This will be a short post because I'm still reeling with shock and grief. You've all read my many posts (and seen many pictures) of our beloved Siamese sisters, Alice and Trixie. Lady Lucia and I awoke this morning to find Trixie's lifeless body. She had apparently died in her sleep (she looked like she was sleeping.) Trixie had seemed to be in perfect health. Only six years old!She was eating normally and playing with her sister. She had spent part of the night in bed with us, as she often did...
The most likely explanation for a young, apparently healthy cat dying unexpectedly is sudden heart failure. We have to assume that's what happened with Trixie. Knowing that she probably didn't suffer, though, does not lessen the terrible grief. We have been weeping all day and clinging to Alice...
We took Trixie's remains to her vet's office, where they will be cremated and returned to us in an urn (which will join my Festus and Lulu's urns on a shelf in our living room.) Because Alice has never lived without a feline companion, we will, eventually, adopt a kitten for her sake. There is no "replacing" Trixie or any creature, but Alice needs another cat around and, since they were both rescued strays, we can honor Trixie's memory by saving another life.
Our Trixe was the most beautiful, affectionate, innocent, playful; joy-filled little cat. Our love for her is forever. I keep looking around the apartment and expecting to see her...then my heart breaks, over and over again when I realize she isn't there. I give thanks to God for the honor and joy of being Trixie's "Mum Number Two" for three years. Y'all know the t-shirt that reads: "God, make me the person my dog thinks I am?" Well, my prayer now (along with prayers for all of us in our mourning) is that God will make me the person Trixie thought I was; a safe haven. A source of boundless love. A play-mate and protector. A healer and a friend. Every good thing that a human being can be. I was those things for Trxie. May I be those things for others (human and feline) too, so that (as is said in Jewish tradition) "Her memory is for a blessing."
Here is my beautiful Trixie for y'all to admire, one more time:
Your good thoughts and prayers for all of us, please. As always, my blessings and well-wishes for youse!