the goddess loves me in all her forms doesn't she?
i worry about this
about changing
mutating
becoming unlovable
it used to be the depression
the rot inside burbling up in acne pustules
and the scent of failure that surrounded me
now it is the exhausted frustration
leaking out in my not smiles
in my inability to make myself more of what is needed
their smiles have teeth
and venomous saliva dripping
the culture of love
of kindness
of eating one's own
they have no respect for themselves
so can no respect for you


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But I like my butt more like taffy!! Wait, what? :)
And damn it Gorden you tease, not everybody is interested in tall girls or big beautiful women!!!!! Sheesh!!!
:)
Michael: I like “leaking out in my not smiles,” because I think you would say “frown” if you meant frown, but they’re smiles when you don’t feel like smiling. I like that.
Julie: in my inability to make myself more of what is needed
Melissa: Oh, but you are exactly what is needed, Julie, whether you realize it or not. It makes me think of those lines from Mary Oliver’s “Landscape,” which I know I’ve quoted elsewhere, but here goes again:
“. . . And now
the crows break off from the rest of the darkness
and burst up into the sky — as though
all night they had thought of what they would like
their lives to be, and imagined
their strong, black wings.”
Julie: their smiles have teeth
Michael: There’s the smiles again, and I like how you’ve used the other meaning of “teeth” here. Very clever.
Melissa: Rated for smiles :-)
I know you are lovely in all your forms. :)
leaking out in my not smiles
in my inability to make myself more of what is needed"
Oh, just beautiful
Rated
Oh my god. I cannot believe I just typed that.
only be achieved through the development of mental peace.
— Dalai Lama
Sharing a little Sunday tranquility with you. Hugs.
Mrs. Michaels, Goddess would be the only one, then- down with the jerky butts! well, unless they are being funny, then I'll just have to be conflicted about the jerky butts
"Judging from the title though, I have a feeling it was meant for us." Patricia, no, I wrote these poems about a week ago during a rough patch of clinicals, and didn't think I'd be throwing them out there, because they are hardly career advancing words...but *eh* I doubt anyone is watching who can stomp on me (oh please whatever deity is listening at the moment, cone of silence, androgynous creature, cone of silence is all I'm asking for- I will be good and true and perfect...just not today) Thanks though :) I'm glad you like them!
Penrose, you and me both, Thank you :)
Hiya Julie- damn woman, Thank you.
Odette :) Thanks for the nudge to actually give voice to anything. Jerky butts indeed- you make me smile when I most need it.
Teddie, I'm glad you liked it!! Thanks for stopping by and for the love. Love is good.
Wow Melissa, just wow- that poem part you quoted will be one I need to type out and put in my pocket for 'those' days. Thanks woman.
Michael- you got it exactly. (& thank you for getting me!)
Tink, speak for yourself dude, I wouldn't mind something to pull. ;)
and it even got the gender right- I mean for a bot that's f*in impressive.
Gordon, bring me tall amazonian curvy sexy women and I will follow you to the ends of the earth.
DAMN! I had to run to my post and look at Megan! SWEET Megan!
Wonderfully written.
Rated
BUT......Dammit, this is like the FIFTH post I've been to that said there would be Jerky Boys in it, and not a single video or audio track.
Y'all are nothing but Jerky Boys teasers, you know that?
I'm gonna go have some lunch now.......
This portion resonates with me most:
"and the scent of failure that surrounded me
now it is the exhausted frustration
leaking out in my not smiles
in my inability to make myself more of what is needed"
The images of smiles 'leaking' gives them a liquid stretched out feel, like a laught that turns into a scream.
peece,
dj
I have the feeling that I'm missing the context, as I often do
Love you.
:^)
I wonder that same thing: whether that goddess we're supposed to be can morph into a pile of crap, for lack of a better word. it's a thin line between goddess and poopness. hence the jerky butt, i'm sure.
i loved:
in my inability to make myself more of what is needed
and
their smiles have teeth.
indeed. they do.
as for the second installment... quite amazing. quite, quite.