Christine Macdonald

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Christine Macdonald

Christine Macdonald
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Contributing author of The Moment (Harper Collins). Former stripper, current writer working on forthcoming memoir Pour Some Sugar On Me: Tales from an Ex-Stripper. Activist. Public Speaker. Cancer survivor.

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APRIL 5, 2011 11:56AM

Reunion: my visit back to the strip clubs

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The weather was perfect for an evening stroll. I started up Kuhio Avenue with the plan to hail a cab a few blocks in. I missed flagging taxis. Waikiki may not be your typical big city, but it's still the type of place you can walk everywhere and when your feet tire, there's always a cab to rescue you.

The familiarity started within two blocks of my walk. I noticed a man I used to party with - still passing out Booze Cruise tickets to young tourists. His hair was still long, like he was an extra in a Pearl Jam video. He did a double take at me when I walked by and for a second, we stopped with that "don't I know you?" look. Not one for exchanging small talk with long-lost acquaintances from my party past, I kept walking.

The taxi dropped me off right in front of Femme Nu. This is the first [nude] club I worked in. I was just 21 when I started working there and didn't know what to expect nearly 22 years later. The bouncer at the door checked my purse, pulled out my camera and handed me a claim check ticket. As a tourist of Waikiki, I always have my camera in tow. I didn't even think about taking photos inside the clubs, but it made me happy the security was tight. I worked in a different time where we didn't have to worry if a nude photo was plastered all over the internet - there was no internet!

Once entering the club I was overcome with nostalgia, excitement and a little bit of fear. I sat at the bar, ordered a vodka cranberry and soaked it all in. The dancers seemed bored, as it was just 8:00 and the crowd was thin. After my second drink I asked the bartender for some ones and made my way to tip the girls.

"I have to support the ladies" I walked up to each of them smiling.

"Thank you!" They wondered what my story was.

After introducing myself a couple of the gals and I chatted and they were excited to meet someone from the old days.

I told them how different the club was, how the stages changed, the bar was on the opposite side of the club, etc. They marveled in my stories of how we used to dance on this jet stream runway - complete with shower stage and glow in the dark body wash.

I noticed each dancer had a personal pillow and was blown away by the fact that not one of the girls was actually standing up for long. They all knelt down and performed shows for the men on their knees!

"What's up with the pillows?"

"Oh that started in the late 90's."

"It's got to be better on your feet!"

"Oh yea - you used to dance, right?"

"Yea - in spiky shoes. Clear platform heels weren't round back then." I felt old but happy to be there.  It was nice to show them there is life after the pole.

After chatting a while with the girls I made my way to Club Rock-Za across the street. As soon as I walked in, the door man remembered me, gave me a hug and waived the cover charge. I was then greeted by Yvonne, the owner, who recognized me right away. I was so surprised to receive such a warm reception, and felt a little touched I was even remembered.

The ladies at Rock-Za had pillows too and I sat at the bar in amazement at the floor shows I was seeing.

In both clubs I noticed a lot more body art. Each girl displayed a fair amount of tattoos - something I don't remember seeing back in my day. They also seemed younger to me, but I'm sure that's because I am so much older now. I also noticed the lack of drugs. As a long time career party girl, I can usually tell when someone is high. I didn't pick up that vibe from any of the dancers. Another difference I spotted right away was the rise of their bottoms. Every gal there wore their bikini bottoms (or panties) very low waisted. I felt so old-school, thinking to myself how high-up-the-thigh we used to wear ours.

After a couple hours and a hand full of drinks, I decided I was ready to leave. I saw what I wanted, met some great ladies and came full circle.

I was surprised I wasn't more emotional. I suppose it's because I am at peace with part of my life I no longer feel controlled by. Walking in to my past was comfortable, but walking away felt even better.

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A compassionate account--with an insightful last sentence. I'll remember it always. Thanks.
remember ... tip but don't touch
@Leon - Thank you. It was an experience I won't soon forget.
@Noah - That's right!
Sometimes you can go home again.
It's sort of like the scene that one night was meant to represent your former experience there that took place over months and years. You weren't hooked into it anymore, so there was less stress. But being disconnected also meant that you couldn't really re-experience it either, although you probably didn't really think you would.
Very courageous of you to walk back into the past. Most people wouldn't, but sometimes I wonder if that's exactly what's needed to put it permanently to rest.

Love this: Walking in to my past was comfortable, but walking away felt even better.
I do not normally frequent strip clubs but, going through a divorce back in the 80s, I impulsively walked into one. I hadn't been sleeping well and wasn't in a socialable mood. I probably spent $200 on fake drinks, being vulnerable, but the place and "the girls" picked up my spirits. I left feeling as though an important healing process had begun and time proved me right. It was cheaper than a therapy session and much more practical.
So did the thought of "one dance for ol' time sakes" ever cross your mind?
You are a generous writer--generous towards the people you write about and generous with details about your life. Great post. r
Hey Angel,

Good for you, moving on with, and making more of, your life. Waikiki is all cleaned up now-eh? Some different already!

But, 22 years is not so long, in fact, I am happy to say there is no way I could have seen you then- I was a good married bruddah- no even look, li dat! It sure helped that my then wife was beyond gorgeous.

But, oh the 1970s- those were the days, not even Rock-za and Femme Nu, but the old Keeamoku St.- I get flashbacks walking by Wal-Mart on my way to Like Like Drive In- da plates still da same deah! Could this really be the street of Club Rose, of a true underworld, and, and thank heavens you missed those days, of unregulated clubs- ping pong ball shows and true degrading acts ... the good old days weren't always so good, especially for the girls.

I worked at The Summit then, way before Nicholas Nikolas, now gone as well, on top of the Ala Moana and the whole world it seemed, walking by Femme Nu at 3 am after work ... a young surfer still able to attract a girl who stripped all night for fools and horny sailors ... hey brah, where you going now- The Wave?

Glad you missed all that, and glad you can reflect and express it so well ... oh, we won't even get into Hotel St. and Hubba Hubba!

Cheers & Aloha No
I have never cared much about strip clubs and haven't been to one in years. They bore me to death. I find the strippers more of a nuisance than a turn on and don't get me started on the overpriced drinks.

But it was interesting to hear an account from the other side of the pole.
Christine, good to see you...wonderful piece...xox
I occasionally visit strip clubs to reminisce too!
@Catnlion - I never thought about getting back up there, no. Probably because I'm 43 and out of shape! Ha.
Not exactly everybody's memory lane ;-). R
"Walking in to my past was comfortable, but walking away felt even better."

I love that line. Rated!
I enjoyed this very much - especially the final thoughts. It's very sage, for if we don't look back occasionally, how can we appreciate where we are.

♥R
Thank you for the lovely comments. Much appreciated!