bouleversement bool-vair-suh-MAWN:

Noun: Complete overthrow; a reversal; a turning upside down. 

Yes, I guess it's time for a bool-vair-suh-mawn;a turning upside-down of my soul . . .What would shake out of it?

I imagine how it might be - a lightening of my burdens,dropping out of my heart-pockets like so many coins. What, if anything, would I pick up again?

Do I need any of these ancient, oddly-shaped items?  Some I recognize right away - anxiety, boredom, anger, terror - leave them where they lie.

Some, I need to put back immediately!  Love, beauty, loyalty, appreciation, poetry, music. 

After this process, I would probably wonder why I hadn't done it more often. 

Well, the word just today came to me - a word-of-the-day, just in the nick of time. 

Complete overthrow is how it seemed to me - when you said you could not take any more.

Reversal seemed to be what you needed me to do; a difficult process just to imagine. 

But - a turning upside-down?  Why didn't I think of it before?

I remember having that feeling when I was a girl, going really high on a swing, leaning waaay back, and staring into the tops of trees and the clouds at the bottom of the world. 

Higher!  Higher!