As the details are described in court with obsessive and detailed precision, Casey Anthony is no longer stoic; she has begun to cry, and feel sick. Casey has begun to break down as she can no longer avoid the truth. Her defenses are breaking down as the holes in her story are filling in.
The internal conflict has been avoided until now, she has been able to split off her feelings, and simply not feel the weight of the information emerging. Of course this was true before Caylee died too.
Casey used the partying, the sexuality, the drinks and drugs as a means to avoid the internal conflict about her role as mother. (Of course she also had issues about her battles with Cindy before Caylee was born, and she avoided addressing those too.)
Casey wanted to play, to have fun, she resisted growing up. And George indulged her; so did Cindy, both of them complaining about her behavior while giving her noney.
But Casey got pregnant, and wanted to keep the baby. Perhaps she saw this as a sign, a vehcle to finally get it together and grow up. She did want to be a good mom, but as every mom knows, babies are a burden. Sometimes, at times..., we hate that burden.
But now she can no longer party, she can no longer split off the reality and horror of her participation in Caylee’s death. Her defenses don;t work anymore, and she doesn't have access to the activities that helped in the past.
Why is it so hard to believe that her tears are not real. We are complex animals and frequently we are overwhelmed with conflicting emotions.
Today..., finally... Casey is simply beginning to feel overwhelmed. As we hear the story of the breakdown of little Caylee's body, we witness the breakdown of Casey. Casey is identified with the broken baby.
Casey is Caylee, broken..