what to do what to do
watch tv? maybe at ten, when frasier is on. i loathe kelsey grammar almost as much as its possible to loathe someone you've never met (politicians win bigger), but i still like the show. i love the dad, especially. i always wish he had a bigger part.
read? i was reading U2 by U2, and really really enjoying it, a week ago. did you know they started in high school? there really IS no "before they were U2" except for being very small children. i have a story a friend wrote, but i am not in the mood. no magazines to read. i really need to get a subscription to vanity fair. whatever its flaws, its still my favorite. i could go read some matt taibbi blog, or michael moore. i could read some reviews of movies or books or blogs. or anything, really.
check ebay for a pale pink satin circle skirt i dreamt of last night, with realistic wildflowers handpainted around the hem? i have been doing that already today. it came to me in a dream last night, and i feel i must have it. i feel it strongly enough to try to learn to paint some realistic wildflowers, and to learn to sew, so i can make it myself. god it was pretty.
i could make something to eat, but i had lunch at my favorite restaurant today, and i am still not hungry. chicken, spaghetti, soup (and i got it from the bottom of the vat, i could tell. loaded with veggies and beans and ditalini), tea, and a whole loaf of bread! its a square loaf, meaning there are four crusty sides. i ate three of them. three sides, not three loaves.
eat more chocolate? i have really had enough chocolate. am sublimating while new boy is not around by eating chocolate, and i just cant take any more.
call somebody? who to call? already talked to new boy twice today, and sure to again before bedtime. i dont worry about calling ANYbody back but him. oh, i DO call people back besides him. i just dont worry about it, its not pressing, i will get to it tomorrow, easily enough.
clean the house? come now. its nighttime. no, no i wont do it.
put on pajamas and keep surfing the internet? take a nap till ten oclock? go to the bookstore? go get a hot dog? that makes me think of frank zappa - i eat a hot dog it taste real good yum yum good yum yum good, then i watch a movie from hollywood, yum yum good yum yum good.
go have a smoke? i could. and i even probably will. but it is COOOOOLD outside. i mean FRIGID.
read around on this site? of course, and oursalon too, thats a given. but its not as easy on the old computer as on a newer one. this sucker freezes up constantly.
turn everything off, turn off the overhead light, put on the lamp, and just lay around mooning over new boy? well, that one gives me longest pause. its in the running, definitely.
okay, maybe just a little peanut butter sandwich. with seeded red raspberry jam. and a nice glass of cold milk. okay. you're never not hungry enough to pass up on that. and if you toast the bread? just slightly, not as brown as regular, then wait a second to put on the peanut butter (otherwise it won't adhere), yeah. thats what i'll do.