Perhaps I read too much. I do so because I am curious. I am curious for answers as well as because I need validation for some thoughts and questions I have. I read and ask questions, and do searches and look for input from many sides. More often than not I don't get validation but more questions on what I hoped would be validation.
I rarely find the answer I hope for and often find more questions leading to an answerer that opened up an entire other room of questions. That leads to my always finding few question truly answered as simply as I would like or even fewer still what I hoped would be simple solutions to direct question that turned out to be not so simple nor quite as direct as I thought it might be.
It confirms what I have found through the process of questioning, taking in an answer and digesting it, leading to another more pointed question that opens up all of this all over again in a much larger scope than I thought possible.
Now if I have confused you then try to be a part of my mind that never wants to sleep, that always wants to know more, that questions, questions questions.
I once read that a mind that thinks is a curse, I believe that. Would it be so simple to just accept what you are given and never question? For those who like me with a mind that doesn't rest it is indeed a curse, but I know of no other way, I have always been so cursed. But at times it can be a wondrous thing leading to areas of knowledge you would never have explored.
There are a couple of things I have come to accept these many years, a formal education is not a prerequisite to having an insatiable curious mind and I have come to the conclusion that no one has the absolute truth and few people even understand the concept.
We who have minds that refuse to rest are not immune from fooling ourselves, we do it quite often. I do find when we discover we have fooled ourselves we know now it is time to again question why we allowed this to happen. Now my friends we may become a bit insufferable and arrogant at times but this can keep us from becoming worse.