My Heart Speaks Here

One Realization, One Memory, One Story at a Time

heidibeth

heidibeth
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April 02
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I'll tell you about my journey while I'm telling myself, rereading and saying aha! yes! and that is what it was like! Words have magic feet. I like to see them dance. The rest is to be kept quiet because it is sacred. How I watch people and love them never wondering if we'll agree. I love them because they are. I believe in words but they aren't everything. I'll take harsh speech and good deeds over eloquence and little helpful action in the world. There's shades of gray through everything which is one of many reasons I pray, "Thy Will not mine be done," trying not to cross my fingers but keep my eyes and heart open.

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Salon.com
MAY 29, 2012 11:32AM

after a time

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Maybe we just need to say nothing for a while,
as the new day rolls out in bright strips.
I'm squinting into the sunrise,
not sure how long it's gonna take, the rewiring,
letting go of repeatedly rotating within my mind
the contents of a future I cannot entirely control.

If the music has been turned off and our voices
held tight in a kind of sacred gesture,
when we pass a mossy pond,
I will only be considering the glint of sparkle,
art of water plants, how it is there because rain has filled
again and again a hole of unknown depth
and surrounding life has filled it with an invisible world.

If we are silent for a time, giving nothing,
not even a whispering sigh,
then years of unnecessary apologies,
given long before you and I,
memories of wounds I've inflicted carelessly speaking,
a recognition that I have been holding up barriers,
all begin to collect, and with a breath, deeply gathered,
slowly released, a portion of these pities glide away.
And when we, after a time, begin to speak,
I will be present.

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A lovely ... and worthwhile ... meditation, heidibeth.

And when we, after a time, begin to speak,
I will be present.


Yes. I like that. I like that very much.