I realized something today. Not sure if I should mention it to my Psych Doc, or my regular doc. When I go out for a day or even a few hours. I am exhausted, whipped and tired the next day. Doesn't matter if I have a Pepsi or not. I use… Read full post »

On Sunday April 1, my family lost a great man. Even though he was our Step dad, he was still the world to us four kids and our children.

 He took us in as his own, helped raise some of his Grand children and loved us all in his own… Read full post »

I think that it is unbelievably unfair for a person to work hard all their life, clear up until retirement age and then some, for what they have, serve their country when asked, willingly in our military and then when they are elderly and disabled and  no longer able to care/… Read full post »

AM I BEING SELFISH? I realize I have to look out for my health and sanity. My son is involved and I'm feeling horrible, but trying to stand my ground. You see I have already had to take care of one family member when they were dieing, rearrange my life, my… Read full post »

Seriously what is my problem, since moving from a 1300 square foot house to this tiny apartment in August of last year, I have had no energy what so ever. Every day is struggle with me. Its getting worse each day. I have no get up and go, no motivation, things… Read full post »

Have you ever been in the mood to do something, yet you can feel that wall of laziness stopping you? In turn your bored with everything? Then your mind starts beating you up because of it.

Then you have radom thoughts running through your mind, of why… Read full post »

For those who were waiting to hear about court yesterday....hearing was to set a hearing. Yep were going through the same process as last year in front of the same judge who sided with us last year. Was praying this year would be different. WRONG......We go back again next Thursday:( please… Read full post »

Yeah I know, absent again from where I find solace, and calmness. Hey in my defense, as we all know, every now and then LIFE does seem to get in the way, of ones calmness and solace.

I've been blah, pacing, crying, freaking out over things with Attorney's, collection agencies,… Read full post »

After I posted yesterday's  post, I had to jump in the shower to start our errands for the day.

While in there, a calm came over me, and my lawyer self kicked in. I rememberd that I needed to call the court clerks to ask about discovery for us. So… Read full post »

So I finally managed to pick up the paperwork that sat over on BD's desk, screaming at me yesterday late afternoon. It was an axiety filled day for me.

 I finally started doing the responses, while doing them it dawned on me. Guess I better call the court and see… Read full post »

Well the paperwork arrived yesterday in the mail......

Castlemienhold and Citi are once again taking us back to court on August 3 to see if they can get a judge rule in their favor this time.

Round one, we won, they perjured themselves, made asses of themselves, and to top… Read full post »

As I sat here this morning, going through my Facebook pages, I was actually looking for apost that I had done last month..re-reading everything I have posted on those pages for 4 months, was well, boring to me....... then emailing a friend on  yahoo as we discussed 'bullies'.

As I was… Read full post »

We loaded up the  POS jeep yesterday and headed off to our favorite firework spot. We always manage to get up there after the parade, usually we are traveling over Imogene Pass (4wheeling) when all the town activities are going on. We generally get back to Ouray in late afternoon, well… Read full post »

My mind is numb, my soul is shattered, and my heart is aching and I'm so angry is could spit nails. Bipolar moods are all over the place.

I thought I had been through all this family that there was to endure with this god awful 50th wedding anniversary.… Read full post »

I have been trying all morning to get on. Its nice to see that I take some time off, return to the same techno problems as before:)

 I am not sure if I will be posting over the weekend or not? Starting tonight family reunion, till monday night. We start… Read full post »

I started out writing about how I was going to handle my bully. I had two pages written out. Then my X (ML) called me and we discussed how I was going to give her a taste of her own medicine tonight.

 He kept telling me, which he does have… Read full post »

Things I miss in my life;

Ouray, where I am at peace mentally, emotionally, and physically.

Getting out of the house, even if it just around here

FJ summit in Ouray, we went last year and it was amazing, fun, the people you meet are absolutely wonderful, delight to… Read full post »

In my head

Yesterday I was talking to another person who is also bipolar, severe like I am.… Read full post »

Here it is another day, yesterday was a good day for the most part. I am stuck in this bipolar episode that just keeps getting worse. I woke up this morning and instantly started crying, because I forgot to set bread out to make BD's lunch with. Even tho he told… Read full post »

Holy cow its been since April 18th that I have been on here? Really? It doesn't seem that long to me. When its right there in front of your face when you sign on as to the date of your last post. Then it must be true, right?

 Since I… Read full post »

Growing up Pepsi~Cola, PepsiCo and Pepsi....

First it was Coke in my family, until Pepsi burst on the scenes in my state. Then my entire family switched to the delicious taste of this awesome soft drink that we all still drink to this day! I did however have an Aunt who… Read full post »

Upon reading the news of AMC and OLTL, got me to thinking and digging through the cobwebs of my mind, memories and of course today's technology of the internet.....  

How sad when you think about it; is it due to bad writing, ratings, life in general? Who knows. I do… Read full post »

Ok, I think that we should all add our little comments to this letter that a cousin of mine posted on his facebook page. I come from a military family, have friends and family who are still there. This crap about freezing or cutting their wages, does NOT sit well with… Read full post »

Dear Congress;

Last year I mismanaged my funds and this year I cannot decide on a budget. Until I have come to a unified decision that fits all of my needs and interests, I will HAVE to shut down my checkbook and will no loner be able to pay my… Read full post »