"Life sure has a sick sense of humor, doesn't it?"
Sometimes I think the jokes on me. Sometimes I think I do not have any of the answers to these impossible questions that generate perception. When I look at life as a whole, I think about how I thought I knew everything and realized I am just too naive to know everything.
Sometimes life hands you these circumstances where you question your own will and your own effort, yet, you find peace in the calm of the storm.
Often at times the questioning is just as painful as the answers we seek. Sometimes not knowing is better than knowing, and sometimes knowing is worse than accepting. Point Break didn't speak to life as this moving target of ups and downs, but it spoke to life as relationships with moving targets, and addressing those past choices first hand.
Sometimes I wonder why we meet the people we meet.
I think about why what we know, is sometimes blurred by what we wish we didn't know. When you search and hunt for what is real, and find that its not real, do you live a more fulfilled existence trying to fight it? Or do you live a fuller life re-affirming your existence by building healthier relationships?
I struggle a lot with trust. I struggle a lot with giving people the benefit of a doubt.
I can't challenge that you trust the wave without testing the water each time I look at the ocean. I can't challenge that you trust a person without testing their intentions when you feel deceived. Because ultimately, once you realize that trust is beyond testing other variables, you have to recognize that you need to trust yourself first in order to put your foot in the water and grab someones hand.
If we are all given a break to rationalize and look at the outside perspective, is it all about time and how we meet ourselves on the edge of the shoreline suspecting that the water will teach us how to breathe?
I may not have all the answers but I do question the intent of ones choices. I guess questioning leads to more questions and finding answers leaves to letting things go with definition. I guess there cannot be crime without punishment, or punishment without crime.