Juliette, Georgia, USA
January 01
Hippies & Heros
My Marine and I have been married sixteen years and counting. We love each other a great deal, even if our day to day existence can get quite testy. We say we are each other's last spouse. CC was hit by recoilless rifle round in Vietnam in 1969 and was retired from the Marines with over 100% in disabilities. He has led a colorful life and now struggles as his mobility deteriorates and the amount of pain he is in accelerates. I am the Aaron to his Moses because I am his story teller, the chronicler of his escapades. This blog is mostly about our current VA experiences and what is like to live with a war veteran 40 years after the fact of war. PS, I am friending all who are veterans, or families of veterans (whether I agree with their posts or not) This is to make this a site where you can see the full diversity of those who pay for our wars. So if you "come out" as a veteran, family member or someone devoted to their issues, I will friend you.


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JULY 25, 2010 11:54AM

Saint Emelia

She wasn't quite dead when she performed her first miracle.  We were all gathered around the shell of her body, she still breathing by the dull grace of a breathing tube, when the sound of CC's cell phone pierced the death bed scenario.


It was a doctor's office, confirming an… Read full post »

JULY 23, 2010 7:18PM

Surgery @ the VA

It's been awhile. Blogging here got complicated when CC wanted to be involved in the message. Our desires for this public forum are at cross purposes. He's talking to the VA through it, but what I really want to do is keep a simple journal about life after war and how… Read full post »

MARCH 30, 2010 12:52PM

Medical Need or Just Whining?

There has been a bit of feuding going on for the past few months between CC and the personnel department of the pain and rehab clinic.  Relations began swimmingly well, but deteriorated once CC got his wheelchair.  He needed things to go with the chair.  A cushion to sit on.Read full post »

MARCH 25, 2010 8:30AM

Enough PTSD for all of us

I have the commandment to blog our journey to the VA today for a major medical hearing for a new wheelchair for CC.

Background: Since I have not blogged recently and never told you the outcome of CC's quest to have the VA acknowledge and compensate him beyond the original 1969 classification… Read full post »

DECEMBER 12, 2009 5:59PM

Not Just A Spectator


At six this Saturday morning; I was not real hip in getting up and going anywhere. It was wet and cold and I was still sleepy. I had photos to take and that in itself was probably the most motivating factor propelling me.


I got to be part of… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 29, 2009 11:22AM

Touch This and Make a Wish




CC's been sitting outside of WalMart in Forsyth, going on his third day. He and other Marine Corps League friends are collecting toys and money for the the Annual Toys for Tots program. All the toys and money being given at this location are distributed within this county.… Read full post »

NOVEMBER 16, 2009 10:20AM

Boston Butts & The Truck


This weekend CC went off for an overnighter with the boys to revel in the tetosterone ruts of old Marines cooking Boston Butts. Somewhere between ten and fifteen Devil Dogs worked on this project to benefit the local children's hospital. These men are possibly the most crotchety and con… Read full post »

OCTOBER 16, 2009 7:57AM

Another Georgia State Park


 On the way home from Augusta we saw one of those brown signs that denote a State Park.  CC whipped the car around, shouting gleefully, "I'm cured - I'm doing something impulsively!"  Except I don't think that is the definition of being cured of PTSD. I think having… Read full post »

OCTOBER 14, 2009 2:03PM

Getting the VA to Work For You

It's the luck of the draw. You expect the worst and hope for the best. It ain't a deep philosphy. You have to find out what your service earned you and then you go from person to person, and phone call to appointment tracking down the pathway to the benefit.… Read full post »

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OCTOBER 12, 2009 3:56PM

The Appointment



Oh, how I wish I could take photos inside the VA. CC looked like himself on a normal day wandering around in his wheelchair in the Compensation & Pension division of the VA hospital.  He had on his green grunt t-shirt, a green towel around his neck, wheel

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OCTOBER 7, 2009 10:45PM

Getting ready for the finals


CC is going before the VA compensation and pension board to ask for more compensation because he has PTSD. Ranking disabilities sucks. But that is our mission - Proving CC to be worthy of restitution because: his body is permanently on alert; he has specific mental, physical,and emotional… Read full post »

OCTOBER 4, 2009 9:52AM

My Life Is Not Normal


Boy, do I have something to tell the psychiatrist when CC goes on Wednesday to be judged whether he should be compensated for having PTSD.

You see, CC is now on a mission to visit all the state parks in Georgia. This obsession began this summer shortly after he began… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 29, 2009 9:32AM

September VA Traveling Day

 We'll be leaving in a few minutes to travel to the VA hospital to see Dr. Damn Meanie. CC has a long list of things he wants to accomplish while there.  He is on a roll downstairs complaining about my chaotic messes.  "All I do is clackety, clack on the computer,… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 23, 2009 7:32AM

Living in Combat Mode

Dealing with CC hurts because if I let myself be in the least bit vulnerable; I get torn to shreds. When he gets in PTSD mode, no information is transferred or accepted nicely.


Being aid, assistant and wife for a combat wounded Veteran Marine who has a brittle forty year… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 22, 2009 6:33AM

A Day at the VA Hospital in Atlanta

Here we were at the VA Hospital in Atlanta the day after Michael Jackson, Farah Faucet and Ed McMahon died..  CC was totally an asshole since getting within five miles of the hospital. I wanted to jump out of the car and just say, "fuck it, I don't needRead full post »
SEPTEMBER 21, 2009 9:38AM

Will CC survive gum surgery?

CC had gum surgery at the VA Hospital today. We go there almost every week so it hardly seems a big deal anymore. I know we'll be in the land of long straight halls and veterans, every shape, color, size, diabiility and malady. Surgery and CC are not… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 20, 2009 8:50AM

40 Years After Rebirth


The Very Bad Pain Clinic, otherwise known as Rehab always smells of urine. And I hate walking back into its depths. I always feel like I am witnessing something too personal. The first back room has people lying on beds with clean white sheets. They are… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 17, 2009 1:48PM

Getting to the heart of the matter



We visited the VA Regional Office the other day in Atlanta, and met with the Military Order of the Purple Heart Service Officer. The National Service Office is located on the first floor of the Regional Office and these service officers do not work for the

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SEPTEMBER 17, 2009 6:32AM

Cussing and Cursing

CC is a profane man.
God Damn adorns 
most of his unguarded statements.
Shit and Fuck intersperse
questions and answers.

He is sarcastic,
but sometimes 
tones himself down to ironic

If one is thickskinned and patient
A streak of practicality running deep and pure wil… Read full post »


  Thursday was time for CC to go to Dublin VA Hospital to see his primary care giver on the Blue Team. CC had taken a twenty year break from using the VA services, but about a year ago decided to give it another try. Dublin is about an… Read full post »

SEPTEMBER 16, 2009 3:20PM

The "Crazy" Diagnosis

Last week, nearly forty years after his return from Vietnam, my husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He already has full disability benefits from the injuries he sustained when a 82 mm recoilless rifle round rocket landed in his fighting hole.  

When he made it back stateside,Read full post »
SEPTEMBER 16, 2009 3:10PM

Typhoon Agnes, Sept 5, 1968: Vietnam

CC’s mama was a historian. She kept a treasure trove of old letters, scraps of paper and memories..
After her death, I found all the letters CC wrote from boot camp and Vietnam. I began a notebook, putting each letter in a protective sheet and in chronological order.… Read full post »