26, 2014 11:15PM

ah, fuck. i just gave notice. two weeks.

at my job number one, that i love so much, with the co-worker i frivolously love.

little sick to my stomach.

the boss gave me one day next week.  he gave the guy who left the key cabinet unlocked the last day he worked?  the cabinet with all the keys to… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 25, 2014 10:52PM

i'd give up the internet to live there

a wanderlust has overtaken me, a nearly primal or primeval or primordial desire to travel.  how so primordial?  well, didnt those fish wanna walk so bad, they grew feet?  saw the hundred foot journey tonight.  takes place in the south of france.

thats where i would give up the int… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 23, 2014 10:24AM

i didnt even have to blow anybody!!

once, when i was going to see radiohead, and it was a small place, and i fantasized i might get to meet thom yorke, i asked the ex what i should say if i meet him.  he said "two words.  blow.  job."  which made me laugh really hard.  he has been… Read full post »

i had up a terrible rant that barely even touched how frustrated i really feel.

instead i am going to focus on the good.  and right now, thank you world and god and the universe and the fact he stole a car and was honest about how he felt, so that… Read full post »

so, working a six day week this week.

exHAUSTED.  you know, i havent worked full time, let alone more than full time, since my son was born.

this week i will have something like 50 hours.  i dont know exactly.

its freaking killing me, even tho i love BOTH of my… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 17, 2014 9:08PM

oy. gevult. edited.

my son has a great job, at a store where he gets a free chocolate shake every time he works.

with the finest person i have ever known.  no lie.  she is like me at my very best.  except she is like that all the time.  she is amazing in her… Read full post »