I've been going over and over in my head how I was going to reveal this information on my OS blog. I couldn't quite find the words. Blogging is such a funny thing. These are incredibly personal stories we're telling, and we want to tell them just right. But in certain circumstances, the information is so delicate, it takes a master storyteller to convey the ideas without revealing too much.

And so I will say this: I'm no longer the personal assistant to a Hollywood mogul.

 On one hand, its a welcome relief for reasons you can only imagine if you've ever seen The Devil Wears Prada or The Nanny Diaries (both extreme versions of my life). On the other hand, I'm unemployed.

Staring into the abyss is frightening, only because the abyss questions you. You are faced with nothingness ahead, there are no stepping stones to guide the way. So what have you got? Just yourself. Now that I've faced that reality, I'm pleasantly surprised to discover that that's kind of an incredible thing. We humans are such miracles of nature, having evolved from tiny bits of plasma into walking, talking, sentient creatures. Seriously, it's amazing that I've survived thus far. And I'm still surviving. Yes, parking tickets and bills do certainly need to be paid, but I'm alive and I've got a whole legacy to carve out for myself, mysterious as the future may be.

 So what was the first thing I did now that I've got nothing and everything to do? I signed up on an online dating site. So far, so good. My profile is quaint and my pictures are good. I'm putting my best foot forward into the dating world and instead of assuming there's nothing but fuck all in the realm of romance for me, I'm going to change a couple of things. Guys who are directors/screenwriters/editors/grips/actors/agents/managers  are hereby banned from my love life. I'll take scientists, businessmen, artists, musicians, educators, activists and more, but the aspirations for a life in the film industry is not something I'm interested in. That's not the only paradigm shift I'm attempting, but I think it's the most important one. 

I'm going to end this entry a bit haphazardly. Believe me, it was hard enough to start this bad boy. I don't know where my life is taking me at the moment. The goal is to prepare for grad school, get my MSW, keep volunteering, and the rest. But as everything in my life, I am expecting the usual twists and turns of fate that will bring me to a place I never imagined I'd ever be. 

Here's to the future, my dear OS family! Here's to you!