Lost but no found

These day I always lost something
I don't know it's lost of my belongs
or those things never belong to me
but I know
those things just lost around me
though i never pay attention to look for them
they still will lie by my pillow one day

this lost
just caused by short term memory loss
only if I try to think over
I think i will lost and found again
However
not all the lost caused by memory loss
something lost can be found hard

The thought it's hard to find the lost
is only a wishful thinking
many things I lost and then will not be found any more
can not find of course is worse than hard to find

The real object lost
substitutes can be found for it
How about the lost in my emotion
some emotions have been lost for long
I dare not to find substitutes for them
for my fear of lost once more

Hurt
I know it's a bitter pill to swallow
therewithal
I always try to persuade myself
My things don't belong to me