hyblaean- Julie

hyblaean- Julie
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Chicagoish, Illinois, USA
Birthday
September 30
Bio
40; army brat; bisexual... still living with my ex partner (uhm, it's complicated?); perpetually confused, which makes me look like i'm doing a ditzy act, but actually it's not put on; middle class in cash if not culture (freaking finally); INFP/INFJ; SSRI, lithium, nicotine lozenge and caffeine dependent. Driven to laziness, odd fits of needing to 'fix' things, subthreshold hypomanic moments of productiveness (rarely) and random weirdness (often). --------------------------- If you have regular suicidal thoughts, please try lithium. It's worth a shot and has worked wonders for me.

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JANUARY 25, 2009 1:49PM

shit shit shit

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I want an OS iv so I can get the stuff I need to get done done, but still have all the stories and debates go right directly into my heart

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I need to vacuum. Just got a new one too.
I need to turn over the compost.
I need to OS.
Let the church say, Amen! I'm finding that I can't get much of anything done these days....
You could give up sleep!
Happy Sunday, Hy. The stuff will still be there after you've fed your heart, right?
lol...I read CoyoteOld Style's comment...though she said "SHEEP"....wondered why...until I reread...still laughing at myself.

Give up. Admit OS is your addiction.
I need to get some work done but I have a topic I want to blog. I feel your dilemma.
Not a good idea hy.....could cause myocardial infarction.
Reading some of docamy last week caused me a mild stroke;)
I know how you feel - too bad technology hasn't evolved to the point where I just pull stuff directly from my brain to the screen.
I just feel like I 'died inside' after xmas. I am ranting here:
I want more. I want OS!!
I want OS!!
Yall write and I will read. I checked and I have started 7 blogs that are not finished.
shit shit shit indeed, hy.
Corgi, during the break it was all good, now I'm missing you guys.

UK- Laugh :D

JK- that is an entirely health use of time..I think, I'm not entirely healthy, but in my opinion, sounds healthy to me

Coyote- tried to, usually do normally, Karen was supposed to get me up at 12Am last night, but we got up at 12pm this afternoon instead- evidently if already in a warm bed with another warm body, I am less inclined to give up sleep.

Rick- homework assignment due today- (done thankfully) online test due today (not done) and 2 written tests and 1 hands on test for Tues- I'm cutting it a little close

Brian- hahah- you need some sleep ;) Coyotes will never give up sheep

Silk- blog it!!

Dharmabum- laugh, usually that just gives me the hiccuoghs from giggling

Jeff- ((hugs you))

Aaron- I can't wait- really- so pathetic, but I can't. I want a memory and harddrive upgrade too- that and learning schmerning, I want this shit able to just be downloaded in- instant savant!
Suzy, it's neverending, and I wouldn't have it any other way either :D
Maybe someday, some yet-to-be-developed technology will enable us to dream in OS. Then we could get our fix and have refreshing little nap at the same time.
I think it is Mungular who calls OS Literary crack. I know that I'm hooked. I don't even clean my desk and it's right in front of me!
That would be so cool!

Bumpity!
Grumpy, Eratic, Beer Bellied , Mean Mouthed , Non-validating Oldfart: "This house is starting to look like a pig-pen!"
"Did you say these dishes in here are clean?"
"Do you even KNOW if these dishes are clean?"
"Depressed?! Stop MAKING YOURSELF depressed"
" Get a hold of yourself! Get a Grip!"
"Are you going to get dressed today?"
"When are you going to stop that crying!"
" I'm %@&^!!@ sick and tired of hearing about your
mother.....@&$$%+! it's been over a week now!"
"Has your Mom been cremated yet?"
"Come and look at THIS house... do you think it has
wood floors...a front room large enough for my TV?"
"Why are you in bed again?"
"Is that all you do, eat or sit at the computer or lie
in bed all day?"
"Take a pill or two why don't you?"
"Are you at that %@*! computer again?"
"It's time for you to get over your mother"
"Here's another sympathy card...boy, these keep
coming...what did you do, tell everybody you
know?"
"I need $$$$ for beer..."
"When are you going to cook dinner?"
"When are we...I MEAN YOU...going to get
that$$$$$$??"
"What are you doing.. oh,that Open Salon shit
again ! "
Aaaaaand with this world-changing innovation, you win this week's Lexus challenge, hands down.
This sounds like it could be worse than the usual case of diarrhea. You may have dystentery. You need to contact me immediately.

http://open.salon.com/content.php?cid=92437
Second attempt, because that's just how devoted I am. I repost when the ether eats my comments.

Unless you deleted it? You wouldn't do that.

I want my computer to read to me. I have laundry to fold. Instead, I'm reading. I'll just pull items from the dryer as I need them.
There's an answer to your conundrum, but it can't be taught and must be learned. Like so many conundrums, it starts out with that oldest and wisest of admonitions from the Oracle at Delphi:

"KNOW THYSELF"
I've avoided such an addiction as this for many, many years now (Twas in my first online group that I met my future ex, POS, MHRIH, etc.) , and it is thus: Such an addiction. I try so hard during the week not to 'tune in', or, if I do, to just read a finite bit; no responses.

This is Impossible! Only when I'm in court can I stay away. And on the weekends, for the most part, I'm dealing with the kids, the house, the dog, the gym (they're being punished right now for not doing their a.m. chores while I went to a 10: a.m. showing of Frost/Nixon, or I wouldn't be here).

I guess moderation is the key. HA! I know not this thing, moderation. I know I have an addictive personality. You all are just enabling me!

k, then. see ya tomorrow....
I swear, I need a 12 step de-programing program for OS.
It's easy. Just don't sleep.
Couldn't wait for guests to leave from my eco-village meeting so I could get back on OS. Really sad....and I had planned to cut down on it, too! I did sweep, do dishes (major!) and fix snacks for the meeting, AND make up an agenda! Now, I MUST go feed the horses and dogs, and maybe even make supper for myself? Oh go the the store, too. But there are so many cool blogs to read and comment on!!!! No, I must do my chores....
I hear you. These damn responsibilities keep cutting into my OS time.
Fuck it snowed again! When did that happen? God, help me before I go read one more thing. Shit, I teach about compulsive behavior, this is getting out of control. Hmmmm... maybe that could be a post on compulsivity...Got to go, I think I just got inspired. How many hours per day until you call it a "problem"?
Good one. I need an OS iv also, because I can't seem to break away to get anything done.
I shit shit shit you not, when I got home from work tonight and saw a coupla dozen posts I wanted to read but knew I probably wouldn't have time to, I thought "Why can't I just have endless amounts of time to read all these!?!?!"
An IV would be impractical.....Imagine scooting that damn rolling thing around with you......who would change the IV while you're blogging?
Grocery delivery? Check. Paid electric bill via online banking? Check. Wi-Fi working? Check. Unfortunately a couch and mini-fridge won't fit in my bathroom or else ....
I have to go back to school today! how am I gonna keep up???

BTW thanks for coming back so often to my post yesterday... it got away from me while I was out!!!!!
I think OS should prepare itself for a class action lawsuit because too many of us are suffering from the same.
Lordy, I hear this. I didn't even dare go near OS yesterday, because as soon as I log in hours magically pass and I'm so far behind w/my assignments already. During the week I give myself 30 minutes with my coffee, but that doesn't even get me through half of my friends' recent posts. Coincidentally, IV therapy is on the agenda this week at school - maybe we can work on this dilemna. When is spring break?
I needed two iv's over the last week ... one for fluids and to kill whatever vermin was living in my stomach and one for OS ... unfortunately, neither were available ... :( ... but I so hear you!!!
I was going to try to have a non-OS day today. So I could do stuff that had to get done. But here I am. Because there is so much interesting stuff to read! And some uninteresting stuff to blog.
Just remember, *you* are part of *our* OS addiction. You're trapped!
The DSM crtieria for OS Addiction:

An addiction is any behavior that meets at least three of the seven criteria during the same 12-month period.

1. Tolerance. Has your use of (OS) increased over time?

2. Withdrawal. When you stop using, do you experience at least one of the following symptoms: irritability, anxiety, shakes, sweats, nausea, or vomiting?

3. Difficulty controlling your use. Do you sometimes use more or for a longer time than you'd like? Do you (blog) to get (blogged)?

4. Negative consequences. Have you continued to use even though there have been negative consequences to your mood, self-esteem, health, job, or family?

5. Significant time or emotional energy spent. Do you spend a significant amount of time or thought obtaining, using, concealing, planning, or recovering from your use?

6. Put off or neglected activities. Have you given up or reduced social, recreational, work, or household activities because of your use?

7. Desire to cut down. Have you repeatedly thought about cutting down or controlling your use, or have you made unsuccessful attempts to cut down or control your use?

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Oh yes, we are indeed addicts. ;)
Nezumigirl- That would be perfect!!

Mike :D

Miko- I'm making mine a piggy back to the coffee/ mt dew one already hanging.

Lisa, you too huh?

Larry, I so wanted to relapse yesterday. I tried to relapse earlier today, but the OS servers were too busy, and I kept getting the boot.

Grandma, you need to trade in that man for a newer model, preferably one with a mute button.

Verbal, now, if I could only get one of these science geeks to actually build it.

Dr. Doctor, already paid you a house call. whore ;)

Mrs. Michaels, I would never delete you- and that's the honest truth. Who washes their clothes? That's what drycleaners are for. (uhm, that would be Karen's opinion, I actually prefer to wash mine, in cold water with a specific softener cause I am that picky)

Rod, I know myself all the time, I'm married.

Connie- moderation, whaaa? I ccaaan't hear youooo (most likely cause my fingers are in my ears and I am facing in the other direction)

MAH, I was gone for 1 day- just one day, and it was hell. My hand kept reaching the mouse up to click the little OS button and I kept having to remind myself that 1 hour does not exist as a time frame in this world.

Jim, I tried that, but it's not going to cut it with this specific clinical. I wish :/

Carol, I just want to live where you do. Dogs, horses, chores involving dogs and horses. That's the good life right there.

Laugh Lisa, I don't know how you mothers do it- I mean that too.

Mr. Spud, if it's less than 3, I'm thinking I'm still good. What do you think- denial?

Eyes, I'm tired, maybe 3 hrs sleep last night, and still I want to be here. This is love man ;)

Stephanie, you figure out a way to train yourself how to only go on here when it's break, come train me.

Bees, why can't we? I wanna be a kept woman- any takers out there?

Gary, LAUGH!! sadly, that makes sense to me

Stim, that would be the glory of a studio apt.

SciChick, I had fun on your post!! Thanks for hosting :) and putting up with our rambling at each other. You teaching, or learning in your version of school?

Rijaxn :D hmm

Diva, spring is never.ever.coming. I'm only 1 week in and I'm done :/ how's by you?

Ma, vermin in the stomach are a good thing, you just have to invite the right ones in and shut the door on the bad guys. I've been hosting a bad guy rave for the last week, but I think it could just be nerves. Hope you're feeling better, nothing kills a good time like the flu. :p

Katina- "but here I am" isnt' it frickin weird how that works??

Sandra, now that was just sweet- Thanks woman :)

Merwoman- wow. actually that list might have got through a bit...yeah...
hyblaean. Now I can decide it's okay to type shit. Shit is sometimes written s*it. It's because shi* is a naughty w*rd? Shit. O.S. can have
a winter symposium.
I*vite renowned MDs.
The MD @ OS who deletes?
I try to toss Yiddish insults.
I write shit. Or write sh&t?
Whatever do a MD prefer?
I assume MD's OS linguist.
~on & on. You reminded me of Pete Seeger. He was visiting a grammar school and sang the lyrics:`Children. I bet You Children have been told at home you must that You must Never Never Dare say the "S"-word?
Pete Seeger then explains that adults have messed up. Adults Mess Up. Adults Mess the world up.
Pete Seeger then sing gentle lyrics ...~
~Children. It's okay to shit, and People need to shit. Adults shit. Everybody needs to give a little shit. Shit, shit, shit, young boys and girls... People need to care about the world... Everybody needs to care and give a little shit. shit. shit.
I woke up. Walked outside. O s*it.
It snowed. Beautiful. I made a cone.
I took some yellow snow. If no sh*t?
Moan? Eat a pretend ice cream cone.
Then read a O.S. blog. I no al-Qaeda?
O Time to wash ice cream dish bowls.
Arthur, no yellow snow eating, unless you put that yellow on in your own kitchen. I wish I had a few hours left before going to the hospital. I would get a dish and go outside (we got a lovely new snowfall last night- although to be honest I'm really sick of winter) pack it full of some snow and make some flavored sugar water (ie, strong strong coolaid or lemonaid) to pour over the ice to have a slushie. It sounds delicious!
My house is crunchy.
There's laundry stuck to the walls and the carpet is moving - and yet, I keep reading OS (well, and messing around on flickr and facebook).