Meet N.Jordan a.k.a Michelle Keifer
How does one admit they are someone else? How does one admit that taking chances is often riskier than the ultimate reward?
You are probably wondering who's in this picture. Well.. its me. N. Jordan actually my alias, but, my real name is Michelle. I have a daughter named Aimee, a wonderful husband and a full time career. I guess when you embark on a journey you find that sometimes your own confidence becomes over shadowed by your own wit, and your own fears become minimal and irrefutable.
I began on this journey about 6 months ago. Blogging each day about a movie that has inspired me to discuss my inner most fears, discover a sense of understanding for what the day brings, and somewhat deliver a never ending thought process of subconsciousness to whatever comes to mind. Yet, why as N. Jordan and not Michelle? Well.. first, I started this reflecting on life as seen through the mind of a man. Yet, I realized that the chick side of me came out as well. Second, I wanted to be someone different for once. Someone with no resume, no history, no present... but just free with thoughts.
I don't want to change my theme, I don't want to change my purpose. I will keep my alias name as N. Jordan, but, I wanted to share with you all that I am real, I am me, just hidden behind a film icon and a name with a embedded meaning and story.
I must stay true to my soul, and continue my passion to write, learn, embrace and challenge life each day through movies.
Movies have been my past time for the last twenty something years. I tend to find passion in fantasy and false reality. I tend to find escapes in daily distractions as an out to what's bogged up inside. Today I wanted to understand my own plight. I wanted to understand my own hesitations in being true to oneself. I realized that in order to achieve success, life has to hold up to ones expectations.
I've set the bar high, yet, unwillingly noticed that the bar was never supposed to be set to begin with. I recall growing up and thinking that once you got a mate, the house, the family, the kids, and the money, that everything else just came as second nature. Today, I realize that each step you take, you are passing along obstacles that may seem unobtainable by first look, yet obtainable at a second glance; if you give it enough time to register.
I've become stronger by posting each day. I've become more connected to my world as I reflect on how inspired I was growing up and watching these films. The fantasy of the" what if", allows me to seek the "why not" in today's' most challenging environment. The world of technology, the disconnect to the face to face interaction of those we love, and the pressures of the economy and dwindling jobs are just enough to make other things seem more likely to fall to the wayside.
So, just who am I? Who is this N. Jordan and this Michelle Keifer dual persona? Well, I am still searching, still thinking, still dreaming of life and living it to its fullest. I give hope to others through viewing the world as an endless ocean. I give praise to those deserving by understanding the hard work and energy put in to obtaining that focus. I refrain from too much criticism because I am a critic myself. Constantly putting others on pedestals and wanting more and more of reality to make sense.
Judgment is peripheral. Intrigue is a vacancy. Life is revolving.
I hope you continue to read my posts, and I hope you embrace my words seen through inspiration in film. Life is not always a fairy tale. Life is not always a story with endless happy endings. Life however, is what we make of it. Choices, chance, luck, risk, reward, punishment and acceptance. We must take the stride in order to remain humble, and we must stride in knowing that it starts with a thought, and ends with a dream.
My intent was not to fool, but, my intent was to define myself as I start to believe that anything is possible and facing a challenge is only inevitable.
Cheers to you my OS friends... Noah Jordan will always be, and will always have your ears and your eyes.. Michelle will just continue to take life one step at a time, and keep inspiring you all to think past the first initial glance, and return for a second reflection.
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Comments
Scanner.. thank you! Surprised??? Believe me... I am so grateful to you, and thank you for admiring these reviews. I appreciate you so much! It's funny... I've always been one of the guys, and I guess I just wanted to write like one. But, its time to be true to oneself, yet, I will still continue to write the same. Thanks man!!!
Thanks designanator.. I appreciate your thoughts and viewpoints! Films are difficult because they are embedded with the original writer's vision, and its my weird off the wall interest that wants to define it further. Love your loyalty!!!
Dr. Spudman.. Awesome!! So glad, and I hope you are enjoying them just like I do. I enjoy reading your works, I enjoy understanding a view that is so real and vivid and full of expression. Words have so many concrete meanings. Often at times we say the wrong word out of context and it becomes a story for the ages.
I will hug her a gazillion times. She is my inspiration. Thanks again!!!
Second, Michelle is one of my two favorite names in the world (we bestowed it upon our older daughter).
Third, your daughter is such a cutie-pie that I envy the years of happiness you're about to enjoy.
Fourth, I look forward to your next posting.
Fifth, I have a real name too. It's Richard.
Second...thank you, I always wanted to change my name growing up, but after naming my daughter.. I thought about how much it meant to my parents when they named me. Third, thank you thank you thank you, Fourth! Totally appreciate it. Fifth... Hi Richard, its nice to meet you as well.
I will keep enjoying your posts -- and you'll always be Movie Jordan to me!!
I'm looking forward to reading all your posts (in time). Thank you also for the welcoming comment.
I love how you call me Movie Jordan!!
You are a great OS'er.
49 and counting... you nailed it. That escape keeps the intrigue. Books and films make sense out of off the wall reality, or most times clearly defined actuality. Thank you for stopping by!