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MAY 10, 2010 12:49PM

The Daemons Amongst Us

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In ancient Greece a daemon was  good or malevolent "supernatural beings between mortals and gods, such as inferior divinities and ghosts of dead heroes" 

 In Hawaii, they seem to be our Homeless and Addicted and Mentally ill. 

I was driving to work-out the other day [is that an oxymoron?] and saw in my peripheral vision a man dressed all in black, walking across some grass. He appeared to be one of the many, many methamphetamine addicts we have here in Hawaii. Nobody really looked at him and he looked at nobody; it was like watching someone from another dimension accidently cross my own.

There are a lot of homeless people here in Hawaii for a variety of reasons. Hawaii is one of the most expensive places to live in the U.S. We have a ferocious meth problem here. ["Don't even try it once!" warn the constant ads. But somehow, they all did.] The weather is always nice so people can live outside 365 days a year, unlike say, Chicago. We have three brand new homeless shelters that remain empty because they have rules that nobody wants to follow: No drugs. No alcohol. Nobody sleeps in them.

 So they live and sleep and shoot up and drink in an almost separate space than those of us working, driving kids to events, going to a movie. I have several homeless people I give money to. I don't care what they do with it. When my inner voice prods me to give, I give. Those particular people don't live in my periphery and seem to be living in the same place as I do. But to others they are invisible, I can see it in the faces in the cars around me.

They become active ghosts, a lot of them. We don't make eye contact because they might ask for money or swear at us or rage at us. We protect our children from them. They are so bored or mentally ill or high they talk constantly to invisible people who I guess live on a level not visible to the rest of us, though quite visible to the 21st century daemons. So there are layers around us at all times and sometimes we see those who pass by and sometimes we don't. It's a bit like Dante's Hell. With palm trees.

Daemon 

These ghosts took over the beaches. They took over the parks. Finally the local government had to do something because people from Chicago do not want to spend thousands of dollars on their one Hawaii vacation and not be able to go to a park or a beach or walk down the street without being accosted. Up went the homeless shelters that the homeless refuse to use. Sweeps of beaches and parks. New loitering and camping rules were instituted. The signs say: Park closed from 10:00pm - 6am. So there is a constant march of men and women, marching like a game of tropical musical chairs on the island. When the music stops they bed down in a new spot for the night. 

I watched my modern daemon dressed in black walking on the green grass. He looked like a charcoal sketch in motion, almost two dimensional. It made me believe in ghosts and space aliens that supposedly walk amongst us naive humans, living their own lives, watching us, unwatched themselves. He was like another swatch of paint on an oil painting of an average day surrounded by average people. Layered colors, black swatches. He marches to get his next fix. It is not out of the question that someday that could be me. There are no guarantees, only surprises. The light turns green and someone honks behind me.

 

 

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A very compelling insight into the "real" Hawaii...
Thought provoking--"It is not out of the question that someday that could be me. There are no guarantees, only surprises."-r
I am trying to lead a homeless ministry here. Yesterday we served at a soup kitchen (some there are homeless, some aren't). I had the sudden idea in church, which probably did not come from me, to get Mother's Day cards and blank cards for them to send if they chose. I really didn't have extra cash around for stamps with all I had to buy for the meal, but people serving with me said they would take them and mail them for anyone who filled one out. There were several people there who looked down and out---and one that I know sleeps in the woods and prostitutes herself--who made cards for their mothers (though I offered the blank ones for any person they wanted to send to, no one took me up on those). I wondered how long some of these mothers had gone without an acknowledgement, even if they lived near, of their contribution to a child's life. I thought that if I had a child, I could easily have one who becomes hooked on drugs and wanders far away from me, even if the geographical distance is only a few miles.

"He looked like a charcoal sketch in motion, almost two dimensional." sad, beautiful imagery throughout
Panhandlers drive me crazy, and there are lots of them in Los Angeles too, because of the warm climate. I was told once by a policeman speaking at our Neighborhood Watch meeting that many homeless don't take advantage of the city's programs, because they "prefer" begging on the streets. My impression is that the city requires participation in alcohol and drug abuse recovery programs to qualify for support. It's a very sad and complicated situation, one which has been around probably like forever. But modern society is now so complex that those who for whatever reasons can't or simply won't participate are more glaringly obvious, aggravating our own ambivalences.
Beautiful comments. Thank you.
Deb, it sounds very similar to the situation in Puerto Rico, the warm weather makes it easier to live out doors. There are panhandlers everywhere. We encountered some inside stores as we exited. It is sad.
well, some people don't fit in maybe, just don't look the part anyone can figure out, and then, over the rainbow.
A startling and humane post. Eye-opening, about Hawaii.

And the economy of prose here is a marvel. It's as is that taciturn, kind, but tough-minded neighbor opened up one day, and you discovered a friend. Remarkable Voice.
Some have eyes to see . . . it appears that you are one of them. I don't have any answers . . . but then, you didn't really ask a question . . . more of a studious observation from the inside and from the outside of the situation. Strong piece.
Odd that the e-mail sent back is from daemon.

Very interesting and very sad. I wish we were given a definitive answer to why they are on the street. Is the version Monsiur Chariot got the right one, or is there another explanation.
When you put such a scene in Hawaii- the incongruence makes it particularly hellish.
But, it's heartening to know that those who don't do drugs or drink can find some decent shelter.
We have no shelters here, but a growing homeless population. A few of the churches will open up a room if the temperature drops below 35. As one homeless person said, "You know, it's pretty cold outside when it's 36 too."
Horribly sad and beautifully written. _r

@DeliaBlack, I just want to say how touching it is to have given people a chance to send Mother's Day cards... Damn, that tugs at my heart.
glad you're looking around and sharing what you 'see' in paradise before leaving, next week(?) - well written.
We were amazed and saddened by the number of homeless people we saw living on the beaches when we were vacationing on Oahu a few years ago. Many fewer on Kauai and Hawaii though. What was worse was how many of them seemed to be native Hawaiians. That just seemed so wrong.
san francisco has so many of these daemons too although their lives seem more uncomfortable from mental illness than anything else. some see them, some don't. when I first moved here I couldn't believe how easily the business class and the homeless interacted in the financial district. compared to most cities at least these 'ghosts' are garrulous and hungry. A woman convinced me to buy her breakfast one day at Jack in the Box, and she insisted on telling the clerk that I was her "momma" although I think she was at least twice my age, and of a different race.
"So there is a constant march of men and women, marching like a game of tropical musical chairs on the island."

What to do, what to do? Meth is a scourge on our planet. Amazing writing.
A well-written post about the other side of paradise.
"I have several homeless people I give money to. I don't care what they do with it. When my inner voice prods me to give, I give." When I read this I very nearly stood up and cheered. I've been doing this for years--and I'm constantly criticized for it. I've been told (mostly by my conservative Christian friends) that I shouldn't give "them" money because they're just going to buy booze or drugs with it. I always reply that I don't care what they do with it--once it's out of my hands it's their responsibility. It's wonderful to read your words on this, Deborah.

Thank you for this portrait. It's so spare and gripping--and so sad, for everyone. I just wish I had some answers for what to do about situations like this. But the numbers of homeless folks are so overwhelming and the resources we have available so inadequate. I can only do a little tiny bit--but I do it whenever I can. And perhaps if everyone gave just a little to just one person now and then, maybe the problem would shrink a little. Maybe? D
Omygod Deborah, I think this is my favorite of all your many fine posts. I just loved the 'frame' and even more what was inside it. Just amazing writing. Do not tell us you did this in 10 minutes!

Now in the spirit of associating not just responding to posts I'll try and add this anecdote. In Cambrige MA a place you know well, the homeless got computers and a great teacher and they wrote their own stories. The paper that resulted was called "Spare Change" and those folks mostly--but surely not all blacks-- were more than visible and I noticed that their stories and photos made them so real, not ghosts and no "black swatches." Spare Change was their Open Salon. I will write about this whenever I have time, which is never these days. Brava. Wonderful language and important topic!
Ps: rated highly!
Powerful, Deborah! How did I miss this the other day?

It's a problem no one can figure out how to fix, because the people who comprise it are not going to participate in the solutions.
My future wife fled her soon to be ex and stayed at a shelter with her 3 kids. They had the whole place to themselves for 3 weeks b/c of the no drug and drinking rules.
this is a crime
these are people without care
and we are the ones that are all incarcerated