I will preface this piece first by acknowledging any mother who may be offended by the title. I tongue and cheek and wish no offense to any mother who has had to endure the unspeakable act of laying her child to rest. We bow to you this Sunday because you have survived the heart w… Read full post »

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The girls and I have an understanding. T… Read full post »

Every year I want to feel different about this time of year , this holiday, his birthday. I want to feel light and breezy and full of light and spirit. I want to remember it's for the children, about the giving , the joy of his birth.

Instead I am an overwhelmed, guilt ridde… Read full post »

Aughhhhh, that summer. It should have been a summer of family fun , instead it became a nightmare. My older cousin , who came to help out on the farm, should have been my protector , instead he chose predator and I became the prey, that predatory summer. The summer childhood… Read full post »

I just finished filing my taxes for free. Thankyou AARP for that service to low income peeps like moi. Now I will take my loot and give it to my wonderful beautiful lawyer and declare Chapter 7.

Oh, I am so Chapter 7.

Once I had a full time… Read full post »

Not like  Christmas which can be hell on earth as your reminded daily with what you  forgot to do and didn't do and will never get done in time , so why even bother.

This holiday  was accomplished with one simple jog to the drugstore clutching my babysitting money in hand… Read full post »

I know, I know , worst economic time in 100 years, but then so was my  monthly paycheck.

 I know , I know , should be thankful I even had a job, but working for a bully is hell on earth and I am  thankful for finally leaving.

 I know, I… Read full post »

The mark of a good man is one who stays, for better or worse, even without that piece of paper. " I'm not going anywhere " he would tell me. 

 "You can throw me your worst" he said, and I did.  

 "I'm not leaving you" ,"No matter what… Read full post »

We spent a lot of time together. Too much really. So secretive in the beginning, one could dismiss it as being off my game, a bit out of sorts.

Now, a rage against the machine crazy bitch bitchen, that your not going to keep under wraps for long. Four letter words… Read full post »

The day I opened my cupboard and stared at that bottle of antidepressants and sighed " Has it come to this"?

I weighed on my mind, (my completely depressed and out of sorts one ), what do I love more, spending  seventy dollars on pills or shoes,pills or shoes, pills or… Read full post »