lets try this one more time, because i see i hurt bobbot's feelings, and of all the people on here i would never want to hurt, he is right up there at the top of the list.
i will start off by saying that my new policy of having standards means this: i have to let go of how people react to this. some of you wont accept my apology. some of you either will not understand bc you dont want to, and others of you simply cant. i will keep my excuses to a minimum, and instead stick with "the facts as i see them."
1. i am and have always been - except for a 12 hour stint the other day - my own real self. as matt said, sometimes too much so. so anyone i have friended, ever, on here, i have friended as the real me, and no one else.
2. the "researcher getting her doctorate" was a FAKE PERSONA WHO LIVED FOR TWELVE HOURS ON OPEN SALON WHICH INCLUDED 8 HOURS WHEN MOST OF YOU WERE SLEEPING.
3. i created that false persona because i was hurt at all WHO I WOULD CALL FRIEND who hadnt stood up for me against the maniac joisey shore. i do not know joisey shore, and neither do you. you have NOTHING to go on with him, except his pretty exceptional "scumbaggishness."
4. unlike other people on OS who dont like each other - this is not a matter of dislike or disagreement. this was LONG -TERM, through MULTIPLE screen names of his, that did NOTHING AT ALL except harass me and then diary, and who ULTIMATELY pulled MY SON into the mix.
5. and no one stood up, when he started talking about my son going to prison. now, those of you over at facebook making little statements about how i want to be defended against every detractor - this wasnt a detractor. this was an insane, utterly unknown, stalker. its two different things.
6. previous to my research post, i said in plain english OVER AND OVER AND OVER that we DO KNOW EACH OTHER. what i did NOT do, apparently, is make clear that it REALLY hurt my feelings that people were pretending not to know me, and so "were unable" to make a decision on where things stood with the maniac.
7. so i decided to show people they DID know me - because the ONLY reason to be hurt by my pretend deception, was if you felt you knew me.
i pause here to see if that can sink in. it was not for fun - anybody knows i would not have closed my old account FOR FUN. i love this place, which is why i tried to persevere so long in the face of him getting uglier and uglier.
8. as soon as i saw that people were getting hurt by my supposed deception, i clarified it as fast as i could humanly write. because, as i said in the very beginning of the clarification, it felt YUCKY to be deceiving people i care about. it took a LITTLE OVER AN HOUR between discovering people actually cared, and clarifying.
now, i know this is hard for some of you to grasp - but that is NOT the action of someone who is playing a game or enjoying herself. that is someone who realized she had made a mistake, and fixed it, as fast as she could.
now, i cant control anyone's reaction to this, but to anyone who misunderstood and thought i actually HAD been deceitful for years, i am sorry. to bobbot especially.
now, i am closing comments again. why? cause i know there are those who will still be livid. maybe they are genuinely so hurt that they are experiencing grave anger. maybe they like to be outraged. maybe they STILL dont understand what i did.
i can let go of people's responses to this (those of you who still choose to ditch me, i cant stop you and wouldnt want to), but i dont feel the need to take any more abuse over what essentially amounted to me remedying what i had done as fast as i humanly could.
if this is full of too many excuses for you - again, sorry. hard line to draw between an explanation vs an excuse.
and my original premise stands - we are not screen names and avatars. we are people and friends and we know each other, and on here, as in real life, we should stand up for each other when we know someone is being wronged.
if that is somehow too fuzzy to grasp, if thats not a clear statement, i dont know how to make it clearer.