Most of you know how difficult it is to juggle family and responsibilities. However, with me, I’ve had to juggle everything with persistent head pain everyday for the last year. If that didn’t make me crazy, then something is very wrong with me.

As a mother, people are dependent on you, especially your children. It is not an option to fail. Today, I was helping my 3 year old son, Travis take his pants and underwear off so he could pee in the potty. As I was bent down to help him, it suddenly felt as if someone had taken a large knife to my right eye and temple. I almost fell over. Instead, I squeezed my eyes shut, took a deep breath and waited until I could see before continuing with my duties.

Sometimes, I’m so used to the gradual tightening grip on my head, I don’t realize I’ve gotten to the point where my body can’t handle it anymore and I either vomit or can’t see clearly. Is this okay when driving children around? Is there anything I can do about this? No and no.

People want to know what’s wrong with me. I struggle just to get through the day. I rely heavily on painkillers because it’s the one thing that can help me operate without failing.

I’m falling apart and trying desperately to keep it together. This is my life right now. I don’t want your pity. I don’t want your concern. I’m grateful to have readers and the nice support. But I need time. Lots of time. 

And my dog has figured out how to lend a hand. If only I can teach him to babysit my 3 year old son...