one of my friends, whose rank was far behind me, win the First Prize Scholarship this year, while i just obtain the Second Prize. it was with mixed feelings when i heard of this, a little unhappy, anxious, jealous, alert and of course glad for her achievement. she is a good girl, seeing things through, working hard on them, and always ready to help. seemingly, she is a little less clever, which turns out not to block her professional progress. i am just the opposite type, idling away my time, easy to get weary, and always dreaming.

i ask myself over and over again, if i could take time back, would i study harder? definitely, no. if you do not pursue something from the bottom of your heart, you will stop midway. furthermore, i am now satisfied with my life, undergoing the twists sometimes though. i would not sacrifice my sleep, my happy  puppy time and my seemingly nonsense self-intoxicated hours.

i live a happy life and i will cherish and protect what is worth my wholehearted contribution. the world is not composed of one kind of person, self-motive, vigorous and striving to advance. we should not be shameful for our unaggressive nature.