Yesterday, when I noticed that Apache is in financial trouble, I read her blog, thinking that perhaps she can move in with my daughter and I. At least my mortgage is being paid and we have a roof over our heads. Oddly enough, that same day, my daughter and I went to the store to give our dog a desperately needed bath (we suspected fleas). When I attempted to pay the $15. for the wash, my account was “cancelled.” I tried my other card; that account was cancelled, also.

Now I don’t want to make a big deal out of this cashless situation, yet I noticed yesterday afternoon and this morning my phone was not giving me service. I realized that maybe the check from the bill they received bounced. Yet how could I contact my bank to find out, if I don’t have phone service? And how, I am wondering, can I call Whole Foods to see if I have gotten the job that I am attempting to get? I mean, do I need to have money before I can get money? Ahhh, the old Catch 22.

The no-money-in-account dilemma was enough to scare me into thinking some low thoughts...like: I wonder how much money I can borrow from my daughter, who gets a regular allowance from her wealthy pop? And: well I guess we can’t go food shopping for awhile (a good time to go on a fasting diet). And: what the heck am I going to feed our dog, who will be out of food, soon...squirrels?

the weird thingy is, everything seems to be going to pot, simultaneously: aside from my phone, my car alarm is "acting up" more than usual, going off even when it's sitting in the garage (it tends to miss mwah); my daughter brings home groceries and in our conversation tells me that she doesn't think her dad will divorce his current wife and remarry mwah (and shamelessly reminds me how I love sex and he doesn't) and worst of all, my vibrator needs new batteries. (Somehow, that depresses me the most.)

I am amazed at the overdue notices I am getting; this is not like my prior life, only months ago. I always pay my bills on time, before they are due. My credit rating has been stellar for many years.

Now, companies don’t even wait for two weeks to send notices out. Is there no compassion in this country for what’s happening, everywhere? I know that there are endless opportunities, especially for artists/innovative thinkers/out of the box business services. And although I’ve thought of a few ideas/services, I’m just not there, yet. Apparently so. 

Nature, fortunately, doesn’t have to rely on other sources to bear its richness or its glory. And even though at the moment (that’s where everything is, right?) I appear cash-less, there is our garden to look at in wonder...here are flowers that I never planted—probably grew from potted flower seeds—that are coming up regardless of the lovely (that the prior owner put down) astro turf. I swear, life never stops being interesting.

 p.s. Please send batteries, okay?...They're double A...I promise to send you my address...