was reading through old posts and found this...it's still true, years later
they are in the walls
I can hear them scrabbling around for purchase
mewling to get out like starved house pets
wondering where my former love for them is
my dreams know how fickle i am
bouncing from one idea to another
one hope to another
focused for years only to turn around one day
and they are walled inside my mind
never to be touched again
never to be talked to again
a slow withering death of unrequited love and starvation
the price of my soul
i heard that saying once a long time ago
when the first dream still had me entranced
or was that the fifth dream?
the price of my soul is that i have none
destined to run as fast as i can until i die
there is nothing profound in that
no sense of goodness or rightness
just survival
that is all any of us get
why should i be any different?
but i want to be
*expansive arm gestures*~I want to burn like a thousand candles~
~be a snowflake of incredible beauty~
~be unique and rare and precious~
but i am only my flesh
no fire, no ice
just water and the spaces between the wet
maybe some electricity, does that count as fire?
false fire :) the sense of something about to happen, but fizzling out
a static shock of existence
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You can recompost more and more. Hugs and zumapick.
destined to run as fast as i can until i die
there is nothing profound in that
no sense of goodness or rightness
just survival
Right, but the proper survival needs met with ingenuity
and purpose
are the prelude
to your soul's eventual journey.
'just water and the spaces between the wet"
is ok, why not? Water is the ultimate passive-
aggressive element.
It follows others' solid earthy rules
contributes to the air,
puts out the fire.
(all elements accounted for)
water is amniotic, it holds life within it.
fishies, crustaceans, even whales,
the once-mammals who changed their mind.
they are in the walls.
the wall built against the water, the dampness.
I want to burn like a thousand candles~
Your light does burn like that.
HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
((Linda)) back atcha woman :)
in this gnome's humble opinion.
Hey Gnomie, weeding helps all gardens ;) and Thank you.
and the blossomed into a tree in sun and rain.
This feels different from your other pieces - at least for me. Like a different you wrote it. Enjoyed it very much nonetheless.
It addressed the constraints in life, for me. The constant, nagging constraints of our thoughts, our dreams, our bodies...striving but not reaching. Well, that's how it felt to me at least.
Beth, yeah, different meds, more therapy, less stress. For all it's angst, this is a better me. :/ *shrug* Now I feel like I can't find any specific point to write about- too deep in layers of bluff and denial, I could be sitting there holding the truth and not know it.
and ice
not melting
yet holding
the essences
in your hand
rated with love
such a lovely poem
Nana, it's funny, this one has been sitting there for years with no rates. One thing I will say about 'back in the day' is that it was much harder to get any eyeballs. BTW thanks for supporting my poetry for the last year or two. You've been consistently stopping by and saying words of encouragement, and I appreciate it more than I can express.
destined to run as fast as i can until i die
there is nothing profound in that
no sense of goodness or rightness
just survival"
I like that part, very strongly phrased.
We don't have to just survive or just exist, we have the ability to reach inside our souls and make changes.. Learn to LIVE not just exist.
Glad that you recomposed and posted this one, I love it..
You and I most have been reading each others' minds yesterday, because the two poems fit together.
My mind is a scary place to be, so tread lightly when entering.. grins..
Thank you !{{{{ HUGS}}}}
"when the first dream still had me entranced
or was that the fifth dream?
the price of my soul is that i have none"
and boy do I ever hear that. brutal. and strong. I love when a poet does not back down from looking hard. big hug.