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Oh, how I wish I could take photos inside the VA. CC looked like himself on a normal day wandering around in his wheelchair in the Compensation & Pension division of the VA hospital. He had on his green grunt t-shirt, a green towel around his neck, wheel chair gloves, elbow braces, leg brace, his birth control glasses, with sunglasses atop them and here is where the similarity stops. He had in his lap a folder with big black letters on them: PTSD. He waved the folder at the lady checking people in, and it looked for all the world like a big caution sign.
Danger, danger, PTSD alert.
I was reminded of our first trip to Augusta last year about this time. CC had recently had a seizure. We went to the coast for the Altamaha RiverKeepers Clam Jam and next thing I know he is laying under a big oak tree looking like he is getting ready to pass over into the next realm. We had thought killing the extra set of nerves in his heart was going to take care of those pesky things.
After that episode, we went to a regularly scheduled appointment in Augusta to see the doctor treating all the iron in CC's blood that isn't supposed to accumulate (but does) and therefore endangers his liver. The doctor maintained all the bloodletting in the world wasn't going to help CC's liver if he didn't stop drinking. So CC stopped drinking. No more seizures. Hopefully that addressed the problem.
The trip to Augusta last year was a PTSD nightmare. We didn't know the way, CC was in pain, and all his triggers had triggered. Once we got there, they informed CC his appointment had been canceled. He must of had a certain look in his eye - like he was carrying a PTSD sign or something - and he said, "you tell that to my menopausal wife." They let him see a doctor right off and he told CC the bad news about his drinking days being over.
Back to the present visit, the evaluation. CC flashed his PTSD sign at the receptionist, but he is not in the dangerous, swampy waters denoting combat mode, thank goodness. So far our trip had been a holiday.
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We took in the Augusta River Walk, a delightful place even someone in a wheelchair can enjoy (steep, long ramp - caution). We had a great meal at The Bonefish the night before and a Starbucks breakfast. Life was good.
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The psychologist evaluating CC informed me there was not enough room for me in the examining room. This was between him and CC, so I don't know too much of what went on except for the fragments CC has told me about.
This I know. CC is a combat wounded veteran. Just last week we went to the enrollment office in Dublin to make sure his ID has Purple Heart written on it. His records have not accurately reflected the cause of his injuries. CC is on a mission to have all of this corrected. To get his ID changed, they copied his DD-whatever form (which has through CC's long effort now shows more information), will send the form to Washington DC and they will change it there.
This important for a couple of reasons. First and foremost, with Purple Heart on his ID card; CC becomes one of the most high ranking individuals at the facility. He was blown up in war. The only people who are in line in front of him are POWs. Therefore if he is in dire need of help, the Purple Heart on his ID will ensure quick service.
The second reason is because his records should (SHOULD) reflect what actually happened. Someone's careless misconstruing of the details isn't right. The records should show the facts.
Back to Augusta (sorry for all the wandering around). The psychologist's first words were, "two purple hearts, that ought to do it." Plus CC has a combat action ribbon, and four bronze stars which show how many operations he participated in.
CC was asked to fold paper in half, an an easily accomplished task. The psychologist told him his brain was still working. Another exercise was to write a sentence, any sentence. CC: "Be alert!" It was the shortest sentence he could come up with which wasn't one word. Another question he was asked was "what would he do in a crowded theater and saw a fire had broken out?"
The exam took an hour and a half. For most of the people CC knows who had similar evaluations; theirs only lasted about 30 minutes at the most. We don't know the results yet, and it will be awhile before we do. Stay tuned.





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The doc said, yes thats just what I mean. You have lost touch with reality. In a few seconds the doc was on the floor - and my buddy was locked up and drugged for about a month.
Anyway nice pics ! Keep at them. And get your congressmen on the case. Nothing the VA hates more than that!
o, if only? a VAMC cooked beans.
Sauerkraut, potato, kale greens,
purple beans, a purple cabbage,
and compensated for war's grief!
I'm not sure? Eat Celery Roots:`
Celery roots? Puree the potato!
I must shush? People care. Yea!
I'm gonna serve greens and sop!
a kiss for sops and a smooch Ya!
Tell Ya mate to behave? Oh, my!
Whatever? Sip soup and slurp it!
I'm asking:`Che Pasa?O amiga-o!
Walk in the amiga lavatory? huh!
No. behave.Ya eat buttered beans!
I love your writing and look forward to more.
Owl, yes, CC is addressing his issues.
Andy, staying the course!
Walk Away, thanks for the encouraging words. If you have dealt with the VA, it should all be very familiar.
Kate, we'll take all the good juju you can send out.
Scanner, you are right, the VA is the last place any of you veterans should have to be proving your meddle.
Art, compensating for war's grief... I'm working for the day when we don't have war causing that kind of grief.
Lunchlady, (my son is a lunchlady too - love your moniker) If your husband is a combat veteran, I suggest going to the nearest Vet Center and let a counselor point you in the correct direction (and other vets will too, if he will join a group). If they can get you to a service officer, then you are really headed in an even better direction.
Rita, thanks for coming by. I was shocked to get an EP. I must say I wasn't expecting it.
I suppose I have PTSD, never actually diagnosed. When I first got home it was either that I was a chump for volunteering for the Marines or I was a crybaby because I was having problems getting on with my life.
Fortunately I met a wonderful young lady who has stayed with me for over 38 years during which I have bumped from pillar to post trying to get something positive going in my life. That girl told me earlier this year she wanted me out of her life. She is tired of putting up with me. So I am out of her life.
Several years ago I communicated with the VA and since I have no service connected disabilities they won't do anything about me. I did get the GI bill in the 70s for college and got a VA loan for the house I used to live in.
I absolutely do not begrudge CC anything he has received. I just want those of you who might read this that not all wounded, decorated veterans can get help. In fact the VA told me when I was communicating with them that the Purple Heart meant absolutely nothing since I was not disabled because of my wounds.
I sincerely hope you all will get well taken care of. I am confident that the VA is coming from a good place and will really try to help old Marines and doggies who qualify.
And it so happened that the henchman & Supervisor who initiated all of this situation at this time is facing a felony conviction and minimum 5 yrs prison term for three consecutive DWI in a two yrs time and during all the while he was performing my Supervisory. Responsabilities. Ain't that cute!
My clinical expirience has been that SRRI'S AND ALIKE only brings partial remission and decrescendo improvement to any underlying Affective Disorder as well as PTSD. The common denominator among all of these partial remitters, is guess what, chronic insomnia. Ambien and alike leaves the underlying neuropathophysiology as is.
There exist vital and crucial brain neuropathophysiology during our sleep stages and/or architecture particularly with REM & Non-REM Sleep Stages that when impaired leads to long term chronic degenerating & irreversible Medical Conditions and Affective Disorders too. "Inconclusive clincial study"as fervent critics might respond, nonetheless, it is well documented in the Sleep Medicine Literature. REM Stage Sleep Behaviour Disorder, so common in combat exposed Vets, leads to Parkinsons Disease in their six decade in 60-70% of patients, as an example.
Sleep Disorder medical investigations began many moons ago, back in 1956 with the discovery of REM sleep proper,some 40 plus years ago.
Unfortunately, anyone suffering from PTSD generaly is not ordered a overnight Polysomnography, to R/O Obstructive Sleep Apnea so frecuent with combat exposed Vets(pds. where brain goes without sustainable amount of O2 & hyperarouses the autonomic nervous system,triggers excess amount of Cytokines), Nocturnal Myoclonus such as Restless Leg Synd also so rampant among PTSD Vets(disrupts sleep architecture and hyperarouses the Autonomic Nervous System & triggers excess amounts of Cytokines) then what is the good use behind CBT. In general and as well, there exist Circadian Disynchrony(so rampant among PTSD Vets), the biological clock disfunctions such as Delayed Phase Sleep Disorder. This is just another chapter in this conundrum.
Is it a matter of cost-containment or just result of the Medical Industry?
Majority of Primary Care Providers traditionally obtain just a few hrs of Sleep medical theory during Medical School Training and Post-Medical Degree Training and still is the case. Comprehensive across the board re-structuralization still needs to be desired in medical world of ours.
Autonomic Nervous System is responsible of heart rythm irregularities, stroke, hypertensive crisis, etc. Cytokines a inflamatory agent is responsible of other host of medical conditions. And all this is not taking into account all the impact of it in the brains Pre-Frontal Cortex, home of the Working Memory & Executive Function and affective modulation. I just dont know.