Dina Horwedel

Dina Horwedel
Location
Colorado, USA
Birthday
October 23
Bio
I spent the first 20 or so years of my life spelling my last name for teachers. I always knew that it was my turn for the roll-call when a teacher’s face would contort. My last name was not difficult to pronounce because it is a German moniker that I inherited from my father. My first and middle names came from my mother, who named me after a World War II Italian resistance fighter. I always felt like a square peg growing up in Ohio: huggy in a place where the staid German and English descendants didn’t show much affection; effervescent where most people were quiet; and loving a good party. My Italian family gatherings could be heard several miles away. I always thought I was weird because I was nothing like the people in my town who said Eyetalian instead of Italian; where they made grilled cheese sandwiches with Velveeta. My grandfather was teased as a boy for eating pizza, which was called “Dago food,” and we were outsiders in a town with no Catholic Church. I spent a summer in high school living in northern Europe. It seemed so familiar… threads of the Germanic culture that were woven into that of my hometown. But I never visited Italy. After I went to college, where for the first time I was exposed to many Eyetalian-Americans outside of my family. Later at a job as a journalist, I was surrounded by Eyetalian-Americans: laughter filled our offices, we lunched, invented, wrote, and dreamed together. After law school, I moved West, then overseas, working in Afghanistan, Africa, and Armenia, in communications and law. I used my overseas work as a launch pad for visiting other countries, and found myself in Italy. I wish I could say it was love at first sight. I fought it at first. I never saw the point of stiletto heels on cobblestones. The echoes of Vespas bounced off of ancient stone buildings like swarms of wasps. But over time Italy seduced me with its fecund culture and the simple mindfulness I felt as I sipped cappuccino or ate and ate and ate some more. For the first time I wasn’t mindlessly scurrying from task to task, but was seeing and tasting and living. I understand why my great-grandfather came to America. There was opportunity for his family during poor times. But after visiting Italy I realized I didn’t have to leave la dolce vita back in Italy. I am learning how to live the sweet life right here in the land of Velveeta.

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JANUARY 19, 2009 8:31PM

For Amos on Inauguration Eve

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Several years ago, Amos passed away from cancer. During the short time that I knew him, I learned a lot about racial issues in America. That's because he was from a mixed racial background, like our president-elect. Amos's father was white, his mother was black, and part Seminole. In those days, there was a whole vocabulary for racial blood quantum. Words like quadroon and octaroon denoted one-fourth black and one-eighth black. But to most whites back in those days, "one drop of black blood" made a person black. Amos's American Indian heritage was not even discussed. Amos's family moved from Georgia to the north because there were laws against miscegenation (mixed marriage) in the 1920s (and those laws stayed on the books until the Civil Rights movement in 1967, when the Supreme Court struck them down as unconstitutional in Loving v. Virginia).

Once the family arrived in Ohio, Amos and his brother and sister grew up outside of the Jim Crow south, and themselves leading very different lives from each other, not because of their divergent interests, but because of the color of their skin. Amos's sister Nelly was dark-skinned with African features and his brother Ross was light-skinned and chose to "pass" for white. Amos was coffee-colored, and a portrait of him as a young man reminded me of Nat King Cole.

In the 1940s, unable to find a job, Amos decided to enlist in the Air Force. An old black-and-white photo of his boot camp graduating class shows something startling: an all-black unit. Back then, the armed forces were segregated by race. When blood was spilled, it was not enough that young Americans were dying for their country. In the eyes of the military, white blood and black blood could not mix, even on the battlefield where death is the great equalizer. Amos was posted to active duty in Spain, where he met his future bride, a black-eyed, raven-haired, fiery Spaniard. They married in Gibraltar-not because race would prevent them from doing so in Spain in the late 1950s, but because religious beliefs would: in Spain, a Catholic could not marry a Protestant.

They had two sons, and after Amos's retirement from the Air Force, they moved back home. There isn't a happy ending. Many years later, he died of cancer just after his retirement from a local school system, where he had worked as a janitor and a bus driver. I didn't know him long enough to know what his dreams were, but he spoke of his disappointments, and it seemed he was thwarted from achieving his dreams because of the color of his skin.

This is an American story, like Barack Obama's. I wonder about Obama's personal pain and untold stories. Was Obama taunted like Amos's children for the color of his father's skin? Did Obama sometimes feel like he was being forced to choose between his black family and his white family, like Amos's son did? Was Obama teased for speaking another language like Amos's son was? Has Obama ever been accused of representing "the mongrelization of the white race" like Amos's son was by a Ku Klux Klan member? Had Obama's father lived in America, would he have been denied a room in a snowstorm because he was black, being forced to sleep in a car and losing a foot to frostbite like Amos's fellow airman en route to duty at the Air Force Academy? America is full of Barack Obamas. On Dr. Martin Luther King's birthday and the eve of the inauguration of America's first black president, I wonder if Amos ever dared to dream that this day would come.

In this era of change I hope that America is ready to bury the hatred and bigotry of the past, and will allow all of the young men and women like Amos to achieve their dreams and full potential, fulfilling Dr. King's dream in the process.

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Dina: How have you escaped notice hereabouts? You've become a favorite of mine with only two posts to your credit. Please come back.