hyblaean- Julie

hyblaean- Julie
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September 30
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40; army brat; bisexual... still living with my ex partner (uhm, it's complicated?); perpetually confused, which makes me look like i'm doing a ditzy act, but actually it's not put on; middle class in cash if not culture (freaking finally); INFP/INFJ; SSRI, lithium, nicotine lozenge and caffeine dependent. Driven to laziness, odd fits of needing to 'fix' things, subthreshold hypomanic moments of productiveness (rarely) and random weirdness (often). --------------------------- If you have regular suicidal thoughts, please try lithium. It's worth a shot and has worked wonders for me.

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JULY 10, 2011 3:50PM

7.9.11

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we make useless motions with our bodies
especially our mouths
spinning around and around
the cycle almost predictable if only we could see clearly

she is naked outside
a child alone
and people are staring, confused

goddess help me, this is too much
i cannot help, all i  can do is watch
and these meds are not enough
not for them, or for me

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this took a turn I wasn't expecting. Sad how we remain removed from the suffering of others.
Procopius
July 10, 2011 04:52 PM
hugs back atcha Gordon :) and thanks, I needed that. It's been a hell of a week.

Procopius, without a doubt. When I get frustrated with them (which can be often with certain behaviors). I try to remind myself what it takes for some of them to just get out of bed and come to med pass. I know I sure as hell wouldn't have that fortitude.
hyblaean- Julie
July 10, 2011 05:12 PM
Good for you to help them Julie.
A great nurse is hard to find....I know all too well myself, having been in many places without one......
Mission
July 10, 2011 05:58 PM
See, this is why I couldn't do what you do. This and an utter lack of training. :(
nanatehay
July 10, 2011 07:17 PM
seconding Gordon Wagner with the hug.. which is a first time I seconded GW Julie
tr ig
July 10, 2011 08:18 PM
Strong, true writing and a sorrow I fear to touch.
Rated.
Scylla the Rock
July 10, 2011 08:26 PM
I get that feeling in dreams sometimes. Shit's happening, and I'm helpless to do anything about it. Then I wake up and realize it's the same with what's happening in this country, and maybe the world. Not a helluva lot any one of us can do to keep from swirling down the giant toilet bowl. Maybe not a helluva lot any bunch of us can do, or any political party. You've captured the bleak helplessness of it all so chillingly well.
Matt Paust
July 10, 2011 10:17 PM
You show us how it takes a special heart and spirit to do what it is that you do.
zumalicious
July 11, 2011 01:47 PM
Yeah, what Nana said. I break stuff in my career choice, well, the receptionist can't play Mine Field!! :(

:)

RATED!
Tinkerertink69
July 12, 2011 03:06 AM
:) I love you guys. Thanks for the support.
hyblaean- Julie
July 12, 2011 03:00 PM
Ok I am going to stop using my mouth so much...Nice poem and more.
Algis Kemezys
July 18, 2011 09:54 AM
Hope you are okay. Best wishes. R
Sheba Marx
July 19, 2011 08:18 AM
The speaker, the observer, is unable to --what? Act? The "people" are "confused." Bodies, especially mouths, making useless motions. And at the center of this vortex, a naked child. There is so much here. So much, and so many questions as a result. Good writing.
scupper
July 21, 2011 05:46 AM