First Awake
FirstAwake
- Location
- Salt Lake City, Utah, USA
- Birthday
- September 08
- Title
- Hierophant
- Company
- Three's
- Bio
- Actor, writer, designer, fortune's fool. Recovering Mormon, recovered overachiever. Currently employed as Wardrobe Supervisor at a big-ass theater in a small-ass town. Except that we hosted the Olympics that one time. So, big-ish town. Also, I ramble. Self-knowledge is my strongest and weakest suit. Approaching singularity from the wrong side of time. Everyone thinks I'm just great. Everyone. Even you.
MY RECENT COMMENTS
- “This guy sounds like a
real jerk. Or a superheated
gas giant
of talent and
handso…”
July 26, 2009 03:11PM - “Tijo- I am clearly not
relationship material, which I
think I
have established
qu…”
June 11, 2009 01:07AM - “Oh, the memories. Being
half-Japanese, I was
initially
delighted when the
futon m…”
June 05, 2009 03:11PM - “I am breathless. You are
making some beautiful sounds
on this
crazy instrument
of…”
June 01, 2009 11:55PM - “Mrs. M - I promise that
if I flounce, it will be
grand. The
ground beneath me
wil…”
June 01, 2009 11:22PM
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Fear (of flying) and Loathing (of drama)
So. Here I am again. Blah blah blah, life gets in the way. I am a bad landlord. I am a bad tenant. I am a bad friend. But I am writing. I am happy. And I am alive.
This weekend, my uncle married his partner in an exquisitely moving ceremony… Read full post »
Employee Orientation Procedures for the Coming Apocalypse
Thomas, you're a swell guy with a cute photo and some great suggestions, but I consider myself lucky to even finish a piece of writing every week, much less increase my readership beyond the loyal few who trust me enough to slog through dross and gold alike. Maybe I'll find… Read full post »
Kaleidoscope: Love, Geometry, and Insect Vision
Holy crap, it's been a while. My job ate my life, but that's no excuse. More than anything, I've been so charmed by the emergence of spring (and the corresponding mood changes in my crazy head) that none of my current depressive myth-reinvention projects seemed like much fun to work on.… Read full post »
Wild Hares Up My Ass For Easter
This post is a little late, but still in time for Easter; I spent all afternoon slaving over a hot laptop for you, so I hope you're still hungry.
I didn't want to go the obvious Jesus-y route with the post today, especially since there'll be enough of that… Read full post »
Ghosts, Boyfriends, and other Imaginary Things
“It starts out like a game, right? Before we go to bed, we agree on a place, or something we like to do, or a word. Then when we wake up in the morning, you tell me your dream, and then I tell you mine. And we see if we… Read full post »
Mrs. Michaels: The OS Interview
To begin with, a disclaimer: I love Mrs. Michaels's writing. I am an unabashed and dorky fan.
Many writers here on the OS (myself included) delve into material that uncovers past wounds, hurts, embarrassing personal details, or all of the above. Here's the thing: the passion, the… Read full post »
St. Paddy's Day: The Infomercial
Banish snakes from your own backyard, using the three-in-one cleansing power of TRINITY! With Shamrock Extract! Removes druid residue and stubborn pagan stains! Cleans blood from altars and bluestone megaliths! March on down to the nearest Pict-'N-Save and ask for TRINITY! b
… Read full post »7 Ways of Looking At A Cockroach
Warning: Fluff post. Fun mostly, a little serious maybe. For more substantive writing, visit my other posts. No, wait, stay! Oh hell...
UPDATE 3/7: New blog post here.
Still here? OK.
I only had time for seven, and thirteen is bad luck. With apologies to Wallace Stevens.
COCKROACH… Read full post »
The one-inch window; a remedy for writer's block
I have writer's block. Possibly from eating too much writer's cheese. So in response I've resorted to all my bad old habits (napping too much, drinking a little, joking about the problem, stupefying myself with food, reading my old writing and mourning the death of my abilities, making a huge fucking… Read full post »
Who died and made you king?
As I work on the stand-up routine that will lead to the addictions that cause my karmically appropriate death (right now, I'm banking on "getting really fat, then being crushed by the vending machine I was tipping in order to rescue a stuck bag of TGIFridays Bacon and Cheese Potato Skin… Read full post »
Praying like a Mormon
For more background, see Part 1
"BLESS THAT"
“Heavenly Father, thank you for this day, thank you for the food that’s been prepared for our use, please bless it to strengthen and nourish our bodies and do us the good that we need, bless that we’ll go about our travels… Read full post »
Unnecessary Surgery: a poem
I spend a lot of time on my feet. I am, for a dancer, clumsy. I also stay up too late after drinking too much red wine, which is when the obsessive inventory of bruises, scars, and potential varicose veins begins. I turned 30 last year; my mother turned sixty. And… Read full post »
5 Words--inspired by red_sea_rose
Here's my version of the 5 word exercise from my current muse, red_sea_rose. The challenge ? To write a poem using five assigned words. This week: Sing, Apple, Tin, Forty, Matchstick.
MATCH GIRL
This time of night, who’s buying matches? No one
Who has… Read full post »
What pulls you into the sky won't kill you.
Sunday afternoon. Time for a quick poem before I try cutting my own hair. Again. Wish me luck. A balloon was caught in the power lines as I drove home last night, its wilted siblings dangling beneath it like they know it's February. Wonder what happened to the kid holding them.… Read full post »
My aunt threatened to eat my face (poem)
Written after witnessing a terrifying scene at a public park. Please to enjoy.
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FAMILY REUNION
i’m gonna eat your FACE
(isn’t he just the living end
the spitting image
the cutest thing)
come back here, you’re so CUTE
RRRRRRRRRRRR
i&r… Read full post »
Dating: A poem about how not to.
HOW IT ENDS, AND WHY
Become a cave person. Retreat.
Marshal your resources.
Reacquaint yourself with anger; become
a stranger to reason.
Sketch attitudes of ochre desperation
on your damp cave walls.
Fantasize.
Hi.
This blog is a challenge to myself. After nearly twenty years of writing, I'm putting this stuff out where it can do what it was meant to do: be read. Not in the sense that any of this deserves publication more than anything else out there, but in the sense that… Read full post »
Poem: First Awake
FIRST AWAKE
To be first awake must be held so dearly
As not to be wasted. Examining
You now, my nerves peeled raw and quivering
Still from last night’s exertions, very nearly
Unhinges me. Propped up on bent elbows
I contemplate your… Read full post »
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